Thursday, August 11, 2005
Well...continue from yesterday...yahs...abt de supa sch thingy...i guez some ppl wld like 2 noe wat happen huh???....mel...hmm...hahs...jk...lol...well...last last fri we began de evangelistic outreach....we wentinto each n every class...reach out..during recess i was wif jiasheng...sec 3 n 4..doesnt seems 2 go rite..ppl avoid us...hmm...so nt on man...haiz..but we nvr gave up hope stil continue 2 do it..till de recess ended..coz it was de 1st time...of course will paiseh..hmm..but dunoe y for me..is like woo...fun man..tralk non stop..i ask jiasheng 2 try..well.nt stressing him but..lol..he stuttered so i gotta fill up for him...hahs...guez dat i was supa chatterbox..k so we manage 2 gt abt less then 5 contacts..urm...k...after sch we went for another outreach tiz time wif huiyun..peishan..jiashen nt free coz gtD&T...yahs..so total we reach out 2 all de lower sec...sec 1 n 2 ba...well..we tried n they were more friendly..but..nt mature..talk 2 them half way can..vomit blood...they were playign watever fight lah..cards???...lol...urm so some ignore us coz they r realli very supa shy...hmmm....yahs we manage 2 gather 25 contacts..well..non confirm though..but at least step 1...they gave us their contact was alreadi..therez hope...woo..so we carried on...mon rest day...so all de way till de next week...which is last week...on tue we went again...n there was an add on of 13 more contacts...well..was quite..hmm dunoe hw 2 say..still no 1 had confirm wif us..so was abit sad..but nah...still believing God... and was quite troubled..keep praying...so during de nite i will take out all de contacts..n pray for de ppl..although was a short 1 but stll..each n individualli...woo..although they nvr come..i still thank God for favour ofman...and God bless them...yahs so de 1st forecast was 16 confirmed frienz..wow..was rejoycing...lol...hmm..hwever as days goes by...yahs...forecast... up n down..up n down..oh nooo...i was praying like mad...fastrated like mad...gosh is like attacking...the wrst...comes 2 de wrst...after confirming for 1 week..is supa supa confirm...de ting is ...everythings crops...up..haiz...every..so called potential and on 1s...is like backup suddenly...coz smt happen 2 their hse...i was like oh man...i has put supa high hopes on de frienz that r cuming ...dunoe y.. i was like oh man..n i pray also that they wil change their mind..but..haiz...smt horrid reasons like..grandma in 2 hospital..sudeenly..parents nt at home...need 2 car of siblings..parents objection...oh man...those ppl...realli deserve a chance 2 hearthe gospel...haiz...so it was up n down...
.........,....................................................................it was all de way til yesterday..the actual day..oh gosh....suddenly during meeting 2 ppl backup..didnt even tell us ...huiyun they all waited half an hour..for them me n jiasheng waited 20mins or so...haiz...was like gosh...n de forecast is 10...suddenly backup...1 more confirmed 1...wat de..cant gt thru lor..arghhhhhh.....was feeling realli bad..n i kept praying ..all de way...all de way..God gave me 2 verse i tink...lol...let me c cant rememberwat verse i tink is Ps36...i tink so..or isit 37 38..no idea..lol..and also 1 more Jer39..i tink or isit 37 38..smtabt vain hope..and also...then i realise hw frail i m...juz like wat it is said n mentioned...cry out 2 Lord or smt..lol...k...cant remember was abit..like..k nvrm...and then when..when...n finalli..reach doby gout..there was ONLI 7 confirm 1s wif me...supa sianz...somemore all my class 1..n xclassmates..so is nt surprising 2 c them...then sudenly i gt a call..from a new frienz...i was like so happi..and a bit..stress...lol...they r STILL at boonlay..wat de.....ohhhh noooooooo.....haiz...k save all de details sumaari\sed de wholething...coz lazy 2 type....so yesh i can say..i fulfill my pledge...woooo....10...lol...i was targeting more then dat lor 20+...haiz...nvrm...tins juz gts so crops up...n i've been wondering why..all tings happen so coincidence...it was a very gd chance 2 gt ppl save lor..but alot cant go...hmm..then when de sermon was so call chim..nt happening for new frienz..then they happen 2 come...wat si tiz man????...atttacking????.....oh noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.........
Lord save me...i dunoe wat 2 do..such little tings i can't even cope..or so called handle it well...comes 2 de wrst...Michelle ..haiz...realli ma fun her alot..she realli did alot 2..i m so...sorry that i fail her..and forecast keep changing realli if it was me i wld slap that person...thank God...michelle was loving ok dun pray pray..n i loved her alot..yahs..haiz i dunoe wat 2 say..seems ike alwaz i m a heart-breaker n a heart-mentor..irealli realli dun 1 or dun wish 2 let ppl dwn..but it is beyond my control...hwever i still wana thank God...for answering my prayer...n build faith in me...the little faith in me..might cause me 2 back-uop n stop trying but still i hang on..2gether pushing ppl who was wif me...2 hang on...whew..n did...ppl was saved i was preety happy...though we lost in games i m still glad...at least they heard of de gospel..n i believed God have touched their hearts but perhaps...they r shy n nt readi..i m all prepared 2 go for a 2nd round...
as tings keeps gng...i still pray for more faith...more strength..n more presence of God...n also...love ofGod 2 b upon me...i realli realli thank God for everything...
though i m tired nvr had a nice rest for 1 week coz stressing of some small stuff...but..it is paid off..well...finalli can rest in peace..RIP...n prepare for de next reach out...n i m NOT GNG 2 GIVE UP!!!!though i might b discourage...but ppl...as long u pray for me..its alright no nneeed 2 encourage me..no matter hw strreesss hw...dissappoointed i look,..no need..coz God is alwaz wif me...n he alreadi encouraged me.HolySpirit alwaz prompts me,.,lol...wif GOD ALL THINGS R POSSIBLE,...tiz is my fav verse..that alwaz i kept life gng...i loved tiz verse..n i trusted itall..coz God nvr short change us..His promises will b kept for eternity...
lastly..i wanted 2 thank pppl....from de bottom of my heart...michelle..ber...joa..felix who came dwn ...thANnk u guys...and i i...dunoe wat 2 say...huiyun..jiasheng..peishan...2...thanks for all ya help..n sorry for pushing u guys...realli realli feel very...haiz...
wat ive learn i dat i m weak..God is my strength...cant handle tings well...but wif gd shepherd..like michelle..woohoo..even a blur n lost sheep is me...is saved..whew..on de track man...woohooo....
Thank God...
in Him we trust...
Amen!
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