Tuesday, May 03, 2005
2day........flesh overcomes me.......i dunoe hw m i gng 2 save myself.....from tiz.......
i woke up 11am+ went sch reach abt..12pm!!!!lolx
my mom woke me by calling........my parents both was like..........wow....fire burning on their heads......
they say if i dun wan 2 study then say....so 2morow onwards no need go sch..blar blar blar.......
nag nag nag........actually i also..dun wan 2 study...but for...my sake and god's sake......
on man i m sick of TIZ.........
well......wana thank god that i setle tiz by nice chat wif parents.and no need 2.......being chase out of de house???or quarel.or fight .argue debate???
well..nt juz tiz......hw haf i broke de lord's heart???
i've been praying very hard that i will be renew.....and i promise....de lord 2 nt be THE SAME AGAIN.......by saying i will wrkhard......i will.i will.....but I NVR........(crying........sad sad sad)
oh lord....i m so sorry,........i love u.... i gave my everything....... but tiz flesh haven crucifield........plz give me strength.....let me be reborn..2 person u wan 2 c me as........i believe u wun wan me 2 be like tiz.........OH LORD.........HELP ME!!! HOSSANA.........
i noe u will help me.....but iz c whether i gt effort....i tried reali hard.........but my flesh is weak.or my faith is weak? i juz....very very tired.....i dunoe wat.............i can do nw???
LIGHT ME.....SHOW ME THE WAY OH LORD......GOD ALMIGHTY!!!!!
i wana tear away de inside...of me...i wan 2 dig out my heart........i wan 2........kill myself.....CHANGE ME LORD............I STILL WAITING FOR YA APOINTED TIME.......WAITING FOR M BREAKTHROUGH........I REALI WAN U JESUS.......MY GOD WAT CAN I DO???????????????????????????????????
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NVRM...IF U CAN'T C IS MAN FOR GOD 2 C..............
loving u... @ 3:30 PM
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