orcafreedom-suffering...i can't breath ez........

yeah...on high yah..!!!

2006-12-31T04:07:00.000+08:00

I LOVE GOD..& JESUS...

I love Michelle....

I love Jane...

I Love Shannon...

I love everybody...yeah!!!

i m pretty happi 2day......n very....

2006-12-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

wooohooo...

2005-08-17T23:28:00.000+08:00

1STLY.....HAPPY BIRD-DAY 2 CHOWTEEE......wooooHOOOooooOOOOoooOOOooooOOOoo....
happi birth day 2 uuu...*clap clap*
happi birth day 2 uuuuu....*clap clap*
Hapiiiiiii biiirrrttthhhhhdaaaaaayyyyy 222 ccchhhoooooowwwwtttteeeee.....*clap clap*...
happi biirrrtthhhhhhh----ddaaaaayyyy 22222222222222222 uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!
WOooooOOOooOoOoOoOOoOoO....
GOD IS BLESSING U NW.....
GOD is blessing u now....
God iiissss bbblleeesssiiinnngggg uuuuuuuuuu nnnooooowwww...God.....issss.....blesssssiiiinnnngggg....uuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...noooowwwww
WOOOOooOOoOOoOoOoOOoOoHhhOoOoOOoOoOOoOoOooOo..................

my beloved friend....i send my best wishes 2 u..thru prayer n everything...all de best in everything...u do..n may ALLLL ya dreams n visions n target come 2 must...may u excel in ya study...and God bless in everything u do....

well...i m so sorry didnt go celebrate ya bday...hw i wish 2 go..sad...haiz...next yr i sure chiong there b de 1st..woo noess....u soo ppoooppular...haiz..cant gt attention from u..sad...so early ppl celebrate liao...lol...

kk...as a thingy...k k..i show u my heart that all i said is true..lol...k nvrm..it will b 2 grosh...lol..ahahah...wooo...still my frien..continue ar!!!..n n n...hmm...breakthru in ya style!...lol..opz...

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Well...2day had PM..in sch..well...de presence of God is strong..wif ppl like huiyun 2 build up..n i tink ernie..yah...k k..nvrm..thanks anyway..well...de presence was strong..but it pulled down by ppl...although last time we had onli 5 ppl...strong presence of God was here...2day..attendence..abt 9 or 10...realli nt large amt of ppl matters..is the heart,,,..oh mannn..de presence is pulled down by some ppl..no offence..but ya..quite sad...i tried quite hard 2 bring it up..but it juz goes up n down..gosh..ppl even come like...during worship...hand so tried 2 lift up lor..haiz...is lifting up realli dat tired..i mean they lift nvrm..but can tell..they r like some1 force them 2 lor...during prayer..i gotta bring my guitar (de sound) lower..n softer..although was building up bobian..ppl pray like ..urm..very soft...n my guit is aLREADI..soft so u can imagine hw bad it is..i cant even hear..ppl 2...i need 2 bring down..coz ppl had 2 agree wat that person pray ma...lol...so is like if i kept playing pp...juz yes n amen 2 my guitar???
..urm....ok..nvrm...well...is ernie crying..or tear abit..i saw him..lol...2 ento..shhh..u guys read keep it 2 yaself...esp hy...urm..yah..i tink he is touched by de presence of God..he realli loves God..but i juz pray that he will b committed 1day..he is quite wiilling n gd n a nice guy..hwever..yahs..commitment is stil a strugle so i juz pray for him for a beter time management...
Gosh..or maybe all tiz is juz my prob..i need 2 buck up..on de flow of spirit..n also...technique....hw 2 bring ppl into presence of God???...well..i ask some for feedbacks..they say ok lah..ok lah..some..can alreadi..watz tiz???...i wan de truth....wat it takes man..
So O Lord i pray that u guide me..i nt juz wan 2 b another player or wat..or a cgg..its juz a name..
i wan 2 serve u...with all i haf..i have nth ...but thank u Lord for ya grace n mercy..i m blessed...
so Lord let me use wat u haf blessed me 2 serve u...2 win de lost..2 bring de presence..2 find a place..whereby de heart b there 2 worship...O God...help me..i m frail n weak..build me..mould me..n refine me...let me b who u wan me 2 be...let me b wif u...2gether wif u..is where i found hopes n dreams..n visions n hope..n faith..and strength 2 carry on living...wif all i m i surrender 2 u..i bow before ya throne...
i give u all my praise..all de glory..all de honour..all de power...in ya great almightly name i pray...AMEN!..

I love u Jesus,..guide my way..

whew...

2005-08-16T14:50:00.000+08:00

tiring days....haiz...poor health..wwelll...gt go joging everyday...trying 2 fix my pathetic weight so heavy lor..like kingkong..i also faints man...increase 7kg after de incident..u noe de hand..sad...muz b eating 2 much ice-cream n chocolates..hopeless..haiz..muz controll...woo...muz aviod all tiz stuff..gosh...

yeah PM is back..woohooo...and Cg 2..woooo...after o many happening event..there r more n less ppl..haiz...so as de PM..well.gng 2 talk 2 them, tml...dunoe wat wld it b like man..well...prepare totalli..2 c ppl go..n nt stay wif us..sad..but..still...God is wif us...y do ppl talk de talk n nt walk de walk?...mst all of us..sometimes..i confess... me 2..sometimes in comfort zone 2 long..nvr rise up..as God sees us..keep tinking tiz sufficient or finding excuses 2 make yaself feel peace..i dun feel peace man..i feel that i m not doing enugh..i nt doing wat i can...wat God wants me 2 do..wat ...it is 2 take ...2 go up another level..closer 2 God...
well..here m i...on fire???...lol...hopefulli dun burn myself..jk..lol..well...pray hard dat tiz fire burns for eternity...i gng 2 do wat it is 2 take...2 glorify..please Him..and also...rise up..wooohoo...i m so excited wat God have for me next man...seeing tings cuming 2 past...wow...wowowoowowo....i m so excited...wat God had for me..cant wait..feel like 2nite go ask Him for more..i nvr limit God alwaz ask Him man..well..for de past few mths..was so called ask little...but once in chc preach before we muz ask u noe..for MORE...bigger tings...as nth is impossible 2 God..woohooo...

i juz feel like dancing man..around de throne..woooooo....k nvrm...hahas...opz...i m madly inove wif God..wooo...revival forever!!!!!!

revival...revival....
revivall....woooo..
lalalalalalala.....

great day???..

2005-08-14T00:34:00.000+08:00

yahs..was supa..headcahe 2day..lol..herez comes back my gastric...hmmm..muz haf ate 2 full on fri..lol...and whenz de last time i ate rice or proper meal..hmm few mths ago..cant even recalled...lo...diet been icecream chocolate n tbits..no wonder i so fat..lol...k ...wasnt feeling realli weelll..pain in gastric..so i prayed..n thank God for healing me..supa fast healing...wifout medicine..also cant find any at home..lol...i ate finish de whole botle??...few mths back..wow..cant let my mom noe if nt she sure kill me..i ate de whole bottle of gastric medi???...lol..in less then 2mths..haha..opz...k...

well when for makeup cg...wif new frienz...pam n wes..n new member js..well..went 2 w25..thanks for their...hos-ti-li-ty..or hw u spell it..lol..k..watched movie..de dunoe wat..something abt unfortunate stuff...k..nvrm..yeah...guez wat..michelle was here 2 yipppeee...so happi..k nvrm..opz...:x..later ppl jealous say i biased..heyy..i m iased..i do love michelle..after God..lol..opz...k..shldnt go further if nt...look left...look right...whew...o_o....

and didnt ate much ting..coz later puke...lol...guez for de next few weeks muz rest n gt back 2proper diet..on diet=muz eat all u can..dun eat doesnt solve man..hmm..yah y i sledom eat..guys..u all muz gt tiz cleatr ...coz i chosy..on diet jk 1...lol..i supa..chosy in food lor...haiz cmi...i rather die of hunger then 2 eat...wohohoho..i guez i onli eeat fastfood..lol..coz is fast..jk...feeling great gotta rest so excited..is sunday tml!!!!!!!!!!//...ooooooowoooo...can c ppl in chc..esp jane..opz..jk...no lah.,..happi n rejoyce 2 praise n worship God..freedom 2 do that...at home abit nt so shok..opz..no lah..there is gd..ppl gather 2 praise n worsip..n presence of God alwaz there...wrds 2 fill de spirit..woo...juz power...

wel nth much supa tired......zzzzzzzzzz

Thank God...

2005-08-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

k..was another---or-dinary week....thurs nth on..well..zzz...fri ..happening gt back olevel MT result...k k...realli thank God..weell...nvr felt anything...was like no feel at all..no fear..no nth..lol..pass=pass..fail-fail..so 2 me was like..haiz..juz take result ma...lol...onli 1 ting i worry cant glorify God...hmm..hahas..k...background details: i nvr hand-in single handout...nvr pay attetion..coz tcher was teachhing(so call mumbling)..zzzz...nvr even touch my textbook at all lol..wow..brand new can sell..lol...nvr even revised for it..juz go take lor...lol..somemore before exam go out everyday go play lah...relax enjoy..woohooo...opz...confess..i wun b like dat lah..tiz time other sub..in o..i will put in a LiTtLEe...effort lar...hmm..well..every1 in my class n other class was..like..face black til as if juz attend a funeral svr..lol..some haven take alreadi..sobsob..crycry...some scared til kept quiet,,..well..i was de odd 1..n my de other frien..lol..we 2 like nt humans odd beings dwn there...lol...

so as usual i zzz...yah but before that..i look at my frien who took her results 1st..coz she in de reg1..i last lor...k lah...4ppl behind me..need 2 wait like..urm 30+ppl...sian..when she gt back i was shock..k..she gt b3..she was supa...sad..lkike wan 2 cry..opz..n i targeted b3 lah..then..k...he details: shes a hardwrking evyrtime lesson gt pay attetion..supa guai kid..study lah..hand in ALL hmwrk lor..lol..nm study very hard for tiz..n result was pretty gd in sch..but onli gt b3??..urm...then..i still nvr panick..lol...i juz pray a very short 1..n believe still..God alwaz make miracles..dunoe y..i nvr haf doubts..though i saw my frienz like dat..i douted a while..but i cleared off every negative tinking in my mind...n i believed in God..so i felt peace..n i slept..lol...then i was woke up..by de calling of my name..time 2 take result..ws uspa blurr...walk there didnt even c hw much then sign de paper..lol..till tcher pointed de grades then i oorrr...lol...i sat dwn..tinking watz 4???...c4???...lol..then i ask my frien..i gt c4??...then they no lar no such grade is b4
...lol...then i praise de Lord...though i believe in 3..but u c..my background mentioned..compared 2 my frien..3??...urm abit supa nonsence..seriois..de paper section1 i leave it empty..although it was olevel..i also..hahaa..opz...

well..at de end i juz wana thank God...again he blessed me..n nvr short-change me man...i loved Him..all my trust in Him...woohoo...n i did it again..juz tat i felt abit soorrry n..urm bad...coz my frienz studied realli very hard..i c de expression they haf i juz hope..well...k nvrm...

till de end..wat i wan 2 say is dat..hmm..God is alwaz wif us..for us..therez nth we can do.. wifout Him..i wonder wat my life will b..sure cant passs 1 lor...lol...wifout Him..i wld haf died last yr..coz i kept tinking abt death last yr..before i was saved..i alreadi planned hw 2 die n eveerything..i haf de courage 2 jump...till i found Jesus..everything's changed...i found back my dreams my vision..n dare 2 dream BIG..dare 2 walk...fight the fight of faith..noe abt wat true love is..God!!!...my life's been renew..n i've been realli blessed n loved..i realli treasure everyday..wat can i do for God..hw can i lived 2 de fullest for Him...wow..look is been 1 yr..n been so happening..like my past feel yrs was supa jialat..like sian..nw is so happening..n i cant wait for every sun 2 cum..2 go 2 de hse of God..n praise n worship..n jump like nvr before..n shout halleluya..loderthenat home..n shout louder in my heart..feel de atmosphere...feel de presence..feel de touch of God...fill de hunger in de Spirit..filled my life...put in more God rather then flesh...i m so blessed juz feel like dancing nw..woohoo...dance...we dance..before ya throne...woooo............

PSS

2005-08-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

Well...continue from yesterday...yahs...abt de supa sch thingy...i guez some ppl wld like 2 noe wat happen huh???....mel...hmm...hahs...jk...lol...well...last last fri we began de evangelistic outreach....we wentinto each n every class...reach out..during recess i was wif jiasheng...sec 3 n 4..doesnt seems 2 go rite..ppl avoid us...hmm...so nt on man...haiz..but we nvr gave up hope stil continue 2 do it..till de recess ended..coz it was de 1st time...of course will paiseh..hmm..but dunoe y for me..is like woo...fun man..tralk non stop..i ask jiasheng 2 try..well.nt stressing him but..lol..he stuttered so i gotta fill up for him...hahs...guez dat i was supa chatterbox..k so we manage 2 gt abt less then 5 contacts..urm...k...after sch we went for another outreach tiz time wif huiyun..peishan..jiashen nt free coz gtD&T...yahs..so total we reach out 2 all de lower sec...sec 1 n 2 ba...well..we tried n they were more friendly..but..nt mature..talk 2 them half way can..vomit blood...they were playign watever fight lah..cards???...lol...urm so some ignore us coz they r realli very supa shy...hmmm....yahs we manage 2 gather 25 contacts..well..non confirm though..but at least step 1...they gave us their contact was alreadi..therez hope...woo..so we carried on...mon rest day...so all de way till de next week...which is last week...on tue we went again...n there was an add on of 13 more contacts...well..was quite..hmm dunoe hw 2 say..still no 1 had confirm wif us..so was abit sad..but nah...still believing God... and was quite troubled..keep praying...so during de nite i will take out all de contacts..n pray for de ppl..although was a short 1 but stll..each n individualli...woo..although they nvr come..i still thank God for favour ofman...and God bless them...yahs so de 1st forecast was 16 confirmed frienz..wow..was rejoycing...lol...hmm..hwever as days goes by...yahs...forecast... up n down..up n down..oh nooo...i was praying like mad...fastrated like mad...gosh is like attacking...the wrst...comes 2 de wrst...after confirming for 1 week..is supa supa confirm...de ting is ...everythings crops...up..haiz...every..so called potential and on 1s...is like backup suddenly...coz smt happen 2 their hse...i was like oh man...i has put supa high hopes on de frienz that r cuming ...dunoe y.. i was like oh man..n i pray also that they wil change their mind..but..haiz...smt horrid reasons like..grandma in 2 hospital..sudeenly..parents nt at home...need 2 car of siblings..parents objection...oh man...those ppl...realli deserve a chance 2 hearthe gospel...haiz...so it was up n down...

.........,....................................................................it was all de way til yesterday..the actual day..oh gosh....suddenly during meeting 2 ppl backup..didnt even tell us ...huiyun they all waited half an hour..for them me n jiasheng waited 20mins or so...haiz...was like gosh...n de forecast is 10...suddenly backup...1 more confirmed 1...wat de..cant gt thru lor..arghhhhhh.....was feeling realli bad..n i kept praying ..all de way...all de way..God gave me 2 verse i tink...lol...let me c cant rememberwat verse i tink is Ps36...i tink so..or isit 37 38..no idea..lol..and also 1 more Jer39..i tink or isit 37 38..smtabt vain hope..and also...then i realise hw frail i m...juz like wat it is said n mentioned...cry out 2 Lord or smt..lol...k...cant remember was abit..like..k nvrm...and then when..when...n finalli..reach doby gout..there was ONLI 7 confirm 1s wif me...supa sianz...somemore all my class 1..n xclassmates..so is nt surprising 2 c them...then sudenly i gt a call..from a new frienz...i was like so happi..and a bit..stress...lol...they r STILL at boonlay..wat de.....ohhhh noooooooo.....haiz...k save all de details sumaari\sed de wholething...coz lazy 2 type....so yesh i can say..i fulfill my pledge...woooo....10...lol...i was targeting more then dat lor 20+...haiz...nvrm...tins juz gts so crops up...n i've been wondering why..all tings happen so coincidence...it was a very gd chance 2 gt ppl save lor..but alot cant go...hmm..then when de sermon was so call chim..nt happening for new frienz..then they happen 2 come...wat si tiz man????...atttacking????.....oh noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.........

Lord save me...i dunoe wat 2 do..such little tings i can't even cope..or so called handle it well...comes 2 de wrst...Michelle ..haiz...realli ma fun her alot..she realli did alot 2..i m so...sorry that i fail her..and forecast keep changing realli if it was me i wld slap that person...thank God...michelle was loving ok dun pray pray..n i loved her alot..yahs..haiz i dunoe wat 2 say..seems ike alwaz i m a heart-breaker n a heart-mentor..irealli realli dun 1 or dun wish 2 let ppl dwn..but it is beyond my control...hwever i still wana thank God...for answering my prayer...n build faith in me...the little faith in me..might cause me 2 back-uop n stop trying but still i hang on..2gether pushing ppl who was wif me...2 hang on...whew..n did...ppl was saved i was preety happy...though we lost in games i m still glad...at least they heard of de gospel..n i believed God have touched their hearts but perhaps...they r shy n nt readi..i m all prepared 2 go for a 2nd round...

as tings keeps gng...i still pray for more faith...more strength..n more presence of God...n also...love ofGod 2 b upon me...i realli realli thank God for everything...
though i m tired nvr had a nice rest for 1 week coz stressing of some small stuff...but..it is paid off..well...finalli can rest in peace..RIP...n prepare for de next reach out...n i m NOT GNG 2 GIVE UP!!!!though i might b discourage...but ppl...as long u pray for me..its alright no nneeed 2 encourage me..no matter hw strreesss hw...dissappoointed i look,..no need..coz God is alwaz wif me...n he alreadi encouraged me.HolySpirit alwaz prompts me,.,lol...wif GOD ALL THINGS R POSSIBLE,...tiz is my fav verse..that alwaz i kept life gng...i loved tiz verse..n i trusted itall..coz God nvr short change us..His promises will b kept for eternity...

lastly..i wanted 2 thank pppl....from de bottom of my heart...michelle..ber...joa..felix who came dwn ...thANnk u guys...and i i...dunoe wat 2 say...huiyun..jiasheng..peishan...2...thanks for all ya help..n sorry for pushing u guys...realli realli feel very...haiz...
wat ive learn i dat i m weak..God is my strength...cant handle tings well...but wif gd shepherd..like michelle..woohoo..even a blur n lost sheep is me...is saved..whew..on de track man...woohooo....

Thank God...
in Him we trust...
Amen!

whew...days r over...

2005-08-11T00:44:00.000+08:00

been 2 weeks...tiring..acutualli onli 1 week onli lah..but k...whew...project sch is over...haiz...mixed feel...happi..sad...and nt losing out...angry..fastrated...and everything...fufil pledge???...10frienz??...k..but didnt hit de target..sad...but is ok..i trust that God willl nt short change us 1...woohoo..more is abt 2 cum...retro..dancing...woolalala....cant stand it..feel like dancing for de Lord....nah jk..cant dance...

weelll...svr was great....woo..2bad for all who nvr go...wow..was out de whole day..sian..nvr c my family 2day..but..is ok..hahaha...opz...pretty relive..n burden being cancelled(or watever u call dat..lifted??) half...whew...juz need 2 concentrate on ppl who r potential n came before...everything...out reach is OvEr...BUT....outreach is stil on..wooo....continue..but nt that hiong...but still yah..nt dat stress...stil believing that more will come...more will b saved...20 is juz a small tiny whiny no......ask God for more..wooo....well...no. although is nt de prob..is dat hw mani will stay???....that is wat i concern..nt input but output...i mean.watever u call dat loh...hmm...no idea...all games was pretty fun...err...fuhua lost last i tink..but is ok...de mst impt ting is we enjoy ourselve...n haf fun..n geeting ppl 2 respond altar call...was preetty hapi day..although nt 2 mention abt the game result..lol..had great fun c-ing ppl around me having fun n enjoying themselve...

and realli thanks beloved w300....ber joa felix...and MICHELLE!!!..thanks for everything!!!!!!!!

n sch mighty trios..huiyun jiasheng peishan...yahs...thank u 2....

n every1...who kept us in prayers.....realli thank u every1...

love ya guys so much.....juz tired will bnlog again hwz everything in detail....lol...k k ..wow..doze off..type half way..zzz...lol..k k ..thatz it...realli zzz...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

wat a week...

2005-08-09T01:11:00.000+08:00

k k..outreach was finalli over...over..whew...although stil doing outreach but for sch 1..is alreadi over..coz no sch..haha...urm..k nvrm...tiring man...sweat...fastrating 2...well...quite happening for last week n tiz cuming week...woo....
1stly last week cut my hair...half short half long...but nt obvious leh..sian...actualli shld haf call dat person 2 shave off ...no..u noe y..nt i dun wan..is cool ok..juz dat mom..went wif me..sian ar...bobian so...lol...she sacre i go home wif some happening hairstyle..hole here n there..liek de last sandstorm...lol..k..wat...stylo...muz flow..lol

2nd, was FOP..went wif xinyi..n a great fellowship n we head dwn 2 SIS...met felix at cleenti..head dwn 2gether..well...delirious? shock me..their every opening is different n special...i love it..n dat lead guitarist n drummer was supa cool..so as de lead singer...well hillsong...nt bad 2..stil prefer delirious? though...lol..well..kinda of wasted..hillsong lead guitarist nvr cum..my fav..u noe y..pro man...de techinque quality..is supa gd..n 1 of de lead singer gu also nvr come...haiz..but nvrm..coz gt another 1..de 1 sinf King f majesty guy..nt bad 2..2 bad he nvr lead..hahs...well..after all we went 2 mac..me pier n xinyi..we walk n walk...n walk...yahs...lol...so after ice-cream..abit unsure where we r..so when 2 bustop..thank God..there was bus it was like 11++ alreadi..then we took 30..all de way..reach home at abt...1230+..am...lol...cool...well..nt bad..

3rdly, SIS..woohooo...thank God..sian..was another...lol.day...mom nvr wake me up...n i slept ..til 9am..woke up wonder y so bright,,,lol...c de clock was..SHOCKED....sarted 2 panick..n chiong everything..brush teeth...change clothes..chiong in less then 10mins..nvr even style hair chiong out...then called j...lol...they 2..chiong 2 bugis n take cab..coz bonlay no cab ler..lol...well..thanks j for all de advice...in taxi chiong eat breakfast nearly choke...lol...reach there went in..thank God again..de q was fast...so manage 2 gt in...also gt seat 2...well...preety fun..noe n talk alot 2 new frienz esp...yijun n pamela..lol...fun man...k k..after that wnt PS 2 felllowship...pretty fun..after dat went yamaha...wow...de white electric caught my eyes..still nw..i m tinking of it lah...haiz..muz gt tat supa cool..somemore gt light at de turning thing woohoo..n special build..(2 me )..yahs..cool die die muz gt..someday...SGD$810..haiz....over buget...then after dat when peir hse took his guit...and evrything..went alvaron 2 jam...wif joa pamela...n cal n fel..came later..lol..k k..abit crops up...coz i dun haf guit...yahs..

well...2day supa..fastrated...frienz..stILLL...cnt confirm..some esp some guys...like gay like dat..wat..he go i dun go..he dun go i go..and also...things like...he go then i go...wat de..haloooo..hw old r u some more..hw old r we????..urm...no commenz...alot of ppl backup although confrim for 1 week ler..haiz...i still long on a bright side..number of ppl is a prob..de mst impt tig 2 me..is hw mani can gt save thru tiz..keep praying n fasting 2...realli burden..dyunoe y..although is nt realli a big ting ..i feel so trap...n stress..everyday rush ppl call up..n me 2 call ppl up..outreach everyday in sch..everyday after sch..recess...before sch..well...is worth it..2 do it for God..no matter wat it is gng 2 continue outreach..attendance dat forecast confrimed dropped by 2/3..supa...supa..dunoe hw 2 say...was supa stress..n so call bad mood somehw...starting 2 tone high..hwever..i apologise..perhaps..after for some time then explode..but i dun scold or wat..juz...hang ya fone...diao...lol..opz...hahaha...k.,nvrm...
well..i want 2 tahnk God once again..i chiong again reach out..is actualli nt juz 2 gt back de no..but 2 increase de no..coz wat i've set wat 30..no prob since..de thingy change other sch also can is ezlier...hwever due 2 de drop..manage 2 gt back more than 2/3..whew...thank God for jiasheng...let me sweat..at least call 2 report something..wooo...lol...relieve...tense again..gotta keep gng..!!!!!well..juz comntinue 2 pray..well...

still praying...praying..n praying...

tink abt it..i feel so useless of me..cant even do a simple little ting myself..cant forecast..cant setle persue ppl.even haf favour of man also abit no use...lol...hmm..quite disapooint in myself...didnt realli ..alot of tings go acordinly..n also didnt do tings efficiently...
will mediate...n start 2 renew myself..n start on..n improve myself..indeed i admit i lack of faith...although i keep believing ...look hw mani attendance we gt..n faith is still lack..n i nt trying hard enugh..i believe can even more 1...30 is wat..nth...sch so mani lost souls..y isit so hard..???..is ntr hard..coz i nt doing a gd job...hmm...muz improve on dat..nt reaching out enugh...n i need more strength ..i m weak..tiz is all wat i had..but i believe strongly that..my faith will bbuild up..strength will come..coz God is wif me....NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE...revial forever...tiz end of yr...20..ppl...woohoo..solittle no..sure can....

PRAY..PrAy...prayy..praypraypray....

HAPPY BDAY............

2005-08-08T00:18:00.000+08:00

2 BER......!!!!!!!!!!!!WOOOOhooooooo.........

2 beloved shannon...although nvr c u..miss u though...happi bday....yay!!!!!!!

AND and...and nt forgeting...de 1 i mst....i mst ...love her...wooo...Michelle!!!!!!!!!!wooooooooohoooooooooo...........yippeeee.........happi birthday dar!!!!!!!!!!!!!

u rock!!!!!!!!!!!!!love u guys...ESP....MICHELLE....wooohoo..opz..i m biased again...hahaha...........................................yiiihaaaaaaa......

i m back!!!!!

2005-08-05T00:09:00.000+08:00

after so long...nvr blog been supa bz..life is so pack n full..i dun even haf time 2 sleep..lol..nw i m in panda club..hahaha...anyway...i m back..tiz time 3 blog mre happening gng abt my life..n noe hw 2 summarise it..no more long blog...HWEVER...there b flooding still gng on..opz...watch out ppl...i decide 2 choke out time 2 blog ler..muz realli whew...stress everyday study onli...lol...cmi..haiz...i need 2 breath man...

2day n tiz week..FOP...16th anni...PSS...wow..all sweat bz...man... well..hwever i love it..in case u all dunoe watz PSS...is project supa sch..organise by our chc..under WYZ...so..woo...evagelist outing..wow..been reaching out for 1 week..dunoe y..i believe o strongly dat..revival..is here..we juz need 2 hang on..believing..woo...wow..i tink i alreadi nt shy or..err..so call..any stranger can approach...woohoo...i wan 2 volunteer go evagelist is fun man...appoarching stranger is like cool lor..although might face rejection..hwever..is very exciting when u waiting for de reply..lol..i muz haf beeen mad..k k...

and yahs..was very haapi..sad although so mani pending nt much confirm..cing cg ppl bringing so mani freinz n i brought non..haiz...wherez de 20 ppl???..lol...well..i still believe in great nos...i will juz wait..n wait.. n wait...yahs..i still praying for every single name..hmm..y sec3 n onwards so hard...sec1 n 2 is supa ez lor...

n my vision for revial...is reaching out 2 lower sec..dunoe y..is ju weird when tiz so call came upon me..is like..no strange feel..dunoe hw 2 say also...

reach out last day 2day..after 1 week of non-stop reach out..every single class we go except 4abcd..other..all done..more then 30 pending..onli 14 confirmed..i pledge 10..whew fulfill pledge..thank God i nvr fail Him..but hwever i wanted 2 ask more...2 me i tink i ntdng gd enugh..bad...well...i wanted a 30...but abit off cant handle 2mani..cant remeber de face..opz..lol..well...juz pray every1go more then half will gt saved..i was praying that 3quater go..will b save..bring them 2 cg..well...keep me in prayers!!!!thanks man...

n above all...i wanted 2 thank huiyun..peishan..n jiasheng..for u guys...thanks...esp huiyun..haiz..coz of my poor memo thanks for wverything..love ya guys..peishan 2..power...

i m ready..i m ready..i m ready...juz like spondgebob say..i m ready i m readi..i m readi..woohooo..kk..haha...

realli miss..w300..finalli can c u all..yippeeee...n..n..n...MiChElLe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..wooooooooooooooooooooooo...

yoohooo......

2005-08-03T22:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPI BIRDAY.....SHARON!!!!!!!!

yoohoo...well..so sorry we were late...coz i borow michelle so ..is nt her fault my fault..hope u r happi...sorry 2 last min..nvr prepare anything..well...meet up again ba...;).best wishes 2 u...love ya lots..n hmm...all de best in everything u do...n yahs we took some nice pics..although my hair cmi 2 de fullest...juz hope dat u enjoy 2day n very happi..nvr talk 2 u so sorry...anyway..wanted 2 play u a song...but smt crops up..opz...haiz...k nvrm...

and ...is very happening 2day..j n dar...woohoo...k...

love ya lots..guez wat??...saw ja--nneneee..2day woohooo...opz....

yesh...revival..fORevER...!!!!!!!!

2005-07-29T00:09:00.000+08:00

amen...amen..nnn...amen...well...waqna thank God so far sch pm..being gng smooth..nt realli smooth but in de sense we r provided...thank God for favour of man...nwadays..life been more ez and gd in sch..when u haf favour of man..opz...k k..nvrm..was preettyy bless...thank God that our so called...de DM is a christian..so is ez 2 gt room..so we r provided a plce in sch 2 haf PM every week...add on..ppl said ..i tink i saw him in chc before..so i was like wow...some tcher from chc realli makes tings done ez...indeed blesss man..i wana thank God for being our provider...hwever some tcher r nt..so..peeps from fuhua who gt read tiz..advice 2 u again...dun approach tcher..coz some tcher..err...hw 2 say..will block our way,,and skly end up no place..and persecute..so plz..plz..plz...before u all approach any tcher plz let me noe 1st..coz i noe some of de tchers well...they r supa gd in saboing ppl...so plz..dun look for them..hmm...Mr Goh can..he is very amiable 2 approach ;)..and well...yesh 1 ting 2 share...woohooo...fuhua revival..is here...2day..i gng 2 go around de sch..by faith...i believe sure can invite ppl n make frienz wif them...walk around wif presence of God..and do something outrageous...approach ppl that we DUN even noe...WYZ has a new so call...evangelist gng on...call the SUper sch Project..and we wil reach out..2 ppl..n on de 10aug..b having exciting games n short service...i pray that yahs i will do it..perfectly 2day..n will nt b in lost of wrds..or so call blur..n nvr say..urm..ok..nvrm...yahs..i will b confident!!!!...woooo...realli excited been rehearsing till nw 1221am...still figuring out hw 2 b friendly n nt scare ppl..hi my name is..i m from...n blar blar blar...realli excited...

hmm...ppl..still so called worry scared..or like wan dunwan..from our sch PM ppl...HEYY COME'ON...is ez THEREZ NOTHING IMPOSSIBLE FOR GOD...when i 1st gt de news i wasn't like hw 2 say..scarre los face or watever..i alreadi tinking wat class 2 go..lol...thick skin liao...wooo...wah supa excited..cant wait 2 hear de ans from every1s moyuth..on ar..ok lor..anything..woooo....supa happi...i juz pray favour of man b upon us..and also...love of God will flow thru us..2 win them over as gd frienz 1st...yaeah..yay...amen...halleluja...praise de Lord...

orca is supa happi n excited abt tml...so plz..when u c me u noe i m madly in love..

btw share a vision..i c...very weird is like gt a very strong feeling that Sch PM..will b full...inde sense 2 mani ppl..the room b supa pack that we need 2 split into 2PM..wow..great revival..i juz pray it will cum 2 pass by faith..and also..ppl...stay wif me..i noe i can win tiz battle...coz God is wif me.... but i dun wan 2 lose u all out...thatz y...dunback-up..!!!!REMOVE ALL DISBELIEF N negative thoughts....believe...FAITH..let us roar...let us scream..let us shout ya fame...Oh GoD..IS JUZ SO WONDERFUL...wat will cum..i believe more happening is gng 2 cum...wooo..i m stil so excited/....

well...nth much 2 blog abt...

2005-07-27T21:45:00.000+08:00

more will come...promised...till i m free...sch realliii...*@# 2 de fullest..anyway stilll enjoying...whew...join de talentquest..hope can gt in ba...yahs...haiz...fuhua revival..forever...hope dat everything can wrk ba...yahs...so i change ma skin AGain...lol...isit ez-er 2 read nw???...gues so./..n more organise ba...i tink....somethings rong wif all my previous 1 i go edit...till mess up de whole file...hopefulli tiz wun ba...well...do go check out...fuhuarevival...blog...www.frevival...f=fuhua...lol...short form..sounds cooll....hmmm....

wooo...

2005-07-24T22:38:00.000+08:00

TO:ppl who alwaz cum ma blog...
change ma blog skin n song...hope dat tiz skin is EASLIER 2 READ...coz i wan ppl 2 read it wif EASE...lol...and de song by The Platters...OnLi yOu...

and also..
yahs...tiz skin maybe temporary..coz therez no nice 1..n orca here..is a noob n geek 2 coms..so..lol..

and when i listen 2 tiz song i love it..coz i will sing 2 God onli u...
and after dat..i will tink of diff ppl..each is different..so onli u..

well...thatz abt it..will start 2 blog..yipee...nice skin..
paiseh no tag board..can any1help me???...i wan j'z tag board..that time also u help me..but nw i make tiz i cant make leh...dots...
and introduction:
under clicks b all my links n profile..talks..b song lyrics..top pics..n..tag board(cuming soon)..

From:Orca..wif lots of love...

...hmm...

2005-07-21T15:46:00.000+08:00

i juz realise something blog realli gives me more chance..2 noe ppl more thru their blogs..n i m more open 2 type...rather then say i sy u all b blur if nt dun understand..anyway..even though i type urm also nobody noe..hahaha...lol..in de sense stil dunoe wat i talking abt..

lol..
wahaha...

bz for tiz week..hmm...wil try blog something nice lah..lol..opz..long time no blog abt de those daily bread opz...sorry guys...

abit off nwadays....i juz hope n in advance say advance 2 all...sorryyy...if anytime i go bonkers any old hw "scold u all" or dao u all...juz leave me alone lah..lol..hmmm...is weird.. frienz call me b more fierce n tense...coz of de sch pm thingy hwever...haiz i m sick of being fierce..de last time i fierce was long ago..any 1 teach me??...lol...i remeber de last time i gt fierce ma frienz was...o_o shock...lol..urm..k onli once which is like last yr..or last last yr..yahs..lol...i like no mood swing somehw..but most of the time...sleepy..will b so called mood swing coz..i dun talk when i realli realli very tired...lol...

hmm..and its been long since i last speak vaguar..before i was saved..somehw stop,..coz i m sick of it..lol...anyway..also shldnt speak is no use 2...our mouth is use 2 praise n worship..nt curse...

....well..hmm..nth 2 say...but juz pray hard dat i can c

arrrr...i cant take it anymore...

2005-07-19T17:34:00.000+08:00

suppposingly saying dun talk 1....arrrrr.....
but i cant take it anymore...onli 2 days..lol...

i keep tinking keep missing..
i realli miss u guys 2 fullest...
so de whole day i spend time..missing u all
tinking abt u guys...
and also praying for each 1 of u...

y isit like dat????..i dun understand...

arrr....i cant take any more...

last time..i broke out woif ma frien for a realli realli small tiny whiny matter...sje sat in front of me everyday c each other...same class somemore i can cointrol...4yrs dun talk at alll....

y isit..juz 1 week i cant??....

gosh i m in love wif u guys...

and i tinking abt God every single sec...

and i keep tinking in sch abt cg...abt chc..abt a & b...tinking all abt stuff..and also...tinking abt reaching out 2 ppl...i was supOsInGlY...NT 2 talk in sch but...arrr....
i was talking 2 ppl...reahcing out for tiz week service..i juz cant stop talking like de old me..sometihng that is in me..that i cant controll....arrrr...wat isit...????? love???....i m nt loving ..hw cld i miss u guys n...arrrrrrr..........

i m juz lousy 1 week....of peace also cant...arrrrrr.....

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story dat touches ma heart...2...

2005-07-19T17:15:00.000+08:00

Letter from heaven
Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the Surgeon come out of the operating room.

She said, "How is my little boy?

Is he going to be O.K.?

When can I see him?"T

he Surgeon said, "I'm sorry, we did all we could."

Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer, doesn't GOD care any more? GOD, where were you when my son needed you?"

The Surgeon said, "One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes to let you spend time with your son's remains before it's transported to the university.

"Sally asked that the nurse stay with her while she said good-bye to her son. Sally ran her fingers through his thick red curly hair.

The nurse said, "Would you like a lock of his hair?" Sally nodded yes.

The nurse cut a lock of his hair and put it in a> plastic bag and handed it to Sally.

Sally said, "It was Jimmy's idea to give his body to the university for study. He said 'it might help somebody else,' and that is what he wanted.

I said, no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom I won't be using itafter I die, maybe it will help some other little boy to be able to spend one more day with his mother.'"

Sally said, "My Jimmy had a heart of Gold, always thinking of someone else and always wanting to help others if he could.

"Sally walked out of the Children's Hospital for the last time now after spending most of the last 6 months there. She sat the bag with Jimmy's things in it on the seat beside of her in the car.

The drive home was hard and it was even harder to go into an empty house.She took the bag to Jimmy's room and started placing the model cars and things back in his room exactly where he always kept them. She laydown across his bed and cried herself to sleep holding his pillow.

Sally woke up about midnight and lying beside her on the bed, was a letter folded up.

She opened the letter,

it said:

Dear Mom,I know you're going to miss me, but don't think that I will ever forget you or stop loving you because I'm not around to say I LOVE YOU. I'll think of you every day mom and I'll love you even more each day. Someday we will see each other again. If you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, he can have my room and my old stuff to play with. If you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things as us boys do,so you will have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like.

Don't be sad when you think about me, this is really a great place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me aroundsome, but it will take a long time to see everything here. The angels are so friendly, and I love to watch them fly. Jesus doesn't look like any of the pictures I saw of Him, but I knew it was Him as soon as I saw Him.

Jesus took me to see GOD! And guess what mom? I got to sit on GOD'S knee and talk to Him like I was somebody important. I told GOD that I wanted to write you a letter and tell you good-bye and everything, but I knew that wasn't allowed.

God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter with. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel that is going to drop this letter off to you.

God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him about...Where was He when I needed him? God said, "The same place He was when Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.

Oh, by the way Mom, nobody else can see what is written on this paper but you. To everyone else, it looks like a blank piece of paper. I have togive God His pen back now; He has some more names to write in the Book of Life.

Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great. I almost forgot to let you know - Now I don't hurt anymore that the cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't! stand to see me suffer the pain either, so He sent The Angel of Mercy to get me. The Angel said I was Special Delivery!

Signed with love from:God & Jesus & Me

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~* tRUST & OBey the LORD *~~~~~~~~

Honestly, whoever that wrote this, and whoever that fwd it to everyone,.. i want to thank you for sharing it with us because it has really inspired me and touched my heart!! *sniff *sniff,. you know, everytime i read this story, i can almost cry.. its really... touching. I meant, put yourself in the mother's shoe, okay? I am happy after reading this story, no matter what a bad day i've had, it inspires me alot.. thank you! and it touches ma heart.......

jokes dat cheer u guys up....when i m nt around...

2005-07-19T17:01:00.000+08:00

TEACHER : Why are you late?
BALGOBIN : Because of the sign.
TEACHER : What sign?
BALGOBIN : The one that says, "School Ahead, Go Slow."
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TEACHER : Balgobin, why are you doing your math sums on the floor?
BALGOBIN : You told me to do it without using tables!
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TEACHER : Balgobin, how do you spell "crocodile"?
BALGOBIN : "K-R-O-K-O-D-A-I-L"
TEACHER : No, that's wrong
BALGOBIN : Maybe it's wrong, but you asked me how I spell it!
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TEACHER : What is the chemical formula for water?
BALGOBIN : "HIJKLMNO! "!!
TEACHER : What are you talking about?
BALGOBIN : Yesterday you said it's H to O!
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TEACHER : Balgobin, go to the map and find North America.
BALGOBIN : Here it is!
TEACHER : Correct. Now, class, who discovered America?
CLASS : Balgobin!
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TEACHER : Balgobin, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.
BALGOBIN : Me!
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TEACHER : Balgobin, why do you always get so dirty?
BALGOBIN : Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
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BALGOBIN : Dad, can you write in the dark?
FATHER : I think so. What do you want me to write?
BALGOBIN : Your name on this report card.
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TEACHER : How can you prevent diseases caused by biting insects?
BALGOBIN : Don't bite any.
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TEACHER : Balgobin, give me a sentence starting with "I".
BALGOBIN : I is...
TEACHER : No, Balgobin. Always say, "I am."
BALGOBIN : All right... "I am the ninth letter of the alphabet."
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TEACHER : "Can anybody give an example of "COINCIDENCE?"
BALGOBIN : "Sir, my Mother and Father got married on the same day, same time."
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TEACHER : "George Washington not only chopped down his father's Cherry tree, but also admitted doing it. Now do you know why his father didn't punish him?"
BALGOBIN : "Because George still had the axe in his hand?"
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BALGOBIN : Daddy, have you ever been to Egypt?
FATHER : No. Why do you ask that?
BALGOBIN : Well, where did you get THIS mummy then?
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TEACHER : What a pair of strange socks you arewearing, one is green and one is blue with red spots!
BALGOBIN : Yes it's really strange. I've got another pair just like that at home.
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TEACHER : Now, children, if I saw a man beating adonkey and stopped him, what virtue would I be showing?
BALGOBIN : Brotherly love?
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TEACHER : Now, Balgobin, tell me frankly do you say prayers before eating?
BALGOBIN : No sir, I don't have to, my mom is a good cook.
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TEACHER : Balgobin, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
BALGOBIN : No, teacher, it's the same dog!
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TEACHER : What do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
BALGOBIN : A teacher

story dat touch ma heart...

2005-07-19T16:56:00.000+08:00

Jesus is in my heart
I LOVE JESUS... of CourSe!!! He's my everythin!!!! Message: Jesus....

> >"Tomorrow morning," the surgeon
> began,
> > "I'll open up your heart..."
> >> > "You'll find Jesus there," the boy
> > interrupted.

> >> > The surgeon looked up, annoyed "I'll
> > cut your heart open," he continued,
> > to see how much damage has been
> > done..."

> >> > "But when you open up my heart, you'll
> > find Jesus in there," said the boy.
> >> > The surgeon looked to the parents, who
> > sat quietly. "When I see how much
> > damage has been done, I'll sew your
> > heart and chest back up, and I'll plan
> > what to do next."

> >> > "But you'll find Jesus in my heart. The
> > Bible says He lives there. The
> > hymns all say He lives there. You'll
> > find Him in my heart."
> >> > The surgeon had had enough. "I'll tell
> > you what I'll find in your heart.
> > I'll find damaged muscle, low blood
> > supply, and weakened vessels.
> > And I'll find out if I can make you well."
> >> > "You'll find Jesus there too. He lives
> > there."
> >> > The surgeon left
.> >> > The surgeon sat in his office, recording his
> > notes from the surgery, "...damaged aorta,
> damaged
> > pulmonary vein, widespread muscle
> degeneration.
> > No hope for transplant, no hope for cure.
> Therapy:
> > painkillers and bed rest. Prognosis:, "
> > here he paused, "death within one year."
> >> > He stopped the recorder, but there was
> > more to be said. "Why?" he asked aloud.
> > "Why did You do this? You've put
> > him here; You've put him in this pain; and
> > You've cursed him to an early death. Why?"
> >> > The Lord answered and said, "The boy,
> > My lamb, was not meant for your
> > flock for long, for he is a part of My
> > flock, and will forever be.
> >> > Here, in My flock, he will feel no pain, and
> > will be comforted as you cannot imagine.
> > His parents will one day join him here,
> > and they will know peace, and> > My flock will continue to grow."
> >> > The surgeon's tears were hot, but his
> > anger was hotter. "You created that
> > boy, and You created that heart. He'll
> > be dead in months. Why?"
> >> >> > The Lord answered, "The boy, My lamb,
> > shall return to My flock, for He has
> > done his duty: I did not put My lamb
> > with your flock to lose him, but to retrieve
> > another lost lamb."
> >> > The surgeon wept. The surgeon sat
> > beside the boy's bed; the boy's
> > parents sat across from him. The boy
> awoke
> and
> > whispered, "Did you cut open my heart?"
> >> > "Yes," said the surgeon.
> >> > "What did you find?" asked the boy.

> >> > "I found Jesus there," said the> > surgeon.

yahs...1 week rest....away from ALL human contact....

2005-07-17T23:52:00.000+08:00

yahs..so 1stly i like 2 apologise 2 all ppl who r waiting for de so called sermon..been realli bz n up 2 smt...so...yahs..

HEY I WILL B RESTING 1 WEEK!!!!!!!

and tiz 1 week i wil b nt online...nt blogging..nt updating any stuff...wun realli cum online...and also...away from human contacts...

heyy ppl...esp sch ppl...dun blame me..i wil b e supa quiet n NT TALK in sch for tiz whole week..i will b cold 2 all tings(in de sense replying)...and also..yahs sorry if any offence....
chc ppl..anything impt then sms me..if nt nvrm...i will rest all de way til cg or svr then will c n contact ba..juz keep me update tings..i wun reply ya msg...and as for joa...u r bless 2 interupt ma rest..tue cum ma hse for ya lesson..REMEMBER HOR...after that i wun b cing or talking 2 u..sorry bro...and sharon perhaps tiz whole week wwun go find u....

heyy is 2 sudden ..hmm..starting on mon...i juz need a PEACE of mind..i dun wish 2 talk 2 any1..any other or wat...chc ppl...sch ppl...parents..etc...outta ma sight..outta my living outta ma way,,,NO oFfEnCee....

its bbeen a fruitful n bless week...can go opm..is a realli great thing 2 me..wow..i love it man..wanted 2 go but...yahs..nvrm...and its been quite bless..i guez...and..haiz...smt juz crops up...dun wish 2 talk abt it..anyway...yahs,...anyway..

i NOT runing away or avoiding any1..tiz 1 week i gona tink n tink...n i juz WISH 2 b A-L-O-N-E!!!...coZ 2 long nvr let ma mind rest...and nt 2 offent any1...yahs...

n PLZ PLZ...do NOT call me...sms..i wun reply u...and also..call i wun pick up dun even tink abt..calling ma hse..coz Juz plz dun...coz..nvrm...juz leave me..a--lone..i wun reply any1..serious...and i WUN pick up ANY call..gt anything sms i stil wil c...but no reply.k.k...juz naging..and so called warning..if i offended any1..including cgl or wat...arrr...k...nvrm...

certain tings realli gt into ma nerve..well...so called look supa tired...actualli nt..juz there coz i wept..wow...in svr..i broke de law..man shal nt cry..lol...yahs..during svr..juz wept like wow...nvr so badly before cant control...no reason...yahs...n perhaps coz of tiz..nvrm..juz sorry 2 bros n sis..who so called kana scolded..by...urm..nvrm...

maybe..perhaps i juz tired..or sick of stuff...well...tings doesnt go well u gona stop..tink..n look..so wat i m dng is 1 week of peace..no ppl..i wan 2 talk 2...no nth..juz me..alone wif God..no worries..promise wil study..and pray..of corse i will..i juz take rest in physical..nt spiritual world..no worries ;)

last time i wil;l say tiz week....

Urm..ok...nvrm....dun miss me..lol..jk...will b back soon..juz 1 week ma..wun kill nt 1 or 2 mths...lol...

God bless and tc...

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2005-07-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

hey..i b puting up pics..instead of blogging ma daily..i wil put some pic n talk..is so call pic n talk blog lah..lazy 2 say whole thing...

PrOfEsSiOnaLs...in guit>???..lol..jk...herez some pics..of ""PrOS"""

2005-07-16T23:17:00.000+08:00

WaT's lOv3 aBt AcUtAli!...????

2005-07-15T00:35:00.000+08:00

hmmm...so 1day was another realli very sian day in sch..dunoe y..go sch like wasting ma time n meaningless...sometime i thought of dun go 2 sch and spend ma time more meaningfulli...haiz...so as uausal...arr...2day tcher make extra stay back..lol...all de way til 4...then met wenhan 2 paz him back his guit...opz..i nvr realli touch it..coz no time..lol..opz...hahs anyway thanks for lending me though...hahs..nt bad lah..
back 2 de story..so i was on bus 198, i tink...gng 2 jp & change bus home...then..i saw a mother wif 2 child..very young..i tink i taller then de kids abt more then 3 heads..so u can guez hw young they r...yahs they r very young...lol...so at jjc that bustop..somewhere near blk500+ that bustop...as the door close...sundenly..i heard the mom yelling at the kid..coz at de stop...she kinda of drop de card..hmm..hw 2 say..de card "flew" off ...de bus..lol..guez dat she didn't grip it properly..her mom yell at her...wow scold her like mad..and is like dat gurl, although is her fault is like poor ting lor..urm..yahs..and her mom..was saying smt like..y so stupid..etc..playplay..u noe inside alot of money a nt..then was like..oh gosh non-stop scolding...and when they gt dwn de bus, at de next stop.. i nvr stop looking at them...they walk 2 certain distance..under HDB block..n i keep looking..i saw de mother spank de child like mad..was like omg...gosh..i was like feeling.. 2 stop her..but wat can i do..juz pray...they gt de card back...haiz..when i look at tiz 2day..yahs i was in de bus...still,,..tinking...

outta no where...it juz like suddenly..it made me feel that.. i m so blessed that God loves me..i was reminded of His great love for me...nt say compare..but from wat i c 2day..although it was over, so called small matters, in s'pore u can c them commonly..almst anywhere..mom beating child in public esp when they did smt rong..is like nth special...then i had certain thoughts, like a bullet shot into my mind....Jesus loved us so much that He died for us..and no matter wat wrongs.His love..mercy n grace..forgives us..and yet we forsake Him..break His heart...HE NVR BLAME us..at all i gues..n i tink of de mom n child..i felt loved man...juz a small matter card thingy..was scolded and spank.i noe she did it out for love???/

till here..actualli gt lots of tings 2 share BUT......accidentlli press..and all is gone...arrrr...waste ma time realli supa fed up..i gng 2 sumarrised...waste ma time...

..k on 2bdthoughts forgt it...lazy and realli very tired NOW.....juz 2 say i m supa happi n blessed 2 day as i felt i m stil in God's great love...n i love Him..nt juz saying but wif me heart....

grrr..juz breaking siah..lol..so happi..but tiz is alwaz de spoiler..i hate blog...hmm...muz change skin..heyy peeps out there i will blog in new post tiz sun..then u can check it out ba..sorry been bz n tired....stresssss....lol....

anyway wana change ma skin looks horrible any sugesstions?????feel like dng maself but dunow hw 2 do...........lol\

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yoz...

2005-07-13T23:44:00.000+08:00

yahs i wil b pretty bz..perhaps blog will update once a week???...can check it out on sun lah...pretty realli realli very bz...so well...yahs..i wil slack in bloging n do more tings..yahs...ndo call me i still free 2 call u all...yahs..n i kinda of lostde contacts..u guys can kindly tag ya no...n ma tag board or u tink unsafe sms me..thanks...whew...realli nth much 2 log realli very tired nw....zzz...

pics...sorry ppl..will add in more..coz no time..(if ya pic nt in here)...

2005-07-09T00:42:00.000+08:00

Kindness Can't Wait

2005-07-07T23:15:00.000+08:00

yahs lots on love..will return more wif love..coz i m here loving u reader..haha...nw is abt kindness..gt link lah..is impt so no commenz i found tiz very nice..juz read lah..aiyo....

Read: Romans 12:9-16
~Be kindly affectionate to one another with brotherly love. -Romans 12:10

You know those thoughtful words you want to say to someone who has been especially nice? Or that encouraging note u plan to write to a friend who seems a little down? You might want to do those acts of kindness now, because you never know when it might be too late.
As we think about taking action on our kind intentions, we can learn from Charles R. Haynsworth Jr., a businessman who encouraged his employees---just in time.
Although Mr. Haynsworth did not normally sign his workers' paychecks, he did so in September 1994. The regular signatories were out of the office, so he took over the task. When he signed the checks, Mr. Haynsworth took the extra effort to attach a note to each check, expressing thanks to his employees for their service.
The next day Charles Haysworth died unexpectedly, but not before he had personally given a final word of thanks in those notes to everyone on his staff.
One of the best evidences of our faith in Christ is our kindness to others (John 13:35; Romans 12:10). Take the time today to write a note of appreciation or to do a special kindness for someone u love. Dun wait until it's too late to be kind. -Dave brandon

Let us be Christ's true desciples
Looking to another's need,
Making stony pathways smoother
By a gentle word or deed. -Thornos

---->INSIGHT<----
Life is all about our relationships--with God and with others. In the segment above from Romans 12, Paul describes ways that a Christian's relationship with God is to affect his relationships with others. Notice the themes Paul urges us to consider in out relationships: integrity(v.9), humility (v.10), generosity (v.13), love for our enemies (v.15), openness to others to others and their concerns (v.16). Practiced consistently, these principles can be the backbone of healthy relationships.

hmm..after reading tiz..i strongly stress on..yahs..apreciating others...do nt take tings for granted esp..ppl who bless u...remember..n thank God for their blessings...n seriously..KINDESS CAN'T WAIT..u dunoe wat wil hapen 2 u...who noes..i may die tml...life is hard 2 predict...n ALWAZ thank God...n esp..we apreciate..our beloved leaders..ppl..who God placed to lead us..it is VERY impt..coz without them..can't imagaine chaos man...n i wldn't had learn so much..love..abt bible..abt eveerything..tiz world is stil nt explore fulli by us..we keep on learning everyday..life's inddeed a journey..ALWAZ LOOK ON DE BRIGHT SIDE!!!...life b ezier..hwever..do b sensitive bt every 1s need..so i like 2 help at watever extent i can 2 fullest ba...yahs 1 impt ting 2 stress on 2...i noe ask n u shall b given..hwever i realise ppl ask for blessing..is dat stil blessings????...hmm..2 me no offence 2 any1..i dun tink so...blessing is more of u c ppl in need..they dun ask u..but they need it n u noe..so u give 2 them their needs..that's wat i call bLeSsInG...n also another case...u r being blessed..u wana bless that person..hwever he/she will tel u 2 bless others..n will say GOd bless...wel..hmm..tiz happen 2 me once before i realli thank God..i was so call noob in chc,..that time..if i nt rong tiz happens at felix baptism..i went make-up cg alone..then i was rushing dwn 2 chc 2 suport him..and arrr...there was NO bus..n i m late..(gng 2 but nt..)then after cg..1 bro n sis left cg 2..n i met them at bustop they rushing 2..then they offered me rides 2 chc..at 1st is share cab..who noes when i reach there..they say God bless..i wanted 2 give them de $ for sharing..but she juz gave me a nice smile n say..nah..God bless u..u go bless de others..yahs..i was feeling quite..u noe..very blessed...although tiz was juz a very small matter..but in times of need when i need 2 rush 2 chc..ppl kindly offer u smt..n add on..lol..i dun even noe them,..lol...yahs..i admit n i had 2 say..i quite blessed everyday since i noe God..i feel juz so blessed..alwaz sing tiz song: so blessed that i can't contain it..so blessed u gotta give it all away...lol..hahs..nice song i sang everday..n i thank God daily for His wonderful blessing..it might b smal u nvr realise..but i juz thank God..
okok..back 2 wat i was saying..yahs blessing is smt like dat agrree??...yahs..n..when God ask u 2 bless or Holy spirt prompt u..??well datz abt it..hahs,...gtg..zzzz... next topic: He noes ya name & the star in the window...stay tune...woolala..b back very soon..promised!!!

Love Hurts!

2005-07-07T22:35:00.000+08:00

sorry guys nvr update been bz...so i repay u guys 2 great daily bread so called 'talks'..so sit back n enjoy reading... i put black for wat i tink from nw on..if u guys juz wana read the post n dun wan 2 read ma..so called feels abt it..can juz skip de non-clour part...

Read: 1 John 4:7-18
~This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. -John15:12

"Sometimes love sure hurts!" The mother & father were expressing the difficulties & heartaches of guiding their children through their teen years. "Maybe if we didn't love them quite so much it wouldn't be so hard,"the man added.
Even though love brings pain and sorrow, what would life be without it? In this book The Four Loves C.S. Lewis wrote:
"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully around with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness....The only place outside heaven where u can be perfectly safe from all dangers...of love is hell."
To love is to take risks, to expose our hearts. Sometimes it hurts! It hurt Jesus Christ, but He kept on loving-even at the cost of His life. And He ask us to "love another as I have loved you"(John15:12).
Truly loving that spouse, the teenager, that neighbour, that colleague is Christlike, and it's better than locking your heart in the coffin of self-centeredness.-Dave Egner

Thinking It Over
How have u been hurt by those you've tried to love?
Have u been tempted to withold your love from them as a result?

Nothing costs as much as loving-
except not loving.

-->INSIGHT<--

In verse 10, we see the wrd propitiation. This is a key wrd in theology to describe what Christ did on the cross. It means that He satisfied God's justifiable anger at human sin. This tells us how deeply we are loved by Christ, that He would take all of God's anger at our sin, so that we can be free to experience God's great and awesome love.

hmm..after i read tiz i felt..yahs agree is quite true..and read the given verse..wow..yahs..we created being loved..God's love abide in us..yahs..haf u been hurt..recal nw by closing ya eye..mst of the time..the hurt-est ting.."is nt insult from others or scolding"(by NoRmAl ppl)..or watever but...loving ppl..it hurts when they hurt u..and esp from a beloved 1..they scold u..u will feel so hurt rather then like..u noe scolding from tcher...lol...yahs..and can u count hw mani love ones u hurt...uncountable..but de mst u hurt..is God...did u realise?...i dunoe abt u..for me..i tink for nw i hurt de mst is God..n grief the Holy Spirit..hwever..He keep loving us..and His promises..mercy and grace..and great love..we r alwaz forgiven...n i realli wana Thank God..for being there all de times..all we haf nw..is God's..n he alreadi gave us everything..including His life...wat can we give 2 Him???...we r nt worthly for Him 2 die for us...who r we???...coz of tiz unfailing LOVE..and magnificant...wonderful..love...he willing..juzz like de story at ber's blog...He paid de price...He is on de cross...i m embraced in His love..oh nooo..i m in love wif God...arhhh..i m mad..k..lol..yahs..i realli love God..n u can felt de love...whenever u feel empty, alone, down..etc...ever since i found God..i nvr felt that..coz i alwaz feel that He is holding ma hand and nvr let go...sometimes..when i go 2 sch alone..i will praise n worship Him in ma heart n i will b sooooo happi...coz i was hoping 2 sch..urm..if u dunoe then nvrm...yahs..n i can feel like some1 who loves me alot is holding ma hand tight..n i will juz like u noe..de feeling so strong..that i wil juz like holding de air tight n hop 2 ma sch..wif happi..monkey face as usual..haha..n i felt love..i wan 2 tell ppl alwaz de love..but i prayed hard that i can express His great love coz i wan 2 share..n save de lost...they deserve a chance...alwaz remember ma previous blog abt..Jesus calling names..u noe..each n eery is love..will nt b shared..u noe..k nvrm..u can alwaz go find..if i nt rong titlt shld b the Lord's shepard or smt like dat...enjoy... :D

horray..n congrats...!!!!

2005-07-04T13:10:00.000+08:00

is bro felix bird-day..wooohoo....happy birthday man..i juz wishes u all de best in everything u do..n alot more...tel u sometimes...lol
n N N NN NNNNN...nt forgetting ma mst most wonderful brother..joa..who alwaz take GOOD?? care of me...lol..we r juz realli close bros..yahs..n happi..baptist day???..lol...yahs u r nw righteous n i realli hope that 1day it wil b me..anyway continue 2 shre ya warry wif me..i m alwaz here..woohooo,...
thank Joa for his blessing for me n ct at kfc that day..yahs...anyway thank Joa for all his blessings i tink He alwaz bless me lor..hahs...he is de topest list..i tink..nearly mst of time he's been blessing me..aaa...i nt bad lor..i bless him 2..lol...nearly mst of the time 2...yahs

well...juz congrats is a happening wonderful sunday and saturday wif cg...

well...finalli got chance 2 fellowship wif bro Ray..i miss him so much long time since we last talk..oh man...yahs somemore add on fellowship sat n sun..wow...realli very happening..hope 2 spend time wif more ppl...i noe muz study..n I WILL lor dun worry..i noe de limit..lol...yahs..n Ray early recovery man..dun any old hw eat ler...GT WELL SOON!!!! u shld b beter by nw...

yahs last ting...realli took lots of nice pics..yeah...esp wif belove Michelle wooohooo....

n stay tune next cuming up...LOVE HURTS!...

Compelling Love

2005-07-04T11:37:00.000+08:00

Read: 2 Corintians 5:9-15
~The love of Christ compels us.-2Cor5:14

I read a story some time ago about an aspiring young golfer who spent hours in his backyard practicing his golf swing.He wasn't allowed to use a real golf ball close to the house, onli a plastic practise ball.
One day,when he thought both of his parents were gone, he longed to hear a sweet click of a club head meeting a real golf ball. So he went outside, teed one up, took a mighty swing, and accidentally hit the ball through his parents' badroom window.
I'll let him tell the rest of the story: "I heard the glass shatter, and then I heard my mother cry out. I ran into the house and up the stairs to her bedroom. She was standing there in front of the broken window and she was bleeding. I started to cry and I couldn't stop. All I could say was 'Mom, what have I done! What have I done! I'm so sorry! I'm so sorry!' Her response was to hug me and say, 'It's alright; everything's going to be all right.' After that I never wanted to take a real golf ball into the backyard."
When we think about our Lord suffering for us on the cross, we want to live "for Him who died for [us] and rose again" (2Corinthians 5:15). After we've heard His words of forgiveness, there are things we just never want to do again-in the backyard, or any other place.-David Roper

Down from His splendor in glory He came,
Into a world of woe;
Took on Himself all my guilt and my shame,
Why should He love me so much? -Roth

When we ponder Christ's love for us, we'll want to live for Him.

When i finish reading tiz reader's digest i was touch by tiz...the story behind it...in bringing me memory of easter day...the day of pentatcost??....lol..nt sure wat wrd 2 use nvrm..lol...back to de saying....yahs..i believe mst ppl from CHC went 2 de SIS rite?....well...de story realli touches alot of ppl that day...the drama make christian or so call ppl cry..did u??...r u 1 of them? well...i m 1 of them, although I went twice but stil cant resist that..coz love is de HARDEST thing 2 resist...lol...wat i tink is touched by God's great love...yahs even the frienz i brought they kinda of cried 2..but still pray that 1 day they will gt saved..meanwhile i keep them in ma prayers...
wait.. wat m i talking..muz b brain nt wrking..k..wat i realli wana say is that, wat is more then love..wat can compare?...is de world abt love??...i juz wonder...we live for Christ...n why we live for Christ?? coz we loved Him.... coz He loved us, n had sacrificed for us oin de cross 2000yrs ago..coz of His great mercy n grace we r saved..n we had eternity..i want 2 thank God i m nt 2 late knowing Him..n nt 2 late...whew..end times haven come although we r living in de end times....wow...cant imagine if i m nt saved n Jesus return, i will b like huh..wat is gng on...???....
hahs...love can b express in lots of ways...well...Jesus had showed us hw 2 love..and hw He loved us...hwever..do u noe smt...wats de greatest love on de world???....is called de ..de...oh gosh i forgot de word i read it quite a few times..lost that book..or did i lend it 2 some1..hmmm...yahs is something abt love so much that u sacrificed...yahs...urm..abit lost..well..juz read tiz 1st i will b back 2 edit tiz...lol..cant concentrate here..abit off...brb after editing...meanwhile juz check out de above...

back!!!..after reading tiz i feel.so..so...in-decribable..i was so called move lah...love can indeed cover everything..so walk on de walk of love..the commandments also abt love..?..lol..yahs we live coz we love...coz we love God..coz God is love..n LoVE IS GOD!!!! everything is like a big circle i juz figure it out man..lol..kinda of dumb..hahs..u c..when u ask de "nt saved ppl"...wat r u living for???...mst will reply... dunoe leh..live juz as I like..live lor..c n live ~in chinese saying..c 1 day walk 1 day...yahs..i dun like tiz saying i preety dislike ppl saying that..they r living wifout a purpose i juz grief for them man...and also popular 1s..like..i live for a succeesss 2 become world's greatest doc..pilot..etcc....is like yar u can gt it..but wat is of THE USE??...do u haf eternity..n when u died r u "proud" of ya life???r u impress n glad u complete life???....for me de ans is NO!!!..for me when i die..i will be "rest in peace" when i realise wat i've done..can glorifield God...n i nvr fail God..n i live n complete His purpose for me...that's wat i tink..sorry if i offend any1..my purpose is 2 complete vision of wat we r believing..2 reach out 2 de lost..and 2 let every1 nt heard of de gospel 2 hear de gospel..yahs...n i realli realli believing it..i juz pray daily that God will let His love flow through me..2 love ppl juz as hw He loved us...comppeelling love..who compares 2 Him???...no1 His de love of ma life ..for nw n ever n eternity...

ALL'z ABOUT LOVE....

God's Favourites

2005-07-02T01:01:00.000+08:00

Read: John 10:1-8
~He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out-John10:3

After my 1st daughter was born, i loved her so much that it almost hurt.I foolishly feared I might not be able to love our next child as much, or that I might have to divide my love between them to be fair.But when our second daughter arrived, I joyfully discovered that I loved her as intensey as I loved our 1st child, yet uniquely.

That discovery reminded me that our Great God is capable of loving each of His children totally without taking any love away from His other children, for He loves each one so uniquely. Therfore, every believer who asks for God's help will recieve it completely as if there were no others needing His attention.
In Jesus' life and teaching, we find ample evidence of this. In John 10, He declared that He is "the good shepherd" who calls, cares for, and knows His own sheep by name and is known by them(vv.3,11,14).Jesus then likened this relationship between shephard and sheep to the realationship He enjoys with His father(v.15). How special we are to Him!

In the answer to those who would warn us against acting as if the Lord has favourites, I once heard a preacher say, "Of course God has favourites! We're all His favourites!" As His children, we can be sure of His attention and love.-Joanie Yoder

I've found a Friend, O such a Friend!
He loved me ere I knew Him;
He drew me with the cords of love,
And thus He bound me to Him.-Small

To renew your love for Christ,review His love for you.

yahs...continue from yesterday...God has His fav...and we are de ones...still remeber the 1st time i got saved..i was touched by the God's Great love...and from then onwards..i found hope in life..found faith n confidence in believing that I can live 2 de fullest, though i was discourage n give up cause of yrs of setback n wave...haiz..BUT(*twink) God came into ma life...n change me..but..opz..u guys noe i m still very very lazy..i will try 2 change that huh...stil remember that i hated human beings..n esp kids..cmi...wah, 2 de fulest but nw..things change..(ps:coz sing 2 much CHANGE..change me so i nvr be de same...lol...jk...nice song ok...)no lah yahs..so i start 2 learn hw 2 love other then yrs of loving ma beloved snop...n yahs..He remember all our names...His is de only truth N the light that guide us..(ma name is ORA btw...8p)

hmm...we r Michelle's sheep...baaarrr...baaarrrr...(hw cum sonds like papa..lol..shld be mama)...mehhmehhh..for now i want 2 thank God once again for putting such a great shepherd...2 guide us..the "blur blur sheep"...yahs..no offence..k it is me k k..dots..i m very so call "blur of ways"..she is put in ma life for a purpose 2 lead us..take us up n help us 2 another level 2 God..yahs..also depends on us also..have faith ppl!!!!...that's y we muz appreciate our leaders...every1s a leader someday..whether u r gd or bad..u muz noe hw 2 lead...lol..that's like so obvious lor...haha..anyway i gt lots of things 2 learn from u guys..every1 is a "tcher" in ma eye..and every1 had smt i can alwaz learn from even kids or lets say any1..i will b more then happi 2 serve u guys or help 2 ma fullest..coz i love u all...anyway..yahs..i learn hw 2 love also through wonderful Michelle..seriously i NVR nvr in ma life c any1 so loving as that..angry..seldom lah..i noe perhaps..juz so called let love "covers everything"...so mani times i had dissapoint her or..hmm..heartbreak..but i pray so hard that i would nt repeat same mistake n will learn from mistake..well..every1s nt perfect we all haf mistake..but our God almighty has mercy n grace..n love..we r forgiven..so i love 2 Thank God for all tings..coz ma everything are cause by Him..His the eternal fire that burns in ma heart...i juz love Jesus so much..so as tiz goes 2 God..i noe He doesn't want 2 c me becoming tiz status..so.."nt glorifying"..yahs i will repent man..althought is 2 late..BUT nth's 2 late for God..n we r alwaz given 2nd chance...God is a God that make miracles..i m waiting 2 sow in ma effort in ma studies n everything i do...n harvest is promised...so i haf no worries as long as i hang on..(si cun lan da)...yahs..

2day had a great wondrful happening day..6pm onwards was wif bro jason..indeed a great man of God..alot of things can b learn from him man,..cool..so i snap him wanted 2 blackmail 2 bad he deleted it..but anyway..i let him delete 1..lol..com no space ahha..jk,,..no lah muz ReSpEct!!!!...YAHS..LOOKING FORWARD FOR QUALITY TIME WIF W300PPL..woohooo...realli wan 2 noe u guys beter..and so as more times wif ma our unsaxed frienz..haiz keep on praying..ppl i dun ask much..i dun ask for anything i juz wan 2 request u guys..2 pray that ma frienz i invite although can b in great no. but i prayedd very hard at LEAST half of the no. i bring b saved..and i haf faith..wld u guys pray for me n also let's walk in faith Amen??...1 last prayer..i pray that is nt 2 much much..lol...REvIvAl iN ScH...ma sch realli very dry..n i believe i noe quite som echristian tcher..they r abit ..no..no judgement man..i had no commenz..yahs n i believe n i can c..more then 30+can b saved..i juz pray..yahs..sch will haf a great revival coz i believe..Kepp me in prayers..thanks btw...any ppl need me 2 pray can email me ya request ;)..anyway i b praying for every1..hahs..love...

next cuming up topic:Compelling Love..stay tune!!!!!!!

soory.man..2 all ppl who reads ma blog..daily??...lol

2005-06-29T22:28:00.000+08:00

k k i will repent i didn't keep ma word was realli supa bz..2 type n share de supa power sermon..BUT i haf repent from nw on..everytime i log in..i tink mst probably everyday..i will share smt..k..k..from daily's bread i noe alot of ppl dun haf so i gona..share 1 different 1 everyday..as for de sermon leh..til i very free ba...opz...so here goes we start right nw 2day..yahs... (i added more colour so u guys wun b sick of reading ma LONG long blog)
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k k as ma blog is abt love so i will start wif...

k k here it goes...
title: little acts of love...
Read:1 Thess. 4:1-12

When i was a young boy, i knew that my father was extremely fond of black walnuts. We didn't often get them, so the day I found one on the ground I was delighted! My 1st thought was 2 haf my mom crack it so i could eat it myself, but then my love for my father took over.I saved it for him.
When he came home that evening,I gave him the walnut and said,"Here, papa,i've been saving it all day juz for u!"I thought it strange that he didn't want to crack it and eat it right away.It was not until 30yrs later,after he died, that i found it again.It was in a special place in his desk.Mother told me he considered it such a sincere token of my deep affection for him that he kept it as a memento.
Little acts of love offen appreciated far more than we realize.So let's keep in mind God's command to "love one another"(1thess4:9). By the power of the Holy Spirit, let's excahnge our self-centered attitudes for heartfelt words and deeds that show our love.
Don't delay in performing even the smallest act of love today.Believe me, it wil be appreciated, and it will be richly rewarded by the Lord. Little acts of love can make a BIG difference.---henry bosch

Like the refreshing rain in summer
Or the gentle breeze in spring,
Just a little gift of kindness
Joy to someone's heart can bring.---Hess

~You yourselves are taught by God to love one another. 1Thess 4:9

so well..i gona share a different 1 everyday..ever since i read tiz book is realli sometimes u can learn alot from de story man...n tiz reminds me that..heyy...if u wan 2 get your frienz stay in church or 2 get them save 1stly..simply juz win them over as a friend..that's wat chc been teaching..and through friendship we slowly save them n bring them 2 Jesus..n did u realise something?.....Coz of God's great love ..we r save from sin by His grace n mercy..coz of Him we learn hw 2 love..coz he loe us so much that he died for us on the cross...ma fav wrd i alwaz like 2 say..is .."wat is love????...love is God...n God is love!" u did realise ever since ppl receive salvation..or got saved..our lifes been transform perhaps into a better life a more happi meaningful life..n a life of purpose ..,m i right..ink abt tiz 2...God loves us so much..he gave his onli son..and so God loves every1..tml i going 2 talk abt God's favorite so stay tune wif me..n thanks for reading man...

hmmm...bible says..1 without love is nothing... n i do agree..if u haf lots of money but no gd relationship wif any1..u tink isit happi..u haf $ n no love..may i noe..then y n wat r u living for..?..do u noe ya life purpose???...tink of everything from nw on..wat is love 2 u..n wat act of love can u do..we love God that's y we give 2 God..anyway..God gave us everything.so everything of ours is His...n stiill he alwaz bless us more..y nt in ya quiet time, u might haf do tiz..or u ight haf nt..let me share wat i do..1stly..every quite time..i will 1st welcome God into ma heart ma soul ma room..welcoming Lord is impt..next time then will tell u all y..(note:once save doesn't mean alwaz saved) yahs 2ndly i will thank God for his daily provision..for his blessing..n also for GOD'S GREAT LOVE..n de promises he made that he nvr forsake us...n also..yahs..i will go on..2 pray for ppl..all i noe..come 2 last before i end ma prayer or quiet time then i will pray for maself..hmm..tink abt it i last time sed 2 alwaz pray for ppl in quiet time pray juz abt everyting 2 meet de need..and for me myself i pray for maself like dun haf lor..lol..n ii realise it isn't gd..yahs..u pray for ppl BUT u still need 2 pray for yaself...

n abt act of kindness...hmm..i will buy tings..mst probably 2 card a bookmark or something 2 apreciate ppl..yahs..yahs..opz..some ppl i haven give..lol..i was preparing somehw..hmm..perhaps..when ..k nvrm..so datz hw i aprreciate ppl..n i wan 2 stress that do show ya love..dun juz say but Do..love is nt love when it is nt EXPRESS...so yahs..do express ya ;love..n mst imptly..alwaz appreciate our leaders..i noe that but hwever some 1 reminded me when i read her wonderful blog(jane)..yahs..is wonderful..do b reminded 2 show ya love n do acts of love, 2 show hw much u feel or u love that person..

yiiipeee....I love JESUS..WOOOOOhoooooo....
i love michelle...
i love jane...
i love shannon...
i love every1...(juz c above the 1st post u noe..8P)

yeah..woolalalala....

2005-06-27T17:16:00.000+08:00

yahs...hooray..so fast it's been a yr ler...end of tiz month..yahs i will b 1 yr in chc...woohooo...recall dat time i was saved..it was like yesterday onli...but i pray hard that i wil nvr lose tiz 1st love..well..ppl...so sorry i will try 2 blog in de sermon as soon as possi...for nw..ma mom will confiscate ma laptop...BUT i will haf ma own ways 2 use tiz com 1...hahaha...juz keep me in praayers...wah pian...realli 1 2 blog in de sermon..but haiz..so long realli need time man...and a long time..till i m free...i shall blog in sch..8p...opz..hahas...since home no com so sch ahahaha...
realli wat i haf learn a yr is realli great...
ohhh...1 yr in chc doesn't mean de time i was save wat i meant was hw long i've come...hmmm...i was save after a few weeks coz i dunoe such tings..like salvation..i was noob in chc dunoe anything..2 noe smt...lol...well...when w21 multiply that time sis shannon wrote in de card waiting 2 respong 2 altar call then i noe dat is such a ting,....lol...stil alot of tings i dunoe but hope 2 learn from u guys...n i want 2 take tiz chance 2 thank every bros n sis in chc..i realli realli love u guys man...esp michelle...n shannon..i've learn alot from bth of u..nt forgetting joyce..i tink in de begiining she was de 1 who ans all ma funi ques..n silly 1s but thank her alot if nt..i wldn't b made up of who i m 2day..i realli thank tiz 3 impt person...n nt forgetting some moe impt person...jane..benedict..and some more wonderful bro n sis...realli live u guys...
well..lastly de mst impt person is mel...who brought me 2 chc n noing God...heyyy..y nvr bring me earlier...lol...k jk...anyway love u guys lots...
and praise de Lord....i Love u Jesus...wooooooooooo....

and michelle 2..oh no i m carzy again..lol...de pics i've update ler..hohohohoho......
and jane 2...hohoho..
ang all other ppl...
hey guez wat..brina from w313 i've snap shot u..even u dun let me take but u 2 slow...ahaha...

i m a man of wrd...for ma own privacy collection all tiz WILL NT B SHOWN...nt even u beg me...and from nw on ma com shall nt lend 2 any1 coz all is in here...and serious..u cant go in coz i will put a passwrd no matter u r who i wun show unless u r that person lah....

Overcoming guilt,shame,rejections

2005-06-24T03:59:00.000+08:00

BY:DEREK PRINCE

tiz a short 1 i didn't prepare, manage 2 catch abit..another powerful man of God..herez some pts i catch, so far i 've been blessed by all de wrds..i juz pray hard dat i can bless others wif the wrds that iimpacted me..or let me tink more..up another level with God and i realli love 2 share it...well..wait for more...kinda of..wow...4am haven zzz...need 2 finish at least de sermon...i chose 2 finish tiz it is shorter..juz wait for a great 1..promised b up by next week...

Heb10:14-->(perfect forever..deliverance)-->Jesus sacrificed..coz by 1 sacrificed-->we can overcome EVERYTHING..guilt shame.rejection...
~NT ALL newborn christian had deliverance...
TIME DOES NOT COVER SIN!
GOD ALWAZ TIME 2 TIME SHOW U SIN 2 CONFESS...-->till u acknoledge all ya sins...AND TILL U CONFESS EVERY SIN -->AND BEING FORGIVEN(or is forgiven)Pro28:30
--->repent!!!!-->u will haf mercy of God..and be forgiven Isa61:10

thats all i catch..lol...coz realli nvr prepare sudden man..yahs..so tiz abt it..it is a great wrd but pts i catch was juz...

mst of the tings u all noe..BUT HWEVER...wrd of God shall b renew it is indeed ez 2 understand n quite direct...nvrm..hope u gt it...God bless!

therez a few sermon i watch i will 1st talk abt de 1 i tink u all NEED 2 NOE!!!!

2005-06-24T01:23:00.000+08:00

PREPARE YA BIBLE 2 FILP 2 A FEW VERSE!!!!
tiz is air on God's tv at 2-2.30am..2day yes n today...by kenneth copeland ministries..but nt by him gt 2 women..opz..i can't remeber their names but great wrds...abt prophesy of tiz yr and also..yahs is Gloria copeland & Billye Brim(recalled)..powerful women of God!
yahs so they were talking here goes...
title:hw 2 judge yaself before the endtimes...meaning judge yaself 1st before u r judge...something like dat...

before it..u gotta WALK IN LOVE...and be ready for wat is coming..

ask yaself...*WAT IS JUDGEMENT???? *

So no worries if u r doing all "right tings" coz u b judge as righteous..etc..."wrong tings" then u gotta prepare 2 recive tribulation...etc...hwever do remember DO NOT JUDGE OTHERS!

***Judgement IS A BLESSING!!!

certain tings will stay and go..for certain purpose..
~Judgement=harvest time(theres lotz of proof...)..herez a few..eg: Matt13:24-30
~God has a plan..and brighter future for us, we gotta let go..de old man..and renew of our mindset that's wat meant when saying(look above 3lines)certain tings will stay and go...and it is also explain in Matt13:37-39

YEAR2005 IS A JUDGEMENT YEAR!!!
judgement will be over de seed..it is a OVERFLOW YEAR!!!every year is a overflow yr..BUT it is more in tiz yr 2005..so peeps b prepared!2 sow n harvest!

~~~for de prophesy plz go 2 www.kcm.org and click on study centre...~~~by kenneth hapkins...

Gal6:7~God DO NOT determined wat we sow, BUT alreadi determine wat we will ripe..he gave his promises on wat u sow will SURELY ripe..coz of His great love He gave us freedom 2 chose...

TIME IS RUNNING OUT!!!

~harvest time is coming(Jesus'z return)..we r outta time...
~1man's overflow= 1 man's judgement
~ALL HARVESTS IS GONING 2 B JUDGE!!!
~we can alwaz repent from de bad seed...
~I m the "God of increase"(err...dun read it as i m god nonono) i meant we r increase of God..(alwaz believe in dat..coz of 1 ..u..u save more ppl through u..gt ppl noe Jesus...)
~tiz is wat God told bro.kenneth copeland...:"we r outtat time...!!!"
he asked y?...coz end times r cuming..and there'z still bad seeds ..nt saved..haven repent..wat God is doing nw is dat-->He will send angles around to see so that de devil cannot hinder de seed...datz also y explained and said earlier it is de battle of de seed (war)
~ALL SEED GOOD OR BAD IS RETARDED BY SATAN.
letz talk inner abt tiz...satan loves 2 pay check 2 pay check...made us on trackmil..meaning making us all round bz...and..1 eg,every mth ya time is juz rite..ya $(u eaarn) juz enough for ya life..u wldn't go find God..or wat coz wat u need is met..and is juz nice..u haf no time 2 pray...and also believe..or seek God for provision...y?..satan do tiz..coz he is juz trying 2 PREVENT EXPOSURE on wat he is doing tiz..he try 2 get ya relationship away from God...
HWEVER GOD "loves"(so called) satan 2 do that..coz everytime satan over push..meaning push ppl 2 de end instead of making everything juz enough..he pushed ppl 2 poverty taking everything away..-->that is went ppl turn 2 de Lord..and satan was exposed...
~we should REJOYCE in our overflow year...
~Exercise and feeding on Faith
~Believe wat we have abt God
*harvest is cuming FAST...
OBEY TODAY OR SORROW TOMORROW!!!!
~Get into de word of God!--->b blessed!
~Bad seed..dun worry..u CAN repent NOW so u can rejoyce by replacing Good seed in us..renew our mindset..be reborn in ya spirit..live as a new man...
~1Jhn1:9-->change our mouth(coz it changes our body)
~Fight de fight of faith 2 stay firm of God's word!
THEREZ ALWAY U-TURN..IN life..u CAN MAKE A LEGAL U-TURN-->GO hIS WAYS!!!
(continue...2nd day)
hw do we judge ourselve?
*we judge ourselves by the wrd of God!
~if we judge ourselves and we will NOT b judge by others
~go 2 Eph wif me...on de letter it explains that we had autority...n truths abt our church..etc...
~Eph4:1-->JUGDE YASELF 2 C IF U R WALKING WITH GOD!
~Eph5:1-2-->WALK IN LOVE!!!!!!
~Judge yaself that u r walking in Love...
u need 2 haf WINDOWS for ppl 2 v through...Matt22..once preach before by Kenneth Copeland spoken by Chirp Brim...
~EVERYTHINGS hangs on it...past. Chrip(6yrs activepreacher) was telling a VERY Blessed story abt tiz ..walk..and everything..anything ask me..coz is realli 2 long 2 write...
~notice tiz???...-->Prosper comes Jealously ARISE!
ONLY WAY 2 VICTORY IN LIFE IS LOVE!!!!
when u met any tribulation or accused....
1.pray for those who persecute u(jesus said before pray for ya enemy)
2.pray in spirit like u nvr done it BEFORE...(in tounges)
Jude20-21 "keep"-->guard-->buil your faith...u do it by FAITH!!!
u might b wondering..u r very angry although u r stil a christian when u met some realli VERY VERY BAD TINGS..n is like u may hate him or her 2 de core...and is like u ask God..do him or her noe wat he/she is doing?????....And y God forgave him'her/them????Coz of love...and de spirit BEHIND them..Jesus address de spirit..NT DE PPL...Love is de keyFORGIVE AND FORGET..or else u will nt b forgiven...n sometimes it juz so bad de ting is dat u CAN'T FORGIVE...and when it comes 2 a very bad matter,...2 points above r suggested..alot of ppl alreadi tinking...i can't pray for ma enemy..coz they did tiz 2 me..and y muz i pray for them??..u will be questioning God..and "force" yaself 2 do it by faith...it is hard but by faith and love..everything can b overcomed..no matter hw bad isit..agree?...mani ppl..even reborn christian..r soaked wet in de spirit as they met wave & more waves coming in their lifes...de onli way 2 overcome..is 2 put down de pail...love..n forgive...
~it will hurt u more then it hurts them..(giving poison n watching them drinking it)
~Everything hangs on ya LOVE WALK...

well..i summarised evrything..i noe is very bad hwever i haf de heart and desperate 2 share but i dunoe hw 2 share by writing perhhaps by telling...so meanwhile evrybody i juz pray in ma heart datU GUYS CAN ACCESS 2 gOD'S TV..coz is 100% is nt that impact when i tell u all..i m impacted by them..i realli dunoe hw 2 preach..lol...tiz is wat i gng 2 repent on and learn nw...

the mst impt point is that..
be aware that WE R OUTTA TIME!!!!!
we haf sow in 2 de wrd rite..so therez gona b harvest is de time u speak..spread de gospel..r u wif me ppl???...we gona rise up NOW and spread de gospel..reach out 2 de lost..therez no much time..we dunoe when Jesus is coming BUT HE IS COMING AND WE MUZ B PREPARED!!!!
wat i realli learn is de great prophesy..and do check it out at de given website(above!)
Mrk11--->forgive is ya own will!

and they lead us in a prayer...
before that...lets say tiz loud and clear...
WE MUZ...
FORGIVE..
AND WALK IN LOVE...!!!!

God bless...i summarised til i dun tink u peeps gt it but i pray u gt de pts...or an rough idea..i will try 2 record de sermon for u all..hey i m realli trying..sorry man...i realli wana share..wooo....yesh..God bless..the next 1 will be up...

tiz sermon r by Chirp & Billye Brim & Gloria Copeland..on God's tv under Kenneth Copeland programme..abt 200-2.30m(1st part) and 2.30-3am(2nd part)...2005 reserved...

2 check out anything wana noe more..on MSN MAN!!!anything errors..strong disagree drop me a hotmail...
can check out tiz tapes or cd..maybe gt book.. on tiz series of sermon...The Make-Up Call by some preachers including Kenneth Copeland, Gloria Copeland, Oral Roberts..etc..www.kcm.org

wahahaha..

2005-06-24T01:03:00.000+08:00

as usual tiz morning..urm as usal tcher at ma door...and i JUZ gotta of bed..lol...so dun mention it..i play til i wan 2 puke so sick man..wldn't b playing guit for few days need a rest...wan 2 puke sick of it man.....
so after guit..yahs chat 2 ppl online..and then..yahs..went 2 cheryl's hse 2 meet ja3 and cher....wooo...miz u guys so much...well...juz in case u all dunoe they r ma onli trustworthly hangouts n gd frienz in sch..i love them man..wifout them sch life is like ..oh nooo....k funi times we gone through laugh like m mad...yahs...jz ja3..and cher..wooo,....hooray u guys rox ma sch life man!...yahs so we play guit de whole day..n talk ..n talk..n drink ALOT of orange juice n coke..wah pian FAT man...cmi..haiz...tempt me so mani faty drinks man...wow..so sweet hopefulli i wun b sweet like dar...aiyoz...lol..i love mints..coz i m mean...wahahaha...then again took pics 2...
well..here goes nth..Ja3 is a sweet adorable kind friendly listener..a gd friend..very chio..can't stand her funi things...well...ja3 u c..u wan me 2 write SO i write..lol...juz kidding u r indeed 1 of a kind i known..n jz..u 2 r perfect couples siah...lol...
well...datz abt ma day,..and nt forgting smt...
went 2 look for sharon again..hahs wanting 2 help but nvr help muzh ....coz bro sorf there lol...nice 2 c u guys,...wel...here i wan 2 thank sharon for her wonderful blessing...urm..i juz ate and she blessed me wif somemore food..i remember siah..lol...make me fatter so late ..anyway..jk..i juz thank u..i bless u..yahs..coz i like lol..anyway..no need 2 bless me lah..lol...
juz 2 let u noe smt i read..yahs..on daily bread...yahs..i m totali like de ppl who decribe himself as..being a giver alwaz..and had prob 2 b a reciever...yahs...well...God says we muz b a giver..but also muz recieve blessing..lol..i've been rejecting bleesssings..but nw i wldn't coz u gotta b as open as u give...giver=reciever u gotta balance n b EQUAL!!!....yahs...anyway thank God i m so bleesed 2day for de later wrd..gonna preach at God's tv and also...frienz blessing n also great time wif ma frienz...yahs from nw on peeps,..i remove all de pics for awhile i gona write de sermon..coz alot of ppl...reasonz can't watch...
~2 late
~can't log in
~ma link gt prob(which dun haf i've check ler)
~realli VERY bz
~realli very lazy 2 tune in
~com lack
~connection VERY SLOW
~alot more...
coz i m blessed of de wrd..and i wana blessed ppl by sharing de blessing..by tellin ppl link spreading de info..who noes...lol..so i decide 2 write it in blog and also
i will stop write ma day coz bz posting a few days sermon 2 u guys...HWEVER****plz take note that de sermon i watch is pretty fast n every wrd spoke is great so prreety no time 2 post..heeyyy is onli 30 min lor..2 cover up everything...so i will sumarrise everything..maybe is smt ez..and like u noe..but it might b a reminder..is realli basic but touch u realli need 2 watch 2 gt wat i say...yahs it is powerful..take note also that ma el is supa LOUSY..so...accuracy wat i tink is more than 80% but less than 99%..n..yahs..thatz abt it hope u b blessed by de wrd...

oh no..i m so addicted 2 watch God's tv can't stop when i switch on..lol...til 3+ or 2+am stil watching so mani preacher n interesting sermon...

God bless!

power....still....soorrry darr....

2005-06-22T13:03:00.000+08:00

yahs...2day is a fruitful day..yahs kinda of lah..lol....early in de morning woke up...by ma mom...OH NO LATE FOR HOSPITAL APOINTMENT....agaIN...lol...chiong 2 call 2 change appointment...yahs...then praise de Lord that ma arm shld b ok fully in a mth's time thank God...yahs..didn't gt wrst so rough lor..lol..i nvr rest still go excercise like mad..thank God nvr gt hurt...yahs...anyway i went wif Mel coz she wana come along..is like keep sms u wan me go wif u..u wan me go wif u..at de end no choice but let her come lor...hahs..enjoy time wif her...BUT i hope de time is spent more wisely thats y i reject u..nt i dunlike u hor..gt tiz!!!!...yahs...then head off 2 bugis 2 study...el..lol...praise de Lord abt 2hrs..whew...then when 2 scan de whole bugis market yahs..shop fast coz mel needs 2 go sch...so we scan here n there yahs....she leave bugis n i headed on 2...yahs search of guit n check de price + purchase stuffs...+fix ma guit...yah abt ma guit..wat de so "sway" lor(i dun believe in luck..juz cant find any wrd 2 describe...)...i drop ma guit yez from ma bed 2 de floor it slip lor...wat de...yahs...n broke de string..so i went 2 fix it fast 2day..yahs....thank God fix alreadi..wat de de ppl help me fix is MORE x than de string lor...urm..-_-'il nw i learn hw 2 change no need ler..i observe hw they change ahahaha...yahs...yahs so i was suposed 2 go out wif Michelle 2day..i m so excited siah..2 c her...as usual i carry i wonderful mood lol....yahs...hop hop hop..in ma heart like wat siah..but i very sad leh..she gt meeting til ..nt sure slept by 12+am..somemore muz wake up early in de morning siah go wrk at nite chiong dwn meet me...haiz..so i went 2 check out guit 1st..so wun tired her out...i tried some guit and also 1 guit tempt me..i muz gt it by next mth..lol...oh no..guit craz again..lol...and so i went 2 bras plaza 1st when check out de price..gt some guit nt bad all above 500...urm..ma mom sure wun spare me so much $ 2 buy 1 lor..coz i like buy so mani guit she like wan 2 kill me alreadi added on de 2k+guit...wah kao spoil cant sell..i wonder she noe hw she kill me siah...anyway...juz for u guys noe i dunoe u all noe a nt...guit price go up very fast every yr...raise price u noe...serious seldom drop unless de company..yahs..or other brands yahs..so actualli brand is impt BUT nt very impt..u muz check de quality and quanttiti man..yahs mst impt..hw 2 tell a gd guit..1st..no need 2 play c de guit..is it wat is u like..u noe..everyday u c u wun puke...favable 2 ya sight...and then test de guit...2.DUN play song 1st..alwaz test de sound quality..is it loud??? juz a simple slow dwnstrum..hard use ya strength(dun spoil de guit..lol) and test de maximum volume...de louder it is, de beter de guit(some ppl dun tink so..but tiz is hw i compare..wait still gt..tiz is normal hw ppl test..no offence dunoe hw u all test)3. nw test hw EZ IT IS 2 PRESS(****VERY IMPT!!!!****)yahs..test 1stly 1st test de bars..go 2 de last fret c hw clear n bright is de sound..if de sound so called "broke" in mt..bao ler...then forgt it...yahs c hw far it can go lah...and nw test de hard chords try press full-bar chords everywhere in de guit use ya least strength c if it is ez 2 press....4.then test de neck isit band a nt..by putting ya finger at de 6th string..and de last string 1 finger each and u c when pressed dwn de string muz touch all de fret metal...yahs..if it is dat means it is fine..slightly abit can't touch nvrm..guit nt perfect ma..dun expect 2 much..if 2 mani DUN BUY..coz it'z neck is bend slightly U CAN'T C WIF YA EYE!!!..trust me tiz wat ma tcher taught me..yahs...very basic tings 2 look for...FINALLI...5.u can play a song..hmm...sounds like hw?....at de end compare ALL de guit and price wif quality so u c which is more worth de money...DO NOT LET DE PPL HELP U TEST GUIT...trust me they r pros..they r very gd players..they play some songs 2 bluff u...and de guit nt gd also can play til u believe as if it is gd...trust me i've been bluff before...ma tcher opens shop at he noes de market..very well..no offence..nt say ma tcher gd..but so far i seen he is nt such a bad tcher can rely on...yahs...n so far he say true lor..i dun trust him datz y gt cheated..nw i juz yahs..gd gd listen 2 him..and manage 2 gt gd guits so far..thank God..lol...yahs....back 2 de ting..yahs i called michelle i was so mafun...non-stop sms..lol...she wrking like bothering her lor..wat de...sad...hw insensible siah..added on..when she reach we went 2 eat yahs...we went swensen..mel came along coz she is free added on sch finished..lol..join me n leave me.....and join me again..lol...so i was shopping de whole day..walk non-stop...hahs...anyway thank ma mom for training me when i was very young dat time i was yelling and moarning away..lor..she siao can shop like mad then realli non-stop walking siah...can like more than 12+hr...i so sian...follow er everywhere...nw..yahs nw train so np wif walking ...lol...hahaa...so we went 2 seek guit..is time for michelle 2 test...haiz..when we ate finish yahs go pplaza 1st..all guits can say cheap n x lah..so blar blar blar blar blar...........

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supa long..walk here there...no details shall b told...heyy..if nt wheres OUR PRIVACY if i write everything dwn here...lol..no 1 dare 2 go out wif me siah..anyway..ayhs datz all...at de end i juz wana say soory..2 darlie dat she spent her precious time wif us...realli love her lots 2...do tc..u seem tired i realli very vry soory...mission failed man..i so sad..sob sob..anyway i promise i will do a beter job next time..yahs i m a lousy person..but i wil improve man..coz i gt a great leader like u 2 guide me..no worries;)...
yahs back 2 de end part very funi me n mel...1stly miz de stop..k next we...alight rong stop...kinda of lost de way..thank me..but end up running a whole trail 2 mrt...lol...finalli gt home..michelle was so embaraased coz me n her was overly shock i guez i was overeacting n spoe realli very loud at bus lor...lol...k ..nvrm..so..lol...yahs..stop laugghing ler..stomach pain indeed funi 2day...lol....
u do tc rest well...n love u lots n lots wif all ma heart...yahs...and b healed fast 2...thanx for rushing dwn for ya wrk although is nth 2 u..but i m alreadi blessed cing u...yahs..so sad i didn't blessed u..hahs....anyway...yahs...love u ..tiz is wat i can say....and also sooryy...i wil repent man..from 2 day onwards......
yahs...wore contact lens more than 12hrs..can they last that long????..hmm..nt bad siah...

yahs...another day...

2005-06-21T22:42:00.000+08:00

yahs tiz time is abt ...yay..lol...once i woke up..shock man...wow....tcher at ma door haven even gt outa bedchiong everything...hiong 2day guit 10+am-2+pm...play till actuali muz continue but ma tcher say cant continue...coz ma mind..mentalli n physiacally can't take it..cant even play well...sound like..e\eeee...cmi..yahs so stopped thank God i neearly fai nted playing guit more streesss than study man..whew...so after that when slacking..was online after that all de way...til sorfain call at meet up at around 5+pm..yahs i was watching Godtv...bennyhinn and joyce meyer...powerful man n women of God...well...tiz few days been watching..HEY PEEPS!!!!...i intro u all 1 powerful short sermon..everyday abt 1-130am..i noe i noe..is like supa early lah...but preaching daily by Dr.crafluo A Dollar..yahs great man of God i was impacted and made me repent on wat...yahs..gt time then blog in de sermon ba..before tiz sun sure..promised...and he had a series of book or tape called the Holy Spirit speaks is nice man..gt time log on 2 God'c tv is in my fav link..oh dear..i m addicted 2 watch everyday..lol...realli nice....!!!!power...yahs...so after that God/..tv i cant bear 2 lose or miss any programmes on it realli nice gt alot of other world Famous preacher n tchers...sure u will haf a blessed wrd man..i felt so blessed nw..hope i can bless u guys..wif tiz info..coz...b a ppl being blessed n bless others...wooo....n yahs after dat me sorf peir..went chc play guit yahs...then we meet michelle...actualli we saw shannon 2..lol...hahs so we r supose 2 meet her 2 fellowship before meeting who noes...lol...end up onli gt a few times spare...lol...ahaha...so leess than 20 more than 15 mins we c her..chat abit...yahs..she was rushing like mad lor..eating everything..lol..coz she remembered rongly de time start at 745pm..she thougfht at 8pm..lol...coz change of time i guez...cal came 2..lol...stricking orange wow...n so after all....went 2 look for sharon..entertain her lah..help..her..?....lol...sorf gt hurt..juz pray dat u b heal soon..anyway fellowship after closing at LJS...k lah nt bad..enjoy dat day 2..wif wonderful bros n sis..yahs..then went home..watch God's tv..wooohooo..nice man...1-130am..realli much watch siah i love dr craflo dollar...amazing preacher...power...wah sad i cant go THE GATHERING..is other country haiz...hope they all come s'pore 1 day....wooo...everydays a blessed day for me...new wrds n sermon 2 hear...blessing man..but..hwever i juz pray that from all tiz i will grow more...n nt juz b a hearer but A DOER of de wrd....amen!

...........abt me...that is express through some lyrics...by Lp..i still love them...

2005-06-20T12:52:00.000+08:00

consuming...confusing.....
i m crawling inside ma skin..
tiz wounds they will NT healed...
FEAR is hw i FaLL...
confusing..
confusing wat is real...
therez SMT inside me dat pulls beneath de surface..
confusing..consuming...
tiz lack of SELF-CONTROL..
i fear is nvr ENDING...
controlling...i can't see..
2 my myself again..ma walls r closing in...
dwn de sense of confidence i'm convince dat i haf 2 much PRESSURE 2 TAKE...
i felt tiz way BeFoRe...
so INSECCUUUREEEE.......
discomfort,endlessly has pulled itself UPON me..
.distracting/reacting
AGAINST my will i stand beside ma own reflection..
its..HaUnTiNg...hw i can't seemmm
i can't hold on... coz i stretched so thin
i made de rite moves..... but i m lost within
i pick it up maself it all...
n juz end up...
getting HURT AGAIN...
by maself....
I GT A HEART FULL OF PAIN...
HEAD FULL OF STRESS...
HAND FUL OF ANGER..
HELD AT MA CHEST....
UPHILL STRUGGLES/BLOOD SWETA & TEARS....
NTH 2 GAIN....
EVERYTHING 2 FEAR...
and everything left so waste of time..i hate my rhymes and every1 elses 2...
i m riding on de back of tiz PRESSURE
gessing dat is better...
can't keep maself 2gether...
BECOZ ALL TIZ STRESS...
gave me smt 2 write on...
THE PAIN GAVE GAVE ME SMT....
i cld set my sights on...
u NVR FORGT de blood sweat n tears..
de uphill struggles over de yrs..
the FEAR n TRASH TALKINg...
n de ppl it was 2..
n de ppl started it...
JUZ LIKE U...
MEMORIES CONSUME
LIKE OPENING DE WOUND
I'M PICKING ME APART AGAIN
U ALL ASUME I M SAFE HERE IN MA ROOM
(unless i try 2 start again)
CLUTTCHING MY CURE
I TIGHLY LOCK DE DOOR
I TRY 2 CATCH MA BREATH AGAIN
I HURT SO MUCH MORE
THAN ANYTIME BEFORE
I HAD NO OPTION LEFT AGAIN
but i noe
i may end up failing 2..
but i noe
u were juz like me
wif some1 dissapointed in YOU...
I take everthing from de inside & throw it all AWAY...
Coz i swear for de LAST time...
i wun trust maself wif u...
de no 1 question is hw cld u ignore it...
we drop right back in de tracks..
over basementwif raps that gt u backing uplike
ReWiNd dAt...
we're juz roolling inde rythm..
rise from de ashes of stylic division'
wif tiz non'stop lyrics of life-living
not 2 b forgotten
but
still unforgiven
but in de meantime there r thode who wana
talk tiz n dat
so i suppose
it gets 2 a pt feelings gotta get hurt
and get dirty wif de pl spraeding de dirt...

i want 2 heal
i want 2 feel like i'm
SOMEWHERE I BELONG.....

so 2day was nth..i m going 2 study and do tings soon...well..gng running again later...
n yahs spend de morning clearing up all stuffs...and listen 2 Lp...realli nice song...
i feel much more better nw..rather than running..dun realli helps alot...but it still helps..hearing tiz song over n over AGAIN...i noe is outdated but i still love them..wooo....

well...awwww...

2005-06-19T03:19:00.000+08:00

so 2day was great 2..gt service...lol...well..1stly i want 2 wish every1 a HAPi father'z day??...lol...esp..2 Jesus..hapi father's day..wooo....i love Him so much...wooo...k k...hahs...went service wif joa yahs..his leg urm..k ....yahs as usual i look alien yahs coz of contacts still need time 2 fix it coz hahs..alien wahahaha...k nvrm..eye drifted far if u realise those wore specs ppl 2 long will haf sunch probs need at least a few mths 2 adjust so wun look alien..lol...yahs...dar gt de pic..urm..no specs i tink u delete dat lah til i gt something cool then u ake realli look weird so it goes de same 2 bro yangyi..urm...stil tink i m ET from...urm..sun..lol...yahs..after service every1 nearly all went 2 chalet w21 de..so quite less ppl left 2 fellowship..realli had a great time wif michy...wooo...i love it anyway,..peir there 2..ahahaha...can't resist siah put wif sweety is like wooa.a.a.a.aahahaah....no coommmenz..but i prefer 2 hang out at her hse there...bedok..wif..woofy..2...ahaha...k nvrm..jk....yahs i prefer bedok..i very sian c-ing west everytime..i wanna gt out of here...i pray can move siah,...2 central or east?...lol...yahs stil miss de days at redhill..henderson de place i leave n...last time leave at hougang..lol...n also tiong baru..wow..i miss there siah..seriously i rather live at HDB i tink i more happi lor...and BIGGER room...so i can buy drumset..nw is like can buy also no place lor..urm..wat de....lol...n ppl also more friendy lah..lol..gd neighbours...here..like every1 live their very sian...swiming pool also like watde...max 1.3m..swim wat siah..baby pool...paiseh 2 go.unless no ppl..i alwaz go ..ahahaa....gym so lousy i rather go de pay 1 at je...all facilities s** 2 de fullest lah..haiz...somemore hdb more freedom no need sign in here n there...somemore look nicer...here..is my so called dun like colour..somemore air here like.,..bleeeear....cant stand it keep on sick coz i stil nt use of de west...plus de water here tasted weird lor...yahs...keep on complain..lol...but ma parents like here lor..wat de...sick man..k..muz breakthrough can't keep thinking past old times yahs... and also talk 2 Jane..woo..love her..so ahahah...wah ahaha enjoy talking wif her...(laugh..without sound..wahahah)wooalalala...
yahs..back 2 de ting..yahs..so was wif michelle...till 6+ 7 like dat yahs...then also found bro yangyi..yahs...then they went home took train 2gether n pier 2 yahs...then i go home..lol...ran 5rounds..n i chiong like mad...2 gt rid of things that realli been brooding n trapped me til i cant breath ez....yahs...afterchioning for 5rounds...yahs loong time no excercise added on..flu n a bit sick..lol...n also coz of ma arm thatz y so long nvr exercise..so i keep sppeding like mad..i want 2 shout n scream..lol..no voice..lol...so kkeeeppp chiong til i noe breath..no breath also force maself 2 bring it on..wow...was giddy but i force maself 2 complate at least 5rounds around de 4 buildings..yahs is more than 2.4..is much more more..i tink...yahs....then i stop catch ma breath walk 1 round...so 6round today..yahs...then i sat at de road..no car thank God n i started praying...wif sweat continously roolling dwn...haiz 2 long nvr excersie..lol...rib cage was in pain..n also...some parts like de place of upper 2pacs..lol..nw i no pac s...sad...yahs..i held on 2 it n breath..whew...n before gng home agfter i pray..i sang in ma heart worship song...1 desire n i close ma ye and walk at de road..whereby..yahs thank God no car yes...so i walk closing ma eye..n i hit de fence ..lol...so i went home...zzz...msn talk 2 some ppl...yahs..thats abt it...feeling much more beter....

bbq....wooo...cg outing...

2005-06-18T04:57:00.000+08:00

yahs so 2day was a fun day??....tiz weekk..shok ar...everyday so happening..lol....hope tiz kinda of days wld stop n paused at tiz moment..BUT..nah..move on..better days r coming..yahs....n so 2 day early in de morning had guitar course as usual...yahs..i was praising n worshiping God wif ma guit..n lol..as usual i was late for ma course...coz i m addicted can't stop praising God..hahs..anyway..i juz love it..woooooo....n so after course i met Ber n we headed 2gether n went 2 cg...thanx for taking de basket ball for me coz i realli no and..lol...k so we went sarahs hse..surprising 1st 2 reach there..pratice guit..and was amazing..play guit for cg..was ma priviledge..anyway till de end of the day..i wanted 2 thank Michelle ma wonderful cgl..who gave me de chance man..well...yahs during praise was abit play rong yah..then somemore very poor at building atmosphere...i want 2 learn..heyy ..any1 can teach me..i m willing 2 learn from any1 who offers help..lol...i want 2 take tiz chance 2 thank michelle...brandon(chc instruc..wow..zai leh)..serene..k u promise 2 teach(advance thank u)..lol...calvin..bro yangyi..stil gt who..great cant remember..n all those who believe in me yar??...lol...esp..ma frienz mel..chowtee...hmm...and ferli..sor..yah like all lor..lol...juz thank u so much...well....after cg..we head off 2 cg...and yahs...start at 4..was short end abt..errr..nt sure also..juz noe dat we reach mel hse at 715pm..yahs...wow..if i write realli 2 long lah but is supa fun...yahs...n during bbq took lots of pic..thanks 2 jason who brought his cam..well...nt gd..leh my hair like s**...yahs...urm..k dun mention it..yahs...so bbq was all abt crab meat..n hotdogs..n fried rice...lol....here..i want 2 thank Mel for leeting us use ya place n also de mess we brought 2 u..ahaha..k..lol...next time proberbly end of year..come ma hse n bbq...anyway here nt fun mels hse more facilities...but i gt better food...opz....k...opz...hahahas....jk...yahs...so we haf fun playing [pool..table tennis n also scoocer table..heeyyy...michelle say want 2 bring it on end up...wait wait..yahs bro yangyi came in and join but so sad de food alreadi gone..hahs..sorry abt dat..opz..yahs...yahs back 2 mich..she was wif bro yangyi er...n some cg member dwn there singing song plus playing guut yahs...enjoyable indeed..wooo.....k datz abt it i make it short coz if i wrie will be ALOT OF THINGS LOR....but is fun lah..n guez wat...finalli...wooo....FINALLI...me n mel gt same shirt wore same shirt..ahahahah...dun jealous ppl...we all gt cg tee also juz dat ours is special addition...n back 2 sweety..dun b sad i want 2 wear same wif u ONLI...but i stil looking for something nicer..n so both of us can wear 1...YAHS...i promisED u 100% 2 fullest i stil looking for dat special shirt..n i realli hope u dare 2 wear..u noe i haf poor taste of shirt which is nt ya style..so either u check it out or me..lol...but i chack it out hor..i tink u wun like de design..i trying 2 find somethign nice trust me!!!!...onli between u & me...!!!!yeahhhh!!!!!wooooo....

grrr...fed up...

2005-06-17T21:51:00.000+08:00

yahs 2day a boliao day...woke up praise and worship all de way then..sianz muz stop and go for ma corse and i was late..lol..at marsilling lor..so far...lol..yahs..then..after dat when 2 make specs...well..i still love ma cyclops specs.. nth can compare 2 it..so i juz make frame coz no specs i like siah...c here n there..yahs...so still cyclops de best...wooohooo...
and gt contact lens..wat de..i wanted 2 gt colour 1 lah..was soooo excited...when after so called decide and everything..then i find out ...wat de NO COLOUR..wah seh i was so freaking sad lah and abit angry....can't stand it...yyy...YYY??...wld i gt a stupid contact lens if therez like no colour i wun even tink abt it...oh well....sick man..hiaz...so ..some more gt 2 box lor..wat de..disposable 1s..well...i will juz wear it and u noe wear sunglasses...woo...i can buy any1 nw...woo..wifout degree..so is shopping for glasses season...yipeeee..k...1 sad ting is dat when i wore contact 1st time after yrs no spec..ma mom was shock she say ma eye so called...grew smaller coz maybe wore spes 2 long then...urm..k..nvrm..i didn't noe therez such ting maybe true..well..i took abt yahs less then 5min..alreadi can wear de lens..yahs..still pretty sad cant gt colour 1s..well...BUT..i wun wear...so ahahah...maybe wun gt 2 c it lor..lol... i wil wear it probably in sports & cg?...yahs..anyway looks horrible i look weird need time 2 yahs...gt de hang of it..hope so i can gt colour coz ma mom scared dat i wun wan it anymore..so lol...k...so i m supa happi..look on de bright side..i no need worry de $ in getting specs i like can gt watever i wan anyway coz i wearing lens(meaning..specs all wifout degree n nice 1s..2 wear)..yahs..btw..juz 2 let ya noe..i did make ma eye spoil on purpose! when i was young lol...coz i thought it was cool and look nice...urm..somemore i rejoice when i spoil ma eye...lol...pLZ PPL..DUN DO DAT U WILL REGRET...urm..ask me i regret...NO...i didn't lol...anyway juz more troublesome lah..yahs indeed i was weird huh..u noe hw much trouble i took 2 spoil ma eye on purpose u wld'nt wan 2 noe de story...yahs...so TC of ya eyes ppl...and yahs..i still love ma oakley specs alot..and i tink yahs i love it..no reason...it is juz ccoool 2 me..maybe nt 2 u..but i kinda of love it...lol....I M CYCLOPZ.....wowoowowowoahhahahaha...lol....i m in love wif specs...

k k another day...yahs...slack but "memorable"..i love it 2...

2005-06-16T23:26:00.000+08:00

yahs early in de morning woke up juz 2 go Alexandra hospital 2 do de therapy..lol...still haven recover...but once again..THANK GOD!!! and praise God for de improvement..though muz go back few more times...lol...izit dat serious 2 me i feel fine..u guys noe it..coz i stil monkey lor...ahahaha....k anyway..i wanted 2 Thank God for His daily care...and daily protection...n lots of things 2..yahs...
so actualii...ma best frien Mel whent wif me lor..tell her she also dun listen meet her after dat..lol...well...she insisted so i let her come...haiz..who call i noe her..lol..anyway is great lah her company i juz dun wan her 2 waste time coz is nt worth it..ahahah...so precious leh..gt holiday dun wan..later start sch u faint ar...hahaha...k...yahs so we met at bustop and head 2 de sports clinic..next 2 de auditorium..around block G ba..yahs...Alexandra do haf a very nice and peaceful surroundingg....yahs...i ttoook some pic there..yahs i m siao..but there is like..wow...u can sit there whole day 2 day-dream lah..is reali very relax...no need 2 face any society..best part is dat therez no1..yahs...if mel nvr go wif me 2day..as usual..lol..i will scroll slowly in there and walk abt cing de nature..yahs..therez ALOT of buTtErFiLeS...eee..i kinda of scared of them..no reason..yahs they r nice...lol...but..urm..bad xperience i had wif butterfiles....so yahs...hahs...anyway..it is kinda of cool..BUT..plz nvr go at nite...u nvr noe watz on man..is freaking scary lor...trust me..i've once been 2 graveyard at nite..i was chilling somemore raining it was ma mst horrible experience...yahs..i also quite interested 2 expore them 1 day..i shal go grave yard n take a look nt at nite..of COURSE...but in morning...apply that it is nt raining BUT shinning..yahs...it is seriously actuali nt bad..trust me u will learn alot of things...abt ppl...more...abt them u might say siao..but believe me..u will find something 1...hmmm...yahs...anyway..yahs...letz change topic if nt u all freak out..k..i admit i m inddeed weird...yahs...anything..call me up we can chat more abt tiz...yahs...
hmmm...back 2 it..so Mel...indeed was boredd...lol...waited for me for 1 hr..lol..then we went 2 queensway shopping centre and shop..hahs..all de sports things juz TEMPT me like mad...woow..nw i noe hw much $ I lack...lol..lol..jk...anyway cool stuffs lah..then last shop we hang out longest and bought things from was de christian shop dwn there..it was de coollest shop...coz is abt God..yahs...so we hang out like quite long in there..lol...and buy ..yahsss....something...hahs...nvrm..u all no need 2 noe..hahs..then we went 2 take away mac coz there was 2 mani ppl....1st time i realise smt...LOL...STUDENT meal u upgrade ghor..2 de largest is even chaeper than u order de EVM..yahs..is less than 5 lor..so called..."cheaper..cheap man"...yahs..so we walk 2 Mel hse...i was we her we chat throughout de whole journey and it seems very fast although it was a LONG & TIRING WAY..yahs i enjoy it...funni though..shall nt tell u all...ahahaha..is between me and her...yahs...
so de whole day spent out at her house...lol..was actuali gng 2 play pool...end up bth of us stuck at living rroom...take guit..praise and worship and online...and time seems 2 pass very fast soon it was 7+pm...yahs..i left her hse at 8+pm..yahs...cool day..yest slack hahs...still tinking abt some things in mind man...
after dat i headed 2 JP... 2 look for sharon..and it happen..yahs..she was closing de store...yahs...coz i did promised her i will go c...so sorie...coz yez was..yahs..u noe..so nvr go look for ya..so i kept ma wrd and i came 2day..yahs..had a great time talking wif her 2...help her close de shop...and actuali i cop smt from mel'z hse and paz 2 her some reali small things like some"t-bits"..yahs...she was touched..lol...anyway no need 2 thank us we r nt gd..lol...we gt MoTiVe 1.....hahahah..juz kidding lah..is reali nth...u r a gd frienz and sista wun panseh u 1 lah..hahs...yahs so me n her took same bus and had some mini supper..on de bus reali funi when sharon say..opz...can nt say..hahaha...k lah k lah dun bulli u i dun say..u beat me like mad siah..ahahah..is ok..i m a man..u acan beat all u wan..hahs..nt pain at all..ahahah...k k..lol....no need 2 treat me lah..i m a free labour and slave 2 u..i promised from nww as long i m free i sure go dwn and help u close de shop..NO NEED 2 REPLAY ME KK!???...YAHS..i loved helping ppl...esp..ppl...sistas..yahs..bros..in Christ i m more then willing 2 help as long as it is in ma rage 2 help u guys...anything i m juz a finger away..do call me if u guyss need help!!!I M FREE 1...lol...free labour free slave..no need 2 repay me anything or treat me..is ok....i m alreadi happi 2 c u guys..is nth..yahs...love u guys so much..wat cld i ask for????....thank God for u guys...dunoe wat 2 say man...hahs

I LOVE God..yeah...wiippeeeee....yahs...i love michelle 2...hahahah....
and misses all CGL...yahs...shannon..jane..joyce...hey..btw..joyce u k alreadi???....

TC PPL & REST WELL...SLEEP EARLY...LOVE ya guys...esp Michelle...do tc...love u sssooooo soooooo mucccccchhhhhhhh man!!!!!!!!!

a beloved day....wow..it was..great......yieeehaaa...

2005-06-15T04:06:00.000+08:00

So as usual nt recovered fulli...hmm..i did post before...tiz de 2nd time i writing de same ting..coz...dots i slept..leaving de com on..n wat i blog all was gone...grrrr....so muz do it AgAin...waste time..so..lol...nt much detail as tiz was a repeat 1...haiz...2 bad lah..well..herez goez...

so 2day i spent de day..hmm...called it wonderful and another slack day...well...morning i had ma guit corse...early in de morning man...sick i can't even wake up..well...was so called "scolded" quite badly coz my guit did "de-prove.."a lot lor..wat de...k ...so it was spoiler earli in de morning...and after dat i head dwn 2 bedok...2 study...wif Chowtee...and 1 of her frienz..so we study at BK...lol...kinda of funi coz yahs..nvrm...i snapped some pics of ct as usual...lol...BUT...HERE COMES DE EXCITING PART DE MST HAPPENING DAY I TINK FOR TIZ WEEK BA...
YEAH...I WENT DWN FOR A PURPOSE...DAT IS...DAT IS...2 C MICHELLE!!!!!...WOOOOOhoooooo.....i was so hapi..yeah dancing man...yipeee....yahs i spent de day altthough it was juz a short 2-3hrs..it's worth it man...u noe y...coz for me 2 travel dwn juz 2 c her was nth lor...coz i loved her so muuch..arrrr...it meant nth for me from west 2 east..coz she did 2 travel..so is time for me..inorder..yahs 2 meet..yahs ppl..come'on go 2 east dun let her travel if u love her...lol...nah..jk...wel..hmm...travel is stil np...anyway...yahs..for her onli,...call me biased 2 bad lah hor...hahaha...
woooo...dun wat 2 say so happening siah even c 1 time was like wooo...and guez wat...wooo..i saw woofy 2..yahs..hi woofy nice 2 meet u...wah seh gt a lovely frien and owner siah...snoop jealous 2 fullest no lah jk..u nvr noe hw..izit snop owner more love 2 him...hahahahha..k k...nvrm..change topic...yahs...
i tink although 1 week c abt twice or wat is nt enough lor..lol...juz c her...woo....yahs...i can c..i can hear her voice...i can feel...???....nono no dun tink dat way nt wat ya tink lol...yahs...
woo...happening..so me ct and sweety want for dinner at de bedok there hawker..i tink de food there nt bad...aniway i nvr eat wif u guys..lol...u noe i on diet huh..ahhahaha...anyway so sorrie gotta let ya eat alone again..haiz..promise gt more chance 1..lol...maybe i hungry til can nt take it..lol...yahs..awwww....so sad...oh man...
wah...y m i like dat lol...anyway..yahs..it is hard 2 descripe lah...anyway..i m so sorrie..darlie...u noe y...coz i took ya time..whereby u might b resting after a long day wrk..oh man..u look so tired rest well and take care will keep u in ma prayers...anyway...yahs..i juz sorie took ya time ..lol...anyway..no matter wat i still enjoy 2day it will b part of ma wonderful memory..lol...juz 2 c u....and 2 spend 1 & onli..opz...nil mind...can nt say 2 much here..if nt ppl wil jealous..opz...k...love ya so...oh man i m drank...k nvrm..datz abt it...some ppl..might tink boliao i post tiz..but yahs...2 bad is ma blog wat can u do abt it...bleaarrr....yeah......

haiz...

2005-06-14T00:46:00.000+08:00

wow...was stil sick...dunoe y..haiz...lol...went 2 cut ma hair 2day...wah pian ..i was ZZZZzzzz..all de way ppl cut ma hair coz i was real sick i didn't realise dat it was supa short..wat de....after that ma mom yelled at me for being so Short..like i wan lor..i changing hairstyle then de stupid ppl cut til like that i muz re----wait for it 2 grow lah wat de....lol...i thought ma mom was siao 2 scold i thought was nth wat..coz is like..yah...i didn't noe til i went home and shower then i realised....ohhh noooooooo....y is de same again..so fed up...n sick man....
1 punishment and conclusion i gt is u nvr go cut ya hair when u r sick...lol...yahs...so it was ...haiz.....oh mine...nvrm..look on de side hair still will grow ahahaha....anyway weather hot short also very coolinh leh...bahahahaahahahaa.....
yahs...boliao day...
1more ting...i saw sharon..actuali i NVR notice her...coz de shop caught ma eye..whereby selling all very COOL shirts man..is like supa gd lor...yahs...then suddenly some 1 tap me from de back n called ma name...then i realised it was sharon...lol...anyway she kept talking n i was bz glancing scanning de stuffs dwn there....was happening man..so mani shirt dat is like supa nice lor...and...yahs..sharon is stil talking..opz..i m soory if i nvr concentrate on u...anyway..u guys can go check her out coz she will b very happy n willing 2 c u guys...yahs....nod nod...well...
yahs...hahahha..nth much..so sianz...haiz y no 1 chio me go out...lol....

I LOVE JESUS...WOOOOhoooooooooooo.......

nth much very sian 2day...

2005-06-13T18:08:00.000+08:00

was called 2 buy dinner and kana scolded AGAIN...ahha..wat de....kana snap shot also..wat de by other cg who is playing some games at JP....lol...nth much...

haiz..nth happening...sad............

whole day zzzzzzzzzzzz...............VERY SLACKING......

haiz.....stress man...........

stilll sick though...ahahahha

wahahahaha...i love 2day..dunoe y..

2005-06-12T01:45:00.000+08:00

well...2 day is a fruitful day..aiya ..forgt 2 post tiz in de prvious post..lol...although..haf a hard time calling frien..coz til sat haven update michelle...lol...sad...siah..sorrie 2 give so much trouble...esp..dar..felix..cal...opz..sorie bros...
well...i gt actuali sat update was like 7confirm frienz..and who noes..prayer do wrks..lol..targetting 10..but 9 came..hiaz..somemore pledge 40 wat de...so sad..anyway..hopefuli..actuali i nt pleding 2 high..u noe y...coz mst frien r...
de top list..
1.overseas
2.itz a sun..family day
3.parents objection
4.anti..no need 2 say u shld noe...
5. hate our.,..k..u shld noe 2..
6.wrking
7.no time
8.o-level
9.shy???
10.rong idea..thought i dating them..wat de...lol
anyway stil wana thank them for coming..and thank God for favour of man..so called 1st time chat 2 them coz in sch i..dun mention...and somemore they so on...juz thank u..LORD!!!...yahs..had a great game...(bball)
yahs..also thank felix joa..and esp..ber...who come and meet freinz wif me..lol..i cant handle all so tall..lol...ber is sick stil come i so ..hapi??...lol..and felix entertain ma frien & watch out for them thanx man..joa..lol..1 funi ting..coz jp..,ma frien abt 9 alot..lol..he go talk 2 some1 else lor..lol...mistaken 1 of de ppl shoping at jp as ma frien...lol...ahahahahah..funi siah
and also thank all sis bros in chc..wo books seats for us is hard yah??...i noe..thank u..so much for 2day...
well..5 responded 2 altar calling...i m kinda of rejice..nw i juz pray that they wil be intergrated..yahs??...cg r u wif me..those read till here MUZ PRAY WIF ME!!!...and 1 of ma frien..jiasheng..lol..he was late 2day..so he came in alone..i was proud of him..his like so brave lor..come in alone..cant find us..somemore 1st time...and auto respond altar call..wifout us around..lol..thank God i found him at LCD screen i saw..2 guys head popping out of crowd weijian & him..lol...then me and michelle went dwn 2 look for Him..
had great fellowwship...

here comes de mst exciting part...

yeah..w300...all so called wear de same tshirt...took cg pic..wif new frienz!!!...wooo..i m so hapi..mst hapi ..is dat.....FiNALLI...!!!FIANLLLY!!!i've gt a so called better pic wif mich & me..wooo...u agree??,...check out ma friendster..lol..i love it siah..dunoe y..lol..and alot of snap short..so nice..esp jason and mich 1s..lol...dun post leh..i keep de best part..wait for me 2 collect all snap short & burn 2 cd...and haf a album...wooo....i m so hapi..mich...wooo.......

yahs..i love mich..a...lot man...
and also CONGRATS dar for passing wif flyiNg cOlOuRs OF YA TEST I NOE U R HAPI MAN!!!...i m so hapi 2..when u r hapi i m 2...lol...k..nvrm..well..nvr gt chance 2 c Jane..haiz sad...BUT..i was so hapi..when Jane kinda of called..but urm..i cant feel it..so its a miz call...lol...BUT..hwever...i called back..lol...asap..when i saw de miz call...lol...we had a short chat..oh man..itz cooll...lor..anyway thanz...lol...reali feel like flying there 2 u juz nw..lol...when u stil in chc waiting for sweetie..lol...yahs..i m..wooo...drunk in bth of u..lol...dun b sad shannon..i kinda of happi when i c u 2..8p...hahs..so glad dat i c u...wooo....dar 2...arr..i juz cant gt enough of u...finali...we r meeting..i cant wait til dat day comes man...woooo....

juz wana commenz dat alot of nice pic is taken guez dat every1s hapi 2day..sad....mel and damien miz out all de fun..haiz...next time ba...but i reali happin 2day..coz after everything..i went 2 jp 2 eat wif..sarah..joa..ken..sorfian..wonderful bros..had a great fellowship til ber..and sharon came later..go kopitiam..wow..next cool mocha..i love it..well...great day wonderful..but i hope gt more of dar b beter and Jane...2...opz..m i asking 2 much??...maybe 2 drunk again..lol...wow..also..fun pic taking wif sarah...wow..kinda of into taking pic wif ppl..esp ich..jane..and sarah..wah like fun leh..esp sarah n me looks funi lor..lol...shes a great sis...love her 2...woo...and all bro..sor..ber..joa..so as sharon...hahs...

last of all..finalli u all zzz alreadi izit..i noe i very de long witted..nvr c so long 1 rite???...hahs...well...

last of all...

i wan 2 say...

is..

i love GOD!!!thank HiM for everything..

and..

i love Michelle...
&
Jane
I misses u all til i wan 2 faint...

Shannon 2..opz..k..and all sis and bros of chc...

therez abt it..long huh???...lol

...praise..God almighty...!!!

2005-06-11T01:38:00.000+08:00

well...whole day..nt feeling dat well..late for ma lesson..coz i was ..so called in 2 worship & praising God....as usuall..dunoe y once start cld hardly stop is like...wow...amazing..i juz God can't stop prasing & worshiping Him...lol...and then reali abit sick..well...whole day nth much happening.,...lol...peace man..til...when something happen..abt 6+ i went jp & gt diner for ma parents..lol...a bunch of ppl..took photo wif me..ask..hey we from chc and we r playing a game can u take a pic wif us??...i was like rushing lor..and they..dots no commenz then i say ..yah i from chc 2..lol..i cant remember y i say dat..coz i very rush trying 2 rush off...but..they pleaded me..so i stood there as usual..like a moron..urm...errr...well..and they snap shot me..lol...wonder which cg siah..faints..gt pic..dunoe wat they gona do wif it..urm....
and after i rush home gt scolded so called for nth...is like VERY SMALL matter...late abt 10-less than 15mins..buy home dineer later gt scolded..wat..de...gt a peaceful day..except that de photo and scolded thingy...lol..nth much ..coz abit sick can't even noe who mi lor..lol..medi making me losing ma soul like giddy...lol...

wooo...fellowship is great...??hahs..

2005-06-10T15:03:00.000+08:00

weellll...2day is wonderful...early in de morning..lol...haven wake up..ppl alreadi outside ma door...ringing de bell...lol...i juz woke immediately getting readi for Pm...lol...rush siah...and abt 12..or 1145 ends...wow..great..and wonderful 2 praise & worship & pray wif sisters...after dat ...2 great wonderful bros and sis came..coz i kindaof miss them so call them come over and fellowhip...so pm..ends..mel left lol...and lynn & sorfain came..between tiz times sarah came along 2 ..lol..wel...wonderful time man..haiz..stil miss w210 some of the bros and sis lol...nt forgetting w300..i love w300...wooohooo....so i was so called "teaching them guit" hahs can't say i m tcher coz i m nt gd lol...maybe basic can help hahs..anyway..so de whole day was struming,....and singing..abit lah..lol...praise and worship..abit 2..lol...well...kinda of bored..but thanx 2 bros and sis...hope dat u guys enjoy..well...although doing nt much happening stuff...but can c u guys and talk..fellowship is great joy..coz long time no...talk..lol...then lynn left early so sad...she went bowling pan seh us...no lah jk...k thanx lynnn for spending her precious time...so at nite we left ma hse at abt 630..coz i fasting lol..and went jp 2 eat..at long john..woo....sarah and sorfian..woooalalalla...and sarah..i gt no commenz she is so happening..is she k a nt?...lol..laugh n laugh n laugh at LJS...lol...and me n sorfian..no coommenz..-o-...hahs...wat hapen funi is dat...sarah...."bluff" us go LJS and eat she herself nvr eat onli order ice milo and soup...n so bro sorfian went 2 buy lol...1 large ice milo as sarah wanted it...then guez wat de guy says there s no large 1..standard size..lol...dunoe y it seems very funi so we kept laugh abt it...and sarah..urm..k ..nvrm..hahs..bro was so embarass siah..hahs...when de ppl say: "soorie we no large!"..ahhahahaha...k nvrm..opz...so...ber nvr come..y huh??...lol...nvrm..k datz abt it abit boliao hahs...

well...mst impt de point is dat i can so call follow up..wif some bros and sis also...yahs enjoy fellowship dtz de main pt i dun wan 2 lose them...lol..so as w300..i also fellowship wif u all dun say dun haf,...lol....well...here r some of de names i hope 2 talk or c in tiz june..i mean every1 also can..but longtime dun haf 1 lah..lol....hmmm....Ray!!...felicia..sebas..shannon??...lol...jess..errr...can't think of any...yesh w300....j j...cal..felix...err...sis all like k leh..lol...er..new frienz??...hahs...yahs..pri frienz 2...and ninjado ppl...wooo...and ma hangouts in sch...jar jz cheryl de trios JJC..lol...

LAST OF ALL...DE MST IMPORTANT...1S...(although c so called everytime..lol...)

MICHELLE & JANE...wooo...hahahahah....opz..dun jealous ppl...

& ABOVE ALLL........

GOD!!!

wow..wonderful ending...emerge 2005

2005-06-10T03:27:00.000+08:00

well is been ma 1st time coz last yr end of tiz mth then i join chc..lol..and i m so glad..woo...1yr..in chc..and walk wif God at de end of tiz mth..well...time flies and goes by..so fast..from w210-w300..i love w300..hwever i stil miz w21..lol..well...
2daz emerge was power man..de end of de msg..although is preach before..but once again is 2 refresh renew and 2 remind us..anyway is stil great n i enjoy it very much...and 2 day was reali great....once again i broke de rule of...Man shall nt cry..but haiz..i broke again n tears juz continuerly flowing..n i stop..coz go home then continue..it like wow..i love tiz emerge thingy 1st time..n grweat xperience..
xperince: sweat alot..fun gaming while wautung for long hrs of q-ing..thank God for laptop..went chatting on msn 2 kill time..lol..and also fun. man..new revival..new revelation..more love...oh God..i juz woonder hw much u cld give..that is countless man...woo..i love praise & worship..indeed is ccoooll and fun...
hey ppl..wat i like 2 say is dat come on''...after hearing de wrd letz step out of comfort zone..and we obey wat God has 2 say..renewourselves 2 prepare a great day..live life 2 fullest everyday!!! wooo...juz dunoe y..even more on fire..ive been in comfort zone 2 long nw its time...its payback time..watch me in tiz last yr i shall bring revival 2 ma sch and i believe stongly dat great testi wil come coz God is wif me...and nth is against me!!!...no mater who gets in ma way i gona stand frirm..doubts ,tribulation &troughs..shall be overcome...woo..in de name of Jesus..nth is ImPoSsIbLe!!!!...will go for cg guitarist..hope 2 serve in another way so called using ma "talents" hope can make it..haf been finding excuses n ignoring it for long, i believe God is calling me 2 step out...anyway cgg is nt ma calling..i wil step out 2 serve..hwever wat i tink nt juz cgg i wana b a guit instructer..coz i love teaching AND MST IMPORTANTLY i love 2 help ppl...and bring dwn de presence of God..and teach ppl..impart all ma skill(ps:i haf no skill..lol) and also more ppl...2 praise and worship Jesus using instru and singing more expresive.. actions and efforts made juz 2 please God..coz music is very impt 2 made...esp..music for God..i reali stepping out hope u guys can help me..haf patience on me man..i m a slow learner...trust me..but fast catcher...tiz burden is heavy..coz it leads and builds atmosphere dat is also 1 reason..i kinda of lack confidence coz..it is very pressured..hw do u said it is hard 2 say...well..til tehen b back..coz i nw VERY SLEEPY...anyoh hw shroten remove all detail..sumarised whloe page...
lol

yeah guez wat...

2005-06-09T13:05:00.000+08:00

v ma 1st post on high???...they gng 2 b there til 2006..till de lastest forever in in-nest post man...so every1 can c..lol...love unfailing yar??....lol...anyway so glad..datz de mst impt post...noddind ma head..i agrreee...do u??...2 bad lah for u guys dun jealous...woolalalla...dancing man...i've gt de power wooo....

wooo..

2005-06-09T12:56:00.000+08:00

nth much wonderful day very tired..coz ...haiz...nth much 2 blog...when emerge wonderful nite...lthough we q at 5 stil need sit staircase...lol...every1 is ks for God...heard dat 2day ppl all q-ing at 2 wat de....5hrs????wow...bringing alot of tings 2 play tiz time i more clever nt juz sit there play games man ...wooohooo...maybe bring guit..c 1st..lol....hahs...anyway..gng 2 q at 3...lol...hopefuli can gt in...
oh man..yez gt 2 c dar..wooo...haiz..but onli a short while..can't bear 2 part..2 bad muz lah..coz she needs go home and rest do tc of yaself man..wooo....reali,....awwww...dunoe wat 2 say...miz ya man...and didn't gt a chance 2 c Jane...oh man...nvrm..i will catch her 1..ahahahahah..buahahahaha..muahahahahah...ya miz her 2...yahs..i saw shannon...sleeping in audi yez..lol...before svr..guez she muz haf been tired..sitting wif lynn i guez...well..do tc 2.....
misses u guys alot...but sweety above all.....woooooooo.....hope 2 cya 2nite...hahs...hugs..

wow...EMERGE...wooo...

2005-06-08T00:10:00.000+08:00

Yeah emerge start ler...hu-hhooo-rayyy......wow..started off reali a kick man..wow..and after dat did dance,...funi..coz ma arm haven recover..but stil enjoy it..lol....wow..amazing power message..is indeed wat ppl wan 2 noe does who missed it..haiz...sad...fuli pack..and i was sweating like nvr before..u can ask sharon abt it..hahs..like river siah..lol...hmm..nt bad can slim dwn like dat..lol...hahs..had fun..well..talentime i fell zzzz...lol..coz reali 2 tired..juz nw half way go home also...zzz...lol....wow..finali after of 2days nvr zzz...i felt so happening man...wooo...faints...anyway is great i juz wana encourage every1 whocs tiz..2 go for Emerge u wil defintely feel blessed by de wrd...trust me..praise and worship is wooohooo..i love it non-stop also like wow...burning on fire...wooo..wherez de coolest place...CHC!!!!woo.....coolest ppl..pastor kong man..rox on...call me biased...i tink chc is de best place so far in ma heart..woohoo..cheers...
hmm...from nw on..tiz last yr..i pray hard..and i believe i wil change ma campus...wooo...
wat can i say great day...yawnzzz...wana zzz...so tired can't tink of anything 2 write..brb...and yah...i do miz michelle...

I Love u Jesus!;)

end of great dayz..begining of hell...

2005-06-06T23:08:00.000+08:00

...om*...1stlty i wan 2 sorry 2 all ppl..if i offend any1...2day coz i reali kinda of..mad..or u call dat insane...sorry for being rude or wat..well..i guez i m fine...no worries...
and ya great dat ma demonic maid left..and gt new maid...BUT she onli wil come on 30th of May..wat de...between tiz times...no1 wil do hsewrk onli ma mom..i tink and ma sis...and guez wat..last time happen once..and...u noe wat happen..chaotic at home man...coz every1 is fasturated in ma family...except me...yahs..and u noe wat?..i during dat time was like getting scolded for nth,...and quaralle everyday...is like no peace...anything dat is nth also wana find something quaralle..obvious i m nt de 1..coz i love peace..of ma ear..i haf sensitive ear btw...arrrr...haiz..dat hell days r coming again..and watz worst is dat it is holiday lor...wah pian sianz lor...even worst at least go sch no need 2 c ma fam..lousy family...coz they dun even understand me smt..i juz kept quiet feel like screaming at them...but nah..they stil ma parents..and guez wat???...10 COMMEANDMENTS!!! HONOUR YA PARENTS...ya even they reali did rong ..GiVe iN!!!...haiz...i juz gona say 1 ting i haf no father...except Jesus..1 who loves and understands me clearer then i noe maself...some ppl shock y i say dat...well...but is true i felt..tiz wat i felt in ma heart..parents..r juz a name..yah they brought u 2 de world..but coz of God place us for a purpose...but..yah stil honour ya parents dude!...give in too much will become bad 2...k take for eg...u give in everything, do as if wat parents order and even u dun like it u juz do according 2 their will..yahs..everytime sure say itz yah own gd..blar blar blar..but if u haf no happiness & freedom.. y live in tiz world??...and y dun go for ya desire..in another words..parents who control totally over us..actualli R DREAM ROBBERS...they limit us and make us haf no dreamz but their dreams..limit 1s strength...i tink parents shld reali..reali..put and b frienz wif us...be a frien rather than b a parents...k...for eg...who do u go look for 1st in ya life if u met wif some probs???...FRIENZ of course...m i rite??,...look watz de truth and nt deny it..JESUS IS OUR BEST FRIENZ..HOLY SPIRIT IS OUR BEST FRIEN...and cloest 2 us..onli He gives us a reason 2 live..2 fullest of our life..y?....glorifield Him...!!k for eg...if u haf parents who worship idols...and u r a believer and follower of Christ..obvious u pray that they will..u noe...repent and b saved..rite?..but every time u try something bad will happen...either u gt persercution of all activity..or being force 2 go..""temple""and parents tink wat they do is alwaz rite...we done rong...we r blamed...but when parents r rong..who is going 2 tell them???...no judgement shall b made but let God Himself judge us...hwever...y is parents stil de mst hot and comon prob in every1 of us...?..at least 8 family outta 10 will haf probs..unsolve forever..conselling dun wrk..onli if hearts r open...probs seems 2 b solve coz every1 is..EsCaPiNg FROM THE REALITY..thats what human alwaz do best...recap and tink abt ya fam..wat u tink?? yah back 2 de above mention..perser of all act and force 2 go temple..yahs..u r supose 2 honour ya parents..and also nt 2 sin..in de sense worship idols..but put God onli and 1st in our hearts..u r trap in d midle dunoe wat 2 do...yahs..thats de pt u tink God is 1st & onli more impt..yah??..agree so u try 2 out talk NICELY wif ya parents...but if they stil dun respect u but FORCE U..guez wat obvious u blow up..k put it another way...between God and parents who u choose..GOD!!!..yahs i wil fight and stand firm even it takes up ma life..come 2 de wrst parents dun acknoledge u & threatened u that they wil cut off relationship wif ya...u gt so fed up dat u stil stand firm and nt lose de fight...well..back again..de thing didn't happen 2 me(i mean de force go temple or watever..)..but de fight de fight of faith and threatned by ma parents happen 2 me..yahs i did give in..alot 2 til wat i haf made maself nw...a status of..of..(hard 2 tel u guys..)..well..yah...and i insisted strongly..so far from nw no persercution..or wat..coz ma parents can;t do anything wif me..coz yahs..they threatened..i noe coz they concern..but i alreadi prepared ma heart 2 dat day if they continues..wrst of all throw me outta ma hse..(for info if u dunoe..ma parents do ..do wat they say..they alwaz do wat they say..and nt kidding did hapen once..lol) and...yah anyway great ting is ma mom..can't fight me coz i strongly believe in maself and God..so she give in & wash her hands off me..BUT de biggest prob is ma stUBBORN dad..(backgrd info: he is a VERY "believer of watever his praying") no offence 2 any1..sorry if offended u..coz 2 bad i m baised coz i love ma God, Jesus..and i nt ashamed 2 proclaim..aloud 2 de world..yahs..he threaten, but he also noez his limit he also noes well..dat when i decide a thing or 2 is hard 2 change and i do haf "strong backbones"(if u duno watz dat nvrm..)..yahs if he dun acknowledge me i also DUN care..coz i haf nth 2 lose..ever since i found Jesus..i will follow Him..i will nt lookback or tink...yah that let me wana thank 1 ppl..Mel ma best frien..coz ma parents trusted her well...so datz y can go out wif her dat time when she invite me 2 chc...well i've been waiting for a LONG TIME 2 noe Jesus..coz since young i believe in God..dunoe which God but believe..and i m VErY interested in churches i ask ma parents..and gt scolded..and bad tings were said..tings like..they muz give their 10% 2 church is like bluffing money..i was furious & curious..they kept me protected very tigthly and gues wat..i like supa noob in pri dun even noe watz ahead of me..even de sec thingy i also dunoe lor..no commenz man...yahs..and nw i dun blamed them although i noe the truth that de 10% tithing is 2 prove that hw faithful steward we r & also it helps us 2 control our love for God is ALWAZ above money!!!..but although i try telling them they stil insit their belief, i m furious of course...but i can understand coz ppl in society r so in competition for money yah..obvious ppl like dat wld love money more than love God..coz did u noe $ is smt we c..and God is who we noe..human nature..ppl will believe more 2 wat they c..coz our faith is weak..nt strong enough..so called "live for money"...added on their hearts r harden..although it is de truth..they deny it..c hw stubborn r we human being...yahs i noe...Human r NT PERFECT..but we can wrk 2wards a better future by being more like Jesus..coz God is perfect...and nw..coz of de greatest miracle in ma life..noing Jesus...i wil nvr forgt de presence dat was there..de unfailing love..and de new begining chap of ma life purpose..All i wan 2 thank God ..and mel for bringing me 2 noe Him..i m so grateful 2 her..and nw coz of tiz ma parents realised..since they can't blame me or STOP ME..then they turn de blames 2 her..i was supa upsad..coz shez ma best frienz she did somthing great & endup getting blames..by hypocrites..(no intention of judging..but its de fact)..i juz can't stand it..it was totalli outta de world man..wat de h*%^ r they talking abt..??? r they mentalli some hw over stubborn or wat..nth beter 2 do man...
well...juz wan a peace of ma mind..i can't breath ez and let tings go ez..but nw..i've let go..ive prepare..continue 2 stand firm for God...no matter wat comes before me..i noe God will sure b there 2 help me He will NVR short-change us..and put us smt dat we can't go through..after tiiz...i gona breakfree...freedom is wat i haf ..nw i haf freedom..wat i meant is a freedom mind..i dun wan 2 let go of God's hand or forsake Him...or 2 forgt His 1st love..thats y is impt...backsliders 2 slide back..although is de mst difficult BUT i believe strongly that de love no matter wat wil..sure haf bits in their hearts..de 1st love..saving lost souls is impt..hwever we muz nt neglecct tiz..if any1 sliding away..pull them back ..
anyway...lol..abit off flow...talk 2 much oh no,..can't control...lol...back 2 the maid ting...yahs...so i confess i DUNOE HW 2 DO HSEWRK...even sweep also lor..or fold clothes..k lah..fold 2 a mess..yahs..till..then..i m so soory 2 say 2 cg ma mom wil b in supa bad mood..and tiz mth No fellowship at ma hse...sad.sad.sad..sob...gosh..wat can i do..although u guys can clean up..BUT ma mom wil b like supa bad mood lor...yahs..dat is nt nice...anyway..it will past fast..i believe in God..dat tiz time will nt b like last time ba...
I LOVE YA JESUS!!...

..REPENT.. RENEW..RESTART...!!!

2005-06-06T02:33:00.000+08:00

oh man..muz start 2 repent..after hearing great new ..so call de new miof wonderful music...wow...presence of God is also being brought through de music wonderful..wow...wow..repent liao...coz na struming thank God ..he blessed me after i prayed..and reali praise God for tiz..though its been long last time yahs but stil thank God!!!for anoitings in it??well..dun say i keep denying..but i also found between tiz short time i improve alot from ma struming which is like can nt make it lor..and well..no offence i tink cal didn't reali help me much yahs he did taught me sometimes..like nw lah..k lah..coz i dun understand lolx...figure it outmaself...stil trying but i hope can sign up for de guitar thingy...in chc coz..i tink is time..2 get up..nt juz in comfort zone..i m confidence in less than 1yr i sure can gt de basic ba?...lol..but dunoe y some ppl say i no need basic..lol...and also revial 2 sch man!!! wooo
REPENT:ma guitar need more style..coz i wan 2 haf de best quality..yahs..and also 2 long in comfort zone shall do something wif it..so called make use de talents i haf...2nd izit reali talent..guit is actuali quite ez..after basic..try 2 fullest 2 reach out..breakthrough in studies 2...BIBLE READING PLAN(JUNE MUZ MAN!!!)
RENEW:ma mindset abt revival in sch..i believe dat i wil invest on market place..tchers..i wil invite ma tcher..hahaha...they can't escape ler...and haf confidence in my playing coz i tink i did bring ppl into presence..well comenz by yahs u noe..ppl..haha...yah so thank God for that...and all ma lost frien..juz found them..can 1..u fail 2 plan.. u plan 2 fail...passing is as ez as failing..olevel aim all As ba..dun limit God! Try spending more time reading word of God rather then non-stop praising and worshiping til neglect God'swrd...b more organised..make ma everyday 2 fullest..no free time..2 even dwnstair..
RESTART:a new chapt..wooo...1strly win over all ma frienz....b a testimony 2 others by results breakthrough in studies...also everything i do nw let it b God's will and nt ma will..glorifiled God in everything i do..time 2 step up 2 serve in ministry..i tink i wil go for guit 1st ba..although i dun tink is "ma calling"..coz if u dun step up foever stay in ya place uwill nvr noe..anyway also no lose wat...if u can't make it is nt ya calling..that oh well...and at least u tried u c...recap BsBsBS & sermons!!!

GOD HAS NO LIMITS...COME-ON..LET HIM MOVE MOUNTAINS AND SEAS BELIEVE IN MIRACLE & IMPOSSIBLES...MAKE YA FAITH MOVE IT...USE GIFTS WE HAF 2 IMPACT DE MARKET PLACE...USE GOD'S STRENGTH BUT NT OURS...HAF FAITH IN GOD IN EVERYTHING U DO! GOD WILL NEVER SHORT-CHAAGE US!!!...WOOOO....

it's a fine week so far and a great day...

2005-06-06T02:06:00.000+08:00

oh man..1stly i gona say...yipeee...yeah..me and mel bought de same shirt..hahs..abit cartoon and childish..but nice ok..i wonder when we wear it looks like??....hahs...*shy man..any way..is so sad mel can't choose coz she no time so i kinda of in rush and grab something nice lor...so end up tiz...lol...u guys will c it during service i tink tiz coming week...shock siah...still laughing while i post tiz post..lol..i can't imagine hw ppl will c us?..perfect couple??..hahahaha...well...michelle dar...wana same wif u..BUT..haiz..nt possi..ya clothes all...heard dat u buying tank top so forgt it...i will stick wif cool ts...lol...hahahaha...hmm..jane perhaps..someday but y she so shy everytime..i saw her blusing again...
so is was a great day..congrats..woo..jane u gt new specs!!! make sure dun lose it tiz time...did u buy someting de same like de previous 1s??..lol...black somemore..thick fame..hmm...copy me izit..nah..juz kiding mine more stylo then yours..coz i cy-clops!!
so as usual great fellowship..juz pray reali hard for de breakthrogh of attandance man..awww...cheer up..sweetie...yah so after tiz i followed..mich back 2 chc..guez wat we went 2 c jane..woo...so i spotted her..once outa lift aaarrhhh..is jane...janejanejanejane janejanejane jane..(007)...wooo...and guez wat jane took pic wif me??yahs..surprising man..2day r u on high mood? 1st time siah..though was shy..so sudden..dotz..and also..u frightened off wif 4test at a go?...haven seen wrst..ask michelle u noe..lol..coz dat..lousy friendster like 1000wrds lor ONLI..i very de lor sor..shld put smt like tiz blog!!!hmmm...well...enjoy a great day didn't chat much wif michelle and jane..oh man..sad...y everytime ic u all...chat so less...mst prob coz of ppl suround us..opz..ino offence u guys r nt xtra..hmm..maybe 1day letz chill out 3 of us..if u dun tink i m an extra??...lol...yeah...and before dat i decide 2 look for sweetie in bedok at least once a week u tink can nt?...oh man..when can i haf bs..arhh,..i m mad..abt u abt bs abt GOD!!! wooo..i m juz excited..i juz feel like jumping abt non stop...yeah renew for God..i m young dude..during svr abit.. de space, very de lack man..i jump and kinda of high nearly jump in front opz..coz i was jumping high i tink..nearly jump 2 other pplz head man..lol...and opz..i didn't jump on ppl beside me..they kinda of frightened off give me quite alot of space..hahs..thanx man...anyway..hahs..smooth sailing..tiz coming week wil be sufering for me i guez..coz need 2 chiong art pro..sad...
AND YEAH..EMERGE!!!!!WOOOOyahs wonderful day..i juz keep tinking abt de wonderful presence of God wif reuben morgen leading us..wow...power....

love love love..therez alwaz a lack..nvr 2 much or 2 many...

2005-06-05T03:21:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YA GOD...I LOVE YA JESUS..I LOVE YA HOLY SPIRIT...I LOVE KINGDOM OF GOD...CHC..YEAH!!!!...I LOVE ALL PASTORS...I JUZ LOVE...

I love ya michelle..dar...dear...i love ya jane...shannon 2...joyce..

i love ya...and ya...and everybody...and i biased 2...w300 1st... all bros and sistas...mel..sarah..new sista going 2 b some alreadi r.....lol..joa ,jason,felix,ber, cal, pier,.... and x-cg member...wonderful sis and bros...felicia,lynn,chowtee,jessical,...ray,sebastian,sorfian,ken,...other cg..sharon..hahs...and stil gt ya alot can't remember..coz i rushing nw...lol..all other cg...

& also..all ppl older then me and reali great ppl women and man of God...bro yangyi, k nvrm...forgt de names..can't remember..lol..as usual..all other cgl..and active members..watz de name again can't remeber..

all ninjado's man..kim..jus..damien..woohoo..u guys rox man..all guit ppl..woo thanx for teaching me..ma fav tcher..and all ma unknown or nt noe so well frienster clickers...pri frienz man...woo..all best-hangouts from sch....jar, jz, cherl,beat,..and so on..2mani...

hmm...therez alot of ppl i love i mean God gives us love that is unlimited 2..well...i haf more than wat i is above...no personal attack all nt rank..except for God and michelle and jane..yahs they r rank every1 is equal...i love..every1...no arange in ranks 2 so dun b SeNsItIvE...
i hope 2 noe moree ppl and 2 love more ppl...

tiz love from me that flows through is hw God loves me...anyway..hw much u love i wil love u hw much u love me....
love unfailing..over taking ma heart....love nvr fails...ma love for God..and michelle...awww...i jus love God so Much behind Him..de dar and wonderful & sweetest Michelle....awww.....i love u.....brb...

~delay~

2005-06-05T03:18:00.000+08:00

aiya...reali bz siah..maybe delay in dat...ma mst impt post that i wana put.........lol...wait for it and check it out ba...soon soon..sooon...i tink well......hmmm.....wow...i stil awake...wah pian muz wake up at later like 7 lor...lolx....2day need 2 b late again online.....

wonderful day...wif michelle & jane...&w300...

2005-06-05T02:47:00.000+08:00

wow...2day is like de best day of ma life lor..k lah nt best i believe soon more wil come..wif new frienz iris, damien..woo..cool bros and sis...clap clap clap..welcome them...wow...gues wat we HAF AN OUTING WOw..it is like supa fun lah...but i tink can b beter 1...well...and guez wat AgAin..? our group won...anyway no big deal..de greatest dael is dat...yahs we enjoyed it...and thanx iris..felix and sarah for standing all ma foolishness til de whole journey and michelle 2...awww..dar...u & jane r juz so irrisistable for me...aww..i m totally drunk 2day..kinda of high 2...
well...hmm de game quite fun...split into 3 ..."wo men zizizi(anyway hwever or watever u spel it...)"yahs...started off...yah 1moreting our team was called The Globbers??yahs dunoe hw u spell it meaning we will glob up all de food...well...we haf 2 figure out 20 wrds from de provided letters...and we finish 1st yeah...!!!we r so confident and noe alreadi dat we sure win...ps:says felix...wow...confidence siah..anyway, me 2 8p...wif wonderful bros and clever sista wat cld b impossible...hahs...before that michelle actuali rush off 1st, 2 de pt..but coz...haiz..aleadi say we r..power..then on de way Michelle is like right in front lor..then we ran & lol...took same bus wif her...haiz..1 ting 2 learn from..michelle...nvr excercise huh?..u can't outrun sarah and me de..i gues...lol...great day...during journey fun photo sorts creative...i tink de mst pro in faces is Felix bro..wow...so mani weird weird expression 2 give..keep it up..we hitt it off wif supa budget thank sarah for her wonderful sweet...btw is nice 2...hahs..very fun..nt gng 2 tel u coz is between de 4 of us...happening siah..gt closer bonds wif ppl...
later on...fellowship at ma hse...sorry guys for de poor care(so called) abit last min so nvr prepare any food...but nvrthe less...de best ting is we enjoy...clap clap clap...and wooo...for all ppl who organise...esp..calvin..michelle and...Jane!!!cool outing..travel here and there...
YEAH...MICHELLE AND JANE THANX ALOT IS DE MST WONDERFUL DAY 2 SPEND TIME WIF U BOTH(although nt reali...but at least cya both..)I M DRUNK FOR BOTH OF YA, ESP..MICHELLEE ....WOO ...DAR..REST WELL & TC MAN...BZ WRKING AND I M SO HAPI DAT U SPENT YA PRECIOUS SUN AND SAT WIF US!!!LOVE YA GUYS...W300 ALL DE WAY IS DE BEST CG...EVERYBODY LETS KEEP ROCKING FOR GOD MAN..ALLL DEEEE WAYYYYYY!!!! WOOO....great surmon..short and powerfull....wooohooo...i love it....wonder ful cg......
i love ya w300...wooo...............lalalalalalalalala

hey hey hey!!!

2005-06-04T04:32:00.000+08:00

YOZ PPL GIVE ME COMMENZ MAN!!! JUZ ADD ON NVRM 1..I WUN B ANGRY OR WAT..ALL R WELCOME "SHOOTING WRDS" INSULT COMPLIMENT YA OWN THOUGHTS AND VIEW ALL WELCOME WELCOME MAN..I WUN EAT U UP DUN WOORYYYY.....

JUZ WANA LET U ALL NOE STAY TUNED...FOR SMT I GONA SAY IN A NEXT FEEL DAZ..IT WILL B LONG IT TAKES TIME I STIL ARRANGING DE TOPIC ON LOVE SOON WILL COME...I Y=TINK IT WIL B THE MST IMPT BLOG I PUT HERE OTHER THEN DE "READ TIZ" IS DE 2ND ..STAY TUNED...

PS:I UPDATE EVERYDAY...SOMETIMES NTH NEW...BUT I UPDATE AND EDIT OLD 1S...

ANYWAY THANX FOR CING AND VIEWING MA BLOG...LOVE YA GUYS...

wow....

2005-06-04T04:16:00.000+08:00

mi iron or wat...oh noo...ma natural clock has set at 4-6am..lolx.... i m stil wide awake..and oh no...i woke up at 2pm..coz i selpt...hmm letz c...
mon-wed 1am-2am+ i tink is abt 3am ba...wow thurs power 6am+....fri 2day..nw...2+am..tink wil stay up til 5am...wow....
siao man...dunoe y i gt de virus oh no.....de com virus use non stop siah....arrr
somebody save me..i gona...can't breath!!!...arrr........y m i ...addicted wrst then drug siah....omg...watz gng on...
well...here another test...in sch nth much happenings thank God nvr go sch...he hey wait before say i pon...i reali took initiative wan2 go lor...but i juz laid ma bed til 2pm..when i woke up & saw de time i was like wat de...omg....plz help me man...and thank God tcher so called nvr go also...so no attandance taken...whew.....sweat some more some of ma frienz nvr go...lol...they woke up early..obvious earlier than me...hahs...but they pon...i wldn't do dat...come on we muz glorified God...and b a witness in de market palce...
anyway also thank God for sister Shannon...long time no chat we had a great chat yez...nt bad..hopefully i nt disturbing her wow...she'z indeed a role model for me man...powerful women...so power...i juz can't descrip.. wrk till...wow..if me i wil b crazy lor...lol...another wonderful powerful women of God is Michelle..wooo....sweety..hw r u...mizes u aLOT MAn...yah nt forgting somemore..those i noe...Jane wooo...jane jane jane jane jane jane jane jane..(007 sing it that way...)no offense apology if i offende u...Joyce....wooo....hmm...mises ya long time no hear from ya ler..hw u been?hmm...gt whoo leh...forgt it.. some more strong women of God esp..cgl...wow...can't remember names..well..i juz list out all those i so called known closer ba...whew...reali poor memo of me...but hopefulli can remember names...lol...aND nt forgting all gd sistas in chc.strong women of God...and..yah guys and ma gd bros....2...8p...women gt piority lah..sory...lol...
thatz abt it...wow...sweat..presured man...
arrr...stil need help addicted 2 com...woo...i tink nt com gt virus is me...hw siah...haiz....

READ TIZ.....Is very interesting..u shld noe abt it...

2005-06-01T17:05:00.000+08:00

remeber i say 5am then i slept?....guez wat...lolx...i over slept and nvr went 2 sch...well......thank God tcher nvr go was other ppl giving lesson..lol....no attandance taken 2 day...lol...
wooo....slept til 1pm+ hahahaha...wah pian break 1 day no sleep...hmmm;.....wil try someday anyway nw holiday...wooolalalalala.....so...yeah...hahs.....
wow...black circle gting wrst...lol o_o...muz break record and haf a gd zzz....2 recover man...lol.......hey ppl....herez some tips oon hw u can sleep less...and so called leser..(look less obvious)o_o...and can keep ya eye...look as if u rested enough...well...tiz might b no use...but is kinda of useful for me...i gt 2 noe it from some research i haf...and science show...lol...& also abt some basic knowledge that u need 2 noe...

well...basically every human being need a certain amt of zzz per day...
for infants...16hrs ba...
for kids3-12 at least...13hrs
16yrs need abt 10-11hr
in ya 20s u need at least 8hrs
by de time u r 60, 7hr is enough
as u grow older u needed lesser hrs 2 zzz....(tiz is taken from a book by john gribbin)
there r 5 stages ofsleeping...mst ppl onli go through 4 or 5 successively deeper zzz..then a fifth stage of lighter zzz in which eyes move abt & they dream....tiz fifth stage is called REM sleep, which stands for Rapid Eye Moment. It takes abt 90mins 2 run through all five cycles, & tiz hapens several times a nite...so when u zzz...doesn't mean u straight away will dream..or so called reali asleep...u noe rite?? yah dat y sometime we wake up y we cant remeber wat we dream...is nt we cant rember maybe mst of de time we haven reach de 5th level...datz y we haven dream yet...and a u can de hrs we needed...in s'pore is impossible every1 slept shorter than de mentioned time...datz y...and 1 more ting sometime we can haf more then 1 dream is coz REM occurs 5times...so diff dreams happen...
de fact is dat...NO 1 CAN DO WIFOUT SLEEP!!!
in 1970, 1 american study, 4volunteers each stayed awake for 205hrs(over 8daz) by de time awake for 60hrs they suffered from hallucinations...but they still keep gng...in another experiment, researchers tried 2 c hw little zz they cld make do wif each nite...even 5r1r2hrs of zzzz they found they were 2 tired 2 do wrk properly...
ppl wif insomnia haf trouble 2 zzz & staying awake through de nite...but experimens SHOWS dat ppl dun haf de prob juz dat they tink 2 much....time seems 2 paz very slowly when u lie awake worrying abt nt being zzz, ppl often tink they haf been awake for 2much longer than they reali r...
REAL ZZZ prob r caused WHEN OUR BODY GTS CONFUSE BY HAVING 2 B AWAKE WHEN WE NORMALLI B ASLEEP.....HEY...PPL...HERE COMES DE MST IMPT PART...

FOR eg...ppl who wrk night shift..haf 2 be alert & active when their body clock says they shld b...zzz....BECAUSE OF ALL DE DIFFERENT JOBS THAT HAF 2 B DONE THROUGH DE DAY AND NITE, MST PPL LIVE BY THE CLOCK INSTEAD OF BY DE SUN..TIZ thus change from de natural influence of time of our lives is mst noticeable through its effect on our sleep pattern...
UNDERSTANDING HW TIME AFFECTS YA BODYCN HELP WITH SOME KINDS OF SLEEP PROBLEMS!!!
for example...ppl sufering from 'delay sleep syndrome' they haf prob getting 2 zzz early in de nite...they haf troublegeting 2 sleep early in de nite. because the natural body clock is set 2 abt 26hrs instead of 24hrs..it is easlier 2 go zzz later rather than earlier..so if ppl sufering from de delayed sleep sydrome go 2 bad 3 hrs later each day for six daz, their body clock is usuali reset...it takes abt 1mth for ppl 2 change de body clock meaning...from morning shift 2 nite shift...they will find nite more awake and morning they will zzz....so it wil b very tiring if u keep changing shift...BUT...de main point is that alot of us in s'por or even around de world was suffering tiz sydrome juz that we didn't noe thought it was usual..coz nw everywhere is comon nw..for us 2 zz at 12am...expectialli ppl who r young teens aged between 15 and above...our body clock is reset till zz at 12am and wake up at 6am..m i right???SO ppl..sleep early...

nw let us go 2 de next level...when u understand tiz..we will tlk abt de effective sleep time...tiz is by another scientist...come out of news before...he says no matter hw bz u r...in order 2 stay 2 de fullest everyday human juz need 2 sleep between tiz MST IMPT TIME...WHICH IS 12am-3am..
SO do u realise sometime no mater hw long u zzz stil; feel tired...for example...u nvr sleep well..u try 2 catch a nap..but u awake u stil find yaself tired like as if nt enough zzz...well...de mst impt time we need is 12-3am..if u miz it no mater hw u zzz...u stil feel tired...rest of time r so called xtras...

so nw after all i gues mst ppl...who consider their looks will love tiz...tips on o_o geting rid or..lessen it..making it less obvious...it is impossible 2 haf none..coz sure gt 1..it is either nt obvious or obvious...

tips & benefits...:(ps:onli 1st 2 r facts)..lol ..8p
1. sleep at de mst impt time...12am-3am
2. do exercise and messarge ya eyes...dng some excercise making de blood circulate around ya eye tiz thus also can helps u 2 maintain a gd eyesight...
3. plz PLZ plz DUN LIKE BLACK COlour...either u like black or white do NOT like both colours black and white at the same time if nt...u will resemble=meaning u like panda...and u will become panda...
4. like all bears except pandas..coz is a nick for our..o_o
5. believe in yaself except who u r...haf high self-esteem..proud of ya eye..when u r confidence..when it is so black dat it looks like u put make up...well...show off..when ya frienz ask u..u can say confidently...:"HAIZ ...IT IS NATURAL...I M JUZ BORN WIF IT!!!"and give him or her a grin and blink blink**..muahahaha...
6. look on de bright side...do u noe that when u colour a thick layer or black circle around ya eye ya eye wil look BiGgER...and it is obvious u look cute wif big eye...datz y ppl put makeup and draw..dunoe wat u call dat sort...
7. HEY U R SPECIAL...and make it ez for ppl 2 recognise at least u have de symbol..."HEY datz de black eye mata hetam i saw last week...lol"
8. u haf a xtra ting which ppl..wan also dun haf...show 2 others u lack of zzz..and haolian dat u study...(whereby u didn't....)haf an excuse when u failed ya exam..
9. u can zzz at class coz ya eye ring r so frinking black that tcher onli notice dat...when u close ya eye thay also dunoe...lol...hahs...
10. 2 gt rid of it...make it worst...i believe that it gt a maximum..when it can not turn darker ..it naturali wil turn white...lol...dun try that unless u trust me...i m quite trustable 1 lah...lol..maybe for tiz...
11. deny it...u haf..ya frienz all mock at u...and it is obvious...either u say..."hey...no lor..every1 like dat.."..or..."hey every1 born different wat...dat means u scolding ma parents..coz ma whole fam..haf it.."..or u take it as INVISIBLE...AND dun tink it exist....

amazing...lol..o_-

2005-05-31T05:50:00.002+08:00

WOW...I M STILL AWAKE...NW IS LIKE 5AM...no 1 online...sianz...woo...break ma previous ...record decide nt 2 zzz...but ma eye very pain tink i will zzzz ...nw...lol...gt sch tml at 8 lol....

love love love......

2005-05-29T00:18:00.000+08:00

I LOVE U JESUS...I LOVE U GOD ... LOVE U HOLY SPIRIT...I LOVE AND I LOVE...
U R MA EVERYTHING...

praise de lord....AlWaZ....

2005-05-28T22:21:00.000+08:00

well.....ma results r like...no commenz...

well...kinda of pray hard...coz i believe i will b stop by ma parents in aLL activity....
hmmm......juz wana thank god in everything....coz i juz realise ..i've been.. i dunoe hw 2 explain...is like i tink...errr....urm....dot dot dot....k...nvrm...say also u all dun understand 1...lol...ya back 2 de ting...wow...whew....parents tiz time take it like... seems 2 b nth hapen...and nvr even so called...scold...is like blessings 2 ma ears...k...continue below...

aiya...juz thank God...for everything.....

also thank god for his blessings...its been a smooth week although alot of things still like seems 2 me....nt dat gd...but i noe no matter hw bad it is...god will make it gd...datz y i seem so hapi go lucky..k nvrm...i dun believe in luck...GoD BlEsS..

hmmm..........also dunoe y...seems dat life is...so fun....compare 2 few yrs ago...whereby i kept thinking abt death...wow...is like even dare 2 kill maself...every1 around me was pretty frighten off lor...hahs...even ma tcher...from all compo i wrote is like pathetic..and supa sorow ending..all no happi ending...when u read it u will understand...then even ma frienz..were frighten coz i everytime...i like u noe destroying maself...knife everything...cross de road like as if i own it...but nw..also lah coz cant change ler...de habit..lol...and is like i tell then i will nt live over 18 lor...and seriously told them they believe coz i was serious when i tel them tiz...lol

thank god that mel brought me 2 chc...ma lifez...been different...nw haf a total different view of life...another new perspect(hw u spel it..???k nvr per-spec)

and nw...i tink ive sin...coz our body belongs 2 god our EvErYtHiNg ALSO GOD'S 1...i confess dat time...i was glad that i've found JeSuS...I tink ...i wil nt lose tiz 1st love...coz it took me so long then i find it...its like my precious...ralking abt precious...we muz give up all...but tiz i cant give up...coz is god...hw can i give god god??? u gt wat i mean...lol

well....y m i talking abt all tiz...lol all haf been alreadi...a PaSt...we muz look forward...and present...lol...tiz reminds me of a doc i visit...
he very de funi lor...i go check out my arm...at 1st say wat xray...blar blar blar...before go check...i mean xray...he is like saying no use discusing wat will hapen coz is like he also dunoe...i was like wat de &*%^ is he talking abt...then after x ray he cant define any prob...but theres stil prob...lol...then he say thats past wory...and...i dun even noe wat he talking...forgt it...then nw i need 2 go hospital next week 2 c specialist lor...wat de...like no use like dat de doc...so far...hmmm....visited..5times of doc...wat de....next visit will b de six time...sad...

BUT...

i wana ThAnK GoD OnCe aGaIN....for healing me...coz probably it was preety bad but i dunoe y...i seem like..u noe normal..monkey man...so prayer reali wrks..ppl!!! GoD iS 100% DeFiNeTlY our healer...doc no use...if wait for them i tink i cld haf pain until die alreadi...nw is like...dunoe leh..
undescripable feel...jesus healed me from all so called pain..but..unless go bend then obvious pain...but sometimes de pain is seems like is nt there...i stil continue 2 praise and worship...although movement abit restricted...but thank god...i m still ALIVE...and living 2 fullest..and still haf hands 2 lift up stil can jump for joy..dance...

JUZ WANA THANK GOD...i dunoe y...giving thanks 2 god...is seriously very impt...
no mateer hw small tings might be therez alwaz smt 2 thank god...for his daily care...food drinks...and everything..blessings...hmm..ppl alwaz pray hard...but onli thank onli when smt big happen..but i hope dat is nt u...coz..u c...in order...2 make god..u noe apart of u..He is like smt obvious..he might b dng things u dunoe dat bless u...like a friend...u noe ya bestiest..u c...even ya firn pick up pen for u from de floor...u also...will say thank u rite? dun tel me u nvr...lol...is like so small things...u say thank u is like so call nt mean it but basic courtesy..god do more trhen juz dat...he carried ya burdens..and yoke and make it ez for u 2 carry....so y nt take tiz chance include it in ya quiet time thank god...well...i nvr faill 2 thank him...although is like nth...also i will take out ma brain therez alwaz smt 2 thank...

oh no write 2 MuCh...LOl WoNdEr wHo wIlL ReAd iT MaN....LOL wEll i wIl jUz sToP HeRe BA....

hmmm.........???dunoe y....

2005-05-21T01:34:00.000+08:00

well...juz 2 tel uall i gt update but someting is rong like cant publish....i tink tiz 1can???????

whew.....examz over......

2005-05-14T16:46:00.000+08:00

FINALLY FIANLLY!!!!!
EXAMS OVER WWWEEEEEEE...............
OH MAN.........
EXAM over
dance dance dance...shake shake shake........
wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
yipepppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
yeahyueahyeahyeahyeahyeaheyaheyaeheyaheahyeaeyehheyahey

I WAN 2 THANK GOD & DE HOLY SPIRIT ONCE AGAIN.........will let me share tiz true and weird testi....

well.......here goes nth.........

i actualli pray dat i wun fall zzzzzzzzz......during exam.....coz as usual i do half way i can zzzzzzzzz......even math tink half way ALSO can...zzzzzzzzzz...........maybe coz poor health.......weelll.........letz hope it is nt..........

so dat day during mt listening it is SUPA DUPA boring that i reali fall asleep....ALTHOUGH IS LIKE 50MINS.......the radio of a guy is keep mumberling smt...like niam king like dat....lolx
is like wer-oh....although listening 2 score but is reali can nt make it i wil....zzzzzzzzz.....
half way through .......izzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............

SuDdEnLy....A BUTTERFLY...FROM DUNOE WHERE FLEW 2 MA CLASSROOM...And is supa weird coz is juz fly in and do smt...and flew off again...........guez wat??????? it touch me genterlyyy.....on my right hand and off it goes........

i nearly jump up from where i sit............coz i kinda of hate butterfiles(in de sense dat it is disGuStInG when u feel it yack.....)......and ma frienz who saw it tink it is supa weird........

and well.......all thanx 2 de fly...i was awake de WHOLE DAY.......supa weird.....and than god i finish all de shading in time nearly fall zzzzzzz....and flank de whole paper........

well..........weird but true juz thank god give him all de praises..........

ps:next time watch wat ya praying and me detail coz u dunoe wat god might send.........lolx...

thank u w300..and every1..who is concern

2005-05-11T14:02:00.000+08:00

well..my hand is still nt ok.well gng 2 c doc...AgAin..haiz...sian ar...

well.....thank God again...and Jesus for being my healer....and wana thank u guys for praying for me?? did u pray....nah jk.lolx.....

well coz i dun reali feel dat much pain..however i stil can't baend ma hand...well...maybe coz i m heal mentally nt thinking of de pain and so on....i kept smiling and crappy as usual....so...my mom thought i was fine...but...haloooo......is stil like pain....so.......gng 2 c doc again lolx.....3rd time......hmmm........is it dat seroius....well....hope nt coz i noe God wun wan me 2 die......coz i haven fulfill cllings yet...lolx.......

love ya w300....keep shining......as we r growing....bigeer in no....nut i believe we r strong in loving each other amen??

keep growing.....bigger and stronger at de same time.......

we gona win de talentime 2 bring glory 2 god, michelle and w300..amen???

AMEN!!!

examz.......

2005-05-09T00:41:00.001+08:00

dude.......due 2 my stupid hand haven recover........sad........write slow like pork......guez nvr finish some......of ma very or so called ez paper man..........sad.........when i ok.....seems like paper so difficult.........hmmm..........smt wrong........lolx

well..........1stly i like 2 thank once again my best frienz...and my love...my GoD!!! and of course the HoLy sPiRiT!!! i love ya man.....

here goes de long story......social study need 2 study de whole sec 4 book......wat de.........and is like de whole of it.....faintz....arhhhhhhhh.......so as usual de lazy me.......who dun study at all.....so decide 2 chose onli ONE chap.....so iz like onli 'tecum' 1 chap....if chose corect then u r considered quite blessed if nt........1 word.....22222 baaadddd.....

so i pray 2 de holy spirit at de bustop......last minute chiong coz i overslept....and nvr study.....??? so i was like plz tell me 1 chap....i recall...my frienz all say if u wan study chap 4 SURE COME OUT 1........but indeed........de spirit told me 5??? lolx so i juz obey and ONLY STUDY dat chap 5.........who noes........

SURPRISED.....chap 4 DIDN'T COME OUT AT ALLLL.....chap 5 came out........
i waz very de high......2 bad write 2 slow paper ez also no time 2 do lehx.......lolx.........so .......haiz..........NO MATTER WAT juz PRAISE DE LORD!!!!!!hahs....8p

and another thing is dat....praise de lord.....yah for gd time management for all de paper juz for ss..forgt it....hmmm.............love ya 2 de fullest holy spirit and ma god!!!!!!!!!muackx......

celebration yah???.....yeah!!!

2005-05-06T16:01:00.000+08:00

once again....i m nt dry man no more.....for de past few weeks or mths i reali felt dry...spiritually mentally physically..........i realli pray very hard for god's presence and anoitings........but i felt realli reali veery dry.....well.........thank de holy spirit is back again and i continue my walk on fire again......

tiz time i gona serve even more.bless even more.....exicited on fire.......and burn like nvr before...well.........pray that tiz will be an everlasting fire....that burnz for eternity........

PrAiSe tHe LorD!!!well......i love HIM even MOrE RiGhT Nw then last time juz love???........coz i nvr wana b dry ever again if so i pray that my best fried JeSuS WILL B ALWAZ HOLDING MY HANDS.tightly.....and nvr let go......and holy spirit shall be de shy dove that landed on me and i nvr wana scare it away......

GrEaTeSt LoVe....i love ya JESUS....HOLY SPIRIT...GOD...almighty..power glory praises honour i gIve them all 2 YA!!!

ha-le-lu-ya man!!!!!!!!!wooooooooooohhhhhhhoooooooohooooo PRAISE DE LORD IN HIGHEST PRAISE...............

........thank god ONCE AGAIN..I tink i've broke his heart........sad...sad....sad........

2005-05-03T15:30:00.000+08:00

2day........flesh overcomes me.......i dunoe hw m i gng 2 save myself.....from tiz.......

i woke up 11am+ went sch reach abt..12pm!!!!lolx
my mom woke me by calling........my parents both was like..........wow....fire burning on their heads......

they say if i dun wan 2 study then say....so 2morow onwards no need go sch..blar blar blar.......
nag nag nag........actually i also..dun wan 2 study...but for...my sake and god's sake......
on man i m sick of TIZ.........

well......wana thank god that i setle tiz by nice chat wif parents.and no need 2.......being chase out of de house???or quarel.or fight .argue debate???

well..nt juz tiz......hw haf i broke de lord's heart???
i've been praying very hard that i will be renew.....and i promise....de lord 2 nt be THE SAME AGAIN.......by saying i will wrkhard......i will.i will.....but I NVR........(crying........sad sad sad)

oh lord....i m so sorry,........i love u.... i gave my everything....... but tiz flesh haven crucifield........plz give me strength.....let me be reborn..2 person u wan 2 c me as........i believe u wun wan me 2 be like tiz.........OH LORD.........HELP ME!!! HOSSANA.........

i noe u will help me.....but iz c whether i gt effort....i tried reali hard.........but my flesh is weak.or my faith is weak? i juz....very very tired.....i dunoe wat.............i can do nw???

LIGHT ME.....SHOW ME THE WAY OH LORD......GOD ALMIGHTY!!!!!
i wana tear away de inside...of me...i wan 2 dig out my heart........i wan 2........kill myself.....CHANGE ME LORD............I STILL WAITING FOR YA APOINTED TIME.......WAITING FOR M BREAKTHROUGH........I REALI WAN U JESUS.......MY GOD WAT CAN I DO???????????????????????????????????
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NVRM...IF U CAN'T C IS MAN FOR GOD 2 C..............

broken.....

2005-05-01T13:40:00.000+08:00

......my right elbow..........lol....broke......lolz
herez a testimony 2 share...although i look alright but inside itz pain till death till de bone....
past experince:pri3 ppl push me....metal rod go in at the left bottom(around gastric area)???by frienz/.....
....alot others smaal things cant remeber........
now....ppl throw me rongly(judo)???by frienz...........
CONCLUSION: frien gave me good experience .,actually i nvr blamed them before.........lolz
coz y? they r my frien..even though they kill me 1 day...i wun blamed them.......juz dat they may haf their own reasons???
but.......juz hope that they regard and remeber me in their heart.......

no 1s perfect..all are flesh......flesh r weak.....
BUT FAITH IZ STRONG.........lolz....

i was praising Lord when my frien injured me......i lay dwn there hopelessly groaning in pain.....
in my heart i was trying 2 calm myself by praising Jesus........
i bear it..wow....o_0 i nvr cry at all.....impressed......i was joking......my frien was Very guity then i say i m fine..i juz broke it..........consolation prize: I WILL B HEALED!!!...loloz
lolz no1 laugh and i left.... heading home....still praising in my my heart......coz i noe and i noe Jesus is wif me!!! then it juz seems...is pain and Very,........but i can juz laughed it off and creak jokes....non stop as usual......

2day i went 2 c de doc.......quite funny...she also a bit dunoe wat it is or the prob she twist here and there and gave me some medicine.....and said if 3daz stiilll pain then come back again.......lolz
i was like wat de.......wat if reali nt healed??? BUT I BELIEVE JESUS WILL HEAL ME.......!!!

well.....some ppl still dun believe.......1 of them say.......if reali itz pain then y ya face stil like .....alright????
let me share tiz wif u......I CAN BEAR THINGS till heigh level...MY EXPREESION IZ VERY HARD 2 TELL.....excEPT I M TIRED QUITE EZ 2 TELLL........i willl yawn and yawn....and then ..........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
lol
hahahaha

well thank god once again for lifting me up again i love him..so much that i can give everything 2 him!!!!

I loVE u LORD.......BLESSED 2 BE YA NAME..............I LOVE U JESUS.......
u r my healer....my consellor...my strenght my hope my dreamz my desire......MY EVERYTHING................I LOVE U LORD!!!

THANK GOD FOR HIS BLESSINGZ............

2005-04-30T09:14:00.000+08:00

I want 2 thank god for all his great anoitings and blessings...........
oh man.....during oral.....as usual i dunoe y tiz year SUPER CONFIDENCE man wat the tcher gave me ....waz dat i m confident and gd talker juz need 2 haf some vocabulary 2 show off........wow..tiz for el...for mt.....tcher no comenz juz said very good???
and for all my paper i seem 2 can take my own sweet time 2 do.(also slept for a while) iz nt i dunoe is juz.a weird feeling i can't describe.....well.........
mt paper 2 confirm fail coz..........urm....blank.........but look on the bright side i still haf other subs.....lolz..........
oh man............i juz wana thank god.....that he maid me talk i was like can't think of anything while cing the pics...but when i sat there talking wif tcher.....words juz kept continue..and continue......
THANK GOD.....he kept me in his comfort soon....
well....i juz feel like praising The Lord nw.........lolz....
BUZZ buzz here i go ...........check u out again.........

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2005-04-29T16:36:00.000+08:00

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Reflection.........

2005-04-29T15:36:00.000+08:00

dun say all.very pathetic .herez something from god......

wooohooohoooo........take out bible and turn wif me.........lolz..gd chance for ya 2 flip bible...

ecc3: A time for everything........

reflect on "incomplete life"......
3:11-12~"eternity is in our hearts"......thank God for creating us although life is hard but....with God....ya yoke and burdens will be lifted up......he will carry for ya........
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reflect on "huge burdens(part1)".......
3:16-22(*17)~God will judge.....therez a time for everything.....i m nw juz waiting everything 2 end and wat i m doing hopefully will glorified God...nt making myself pack......juz 2 a witness of god's strength

EVERYTHING'S ALRIGHT= my saviours walking wif me
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GONA BE ALRIGHT=AND IT'S GONA BE, GONA BE, GONA BE ALRIGHT
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LIFEZ ALRIGHT=I'VE GT JESUS WIF ME...NOTHING CAN STAND IN MA WAY AS I STAND STRONG IN DE INSIDE.............

WAITING FOR MY BREAKTHROUGH.....WHENZ MY APPOINTED TIME???

2day......28-4-05

2005-04-29T10:00:00.000+08:00

wooho..el paper.....praise de Lord i can take my own sweet time and finish it.......well.......during paper 2......as usual.in my drowsy mood as said by my firenz....i m like alwaz..........aiyeeee.....sianz............do half way can fall asleep.........dunoe wat happen and i wake up and do again............aiyoo..... can nt say ez but iz like so.....ezier then last yr??? hw come ezeir????(confused!!!)
pray hard that will paz....coz over write de compo by 300 wrds!!! arHhhhhhhhhhhh....as usual kept rising my hands 2 gt paper frightened my tchers...........they were like 0_o o_0 or o_o 0_o
THANK GOD that he gave me anoiyings and blessed me that i dun haf empty BRAIN whil doing the paper........."like alwaz....lolz)

WELL......I M GETTING OLD ALREADY..........sad 2 say i haven fulfill my dreamz any time might juz die-----so 1st like 2 tell u all hw i wan my cemetry 2 me..in case u all pput smt dat i dun like.....(plz go check out the choice of death part1)......
y m i getting weaker....even recalling names also gt pros.......hw man m i going 2 leave on.....
greatest fear....is dat i will forgt God juz pray very hard that i will nt fogt Him!!!
yeappp yeap.........huh..........o ok ,.....nvrm........brain failled

presence states:
brain power=33%
strength=1%
power 2 kill+assasinate=100% 2 the fullest!!!
a lot of rubbish and craps.........
PS:dun call me study coz i already am died.......

the choice of death (part 1)...............

2005-04-28T19:21:00.000+08:00

Well,....juz 2 account.....whoever c's tiz....2 bad muz do it for me coz....yahs.....u owe me.... if nt i will hunt u for eternity!!!

healthz been bad probably move 2 west makes me feel..pretty bad..health level been decreasing.....arh....been sick alwaz.....strength 0%....mentally drained out....tired physically and mentally..HELP ME OH LORD........

WELL.....back 2 de mst important part........

heYYYYY! take tiz and read tiz SERIOUSLY........

after i m dead.......
1.plz do help me make a christian burial.....encourage my parentz...and do stop them if they doing it all in buddishm style tell them i wiilll NOT NOT NOT its NOT rest in peace...
2.i want 2 wear very cool and in .plz call de ppl incharge 2 dress me the mst in nike shirt....
3.MOST IMPOSTANTLY...snoopy die die mst buried wif me....if nt i will reserect and take it....
4.i want 2 wear a sunglass...oakley 1!!!
5.i want 2 wear a pair of nike airforce...
6.do sing songs for me.....nice linkinpark etc....
7.PLZ DUN CRY....laugh at my funeral if nt very quiet.....
8.talk lame jokes...in my dead cold face....
9.make special coffin....i want it 2 be the mst comfortable 1..
10.larger coffin those glass coffin nt bad.....
11.buried me DO NOT burn....in case i wake up again...
12.THAT'Z ABT IT WILL ADD ON IN PART 2!!!

HW 2 assure and 100% sure i m dead.....
1.i m cold like ice
2.nt tant.....
3.nt moving even u screamed at my sensitive ear......
4.nt crapping...
5.my eyes r close at all times.......
6.will open and close my eyes when u waved in front of me....
7.take my tings and i haf NO REACTION i will juz.......
8.will nt say urm...o .ok......nvrm............
9.datz abt it will add if i tink gt nt............

PLZ DO ALL TIZ FOR ME ALTHOUGH 2 HIGH REQUEST BUT 2 BAD U R MY FRIENZ....IF NT I WILL HUNT U FOR EtErNiTy ........
MUZ DO AND REMEMBER IN CASE I DIE SUDDENLY................PLZ TIZ MY WISH............

HUGE BURDENs.....(part1)

2005-04-28T00:05:00.000+08:00

i've felt....hollow......y no 1 would follow Jesus....izit that hard 2 understand???
persecution getting worst....parents dun understand me.....blame Jesus for all of me.....i "hate"
hate the ones who curse my GOD....they shld live sinfully ....hopeless..... stress and nt blessed or fruitful... in their life coz of their STURBONESS......i can't stand it anymore....false statues everywhere being worship...... arhhhhhHHHHHhhhhhhhh
y....YYYYY....Yyyyyyy izit like tiz is there any solution???
sAtAn hell man........may he be casts into the fires and be judged........arhhhh.........y y y???????
Jesus love izit reali dat hard 2 understand........haf reali de hearts of all who witness de 'easter show' is so harden???
wat can i do ...OHhh GOD.....wat i can do for u.........my plan and dreamz iz 2 reach and save de lost...y.......Oh lord.........i had nothing but ya strenght u gave me and the power......
but yet still i can't glorifield u.........i 've failed u my god...
wat m i living for........for u i gave my all ..as u gave ya life for me.....i cant do anthing wif more anoitings from u.......
i cried out...i shout and screamed in my heart...plz help me......oh lord save me......shine a way for me......

on my own.......

2005-04-27T23:58:00.000+08:00

juz a few more mths and yrs.......

ninjado...after paz 1 tough traning.come so far.....make it juz left 3 more belts 2 black.......hopefully will paz all......

guitar...after praticing till i cry and wanted 2 cut my hands....i made it tiz far 2 grade 8....can't reali make it ..very stress.....everywk saturday drained out fully coz of tiz......

aural......jooining..it will b a history if i dist in it coz in 3mths need 2 "chiong" 2 grade 8 in 3mths.impossible.....

silate....new breakthrough so far no chinese join in sch....hope dat will b top in it.......

OLEVELZ......oh no.....nw wrk hard a bit 2 late.....pia everything .......ARHHHHHHhhhhhhhh
-art=incompete submission soon
-el=bad at interpretation
-mt=dunoe hw 2 write ant word....
-ss=wow...cant remeber all details
-geo=rong understanding
-math=getting from excellence 2 worst.....
-phy=same...
-chem=hopeless

arhhhhhhh..........juz 2ward de end of my life....stress stress stress stress stress........

life.uncomplete......

2005-04-27T23:51:00.000+08:00

tons and tons of work........seems 2 me no end....
i cried out 2 Lord help me.........there was no 1 but him......
although his presence is here but nothing can be change........
help....help ....help......
i can't breath ez juz for another day......
take me wif u Lord let me b wif u in peace and in ease......
my heart broke into pieces that is hard 2 mend....u mend it but it broke again.coz I M WEAK....
save me.....i m weak...give me hpoes...and dreamz....... i wana c u....
i nvr wana lose u ..i m dry 2 the bones indeed......
pour dwn ya waters 2 cleanse me let me drink again in spirit......
i wan 2 glorify u....
i m a nobody wif no worries but stress that kills.....
i need u.....
strength give me......
kill my flesh.......
i wan 2 live for u alone......
help me.....
help me......
help me..............
coz i cant hang on anymore........