Friday, August 12, 2005
k..was another---or-dinary week....thurs nth on..well..zzz...fri ..happening gt back olevel MT result...k k...realli thank God..weell...nvr felt anything...was like no feel at all..no fear..no nth..lol..pass=pass..fail-fail..so 2 me was like..haiz..juz take result ma...lol...onli 1 ting i worry cant glorify God...hmm..hahas..k...background details: i nvr hand-in single handout...nvr pay attetion..coz tcher was teachhing(so call mumbling)..zzzz...nvr even touch my textbook at all lol..wow..brand new can sell..lol...nvr even revised for it..juz go take lor...lol..somemore before exam go out everyday go play lah...relax enjoy..woohooo...opz...confess..i wun b like dat lah..tiz time other sub..in o..i will put in a LiTtLEe...effort lar...hmm..well..every1 in my class n other class was..like..face black til as if juz attend a funeral svr..lol..some haven take alreadi..sobsob..crycry...some scared til kept quiet,,..well..i was de odd 1..n my de other frien..lol..we 2 like nt humans odd beings dwn there...lol...
so as usual i zzz...yah but before that..i look at my frien who took her results 1st..coz she in de reg1..i last lor...k lah...4ppl behind me..need 2 wait like..urm 30+ppl...sian..when she gt back i was shock..k..she gt b3..she was supa...sad..lkike wan 2 cry..opz..n i targeted b3 lah..then..k...he details: shes a hardwrking evyrtime lesson gt pay attetion..supa guai kid..study lah..hand in ALL hmwrk lor..lol..nm study very hard for tiz..n result was pretty gd in sch..but onli gt b3??..urm...then..i still nvr panick..lol...i juz pray a very short 1..n believe still..God alwaz make miracles..dunoe y..i nvr haf doubts..though i saw my frienz like dat..i douted a while..but i cleared off every negative tinking in my mind...n i believed in God..so i felt peace..n i slept..lol...then i was woke up..by de calling of my name..time 2 take result..ws uspa blurr...walk there didnt even c hw much then sign de paper..lol..till tcher pointed de grades then i oorrr...lol...i sat dwn..tinking watz 4???...c4???...lol..then i ask my frien..i gt c4??...then they no lar no such grade is b4
...lol...then i praise de Lord...though i believe in 3..but u c..my background mentioned..compared 2 my frien..3??...urm abit supa nonsence..seriois..de paper section1 i leave it empty..although it was olevel..i also..hahaa..opz...
well..at de end i juz wana thank God...again he blessed me..n nvr short-change me man...i loved Him..all my trust in Him...woohoo...n i did it again..juz tat i felt abit soorrry n..urm bad...coz my frienz studied realli very hard..i c de expression they haf i juz hope..well...k nvrm...
till de end..wat i wan 2 say is dat..hmm..God is alwaz wif us..for us..therez nth we can do.. wifout Him..i wonder wat my life will b..sure cant passs 1 lor...lol...wifout Him..i wld haf died last yr..coz i kept tinking abt death last yr..before i was saved..i alreadi planned hw 2 die n eveerything..i haf de courage 2 jump...till i found Jesus..everything's changed...i found back my dreams my vision..n dare 2 dream BIG..dare 2 walk...fight the fight of faith..noe abt wat true love is..God!!!...my life's been renew..n i've been realli blessed n loved..i realli treasure everyday..wat can i do for God..hw can i lived 2 de fullest for Him...wow..look is been 1 yr..n been so happening..like my past feel yrs was supa jialat..like sian..nw is so happening..n i cant wait for every sun 2 cum..2 go 2 de hse of God..n praise n worship..n jump like nvr before..n shout halleluya..loderthenat home..n shout louder in my heart..feel de atmosphere...feel de presence..feel de touch of God...fill de hunger in de Spirit..filled my life...put in more God rather then flesh...i m so blessed juz feel like dancing nw..woohoo...dance...we dance..before ya throne...woooo............
loving u... @ 11:45 PM
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