Saturday, May 28, 2005
well.....ma results r like...no commenz...
well...kinda of pray hard...coz i believe i will b stop by ma parents in aLL activity....
hmmm......juz wana thank god in everything....coz i juz realise ..i've been.. i dunoe hw 2 explain...is like i tink...errr....urm....dot dot dot....k...nvrm...say also u all dun understand 1...lol...ya back 2 de ting...wow...whew....parents tiz time take it like... seems 2 b nth hapen...and nvr even so called...scold...is like blessings 2 ma ears...k...continue below...
aiya...juz thank God...for everything.....
also thank god for his blessings...its been a smooth week although alot of things still like seems 2 me....nt dat gd...but i noe no matter hw bad it is...god will make it gd...datz y i seem so hapi go lucky..k nvrm...i dun believe in luck...GoD BlEsS..
hmmm..........also dunoe y...seems dat life is...so fun....compare 2 few yrs ago...whereby i kept thinking abt death...wow...is like even dare 2 kill maself...every1 around me was pretty frighten off lor...hahs...even ma tcher...from all compo i wrote is like pathetic..and supa sorow ending..all no happi ending...when u read it u will understand...then even ma frienz..were frighten coz i everytime...i like u noe destroying maself...knife everything...cross de road like as if i own it...but nw..also lah coz cant change ler...de habit..lol...and is like i tell then i will nt live over 18 lor...and seriously told them they believe coz i was serious when i tel them tiz...lol
thank god that mel brought me 2 chc...ma lifez...been different...nw haf a total different view of life...another new perspect(hw u spel it..???k nvr per-spec)
and nw...i tink ive sin...coz our body belongs 2 god our EvErYtHiNg ALSO GOD'S 1...i confess dat time...i was glad that i've found JeSuS...I tink ...i wil nt lose tiz 1st love...coz it took me so long then i find it...its like my precious...ralking abt precious...we muz give up all...but tiz i cant give up...coz is god...hw can i give god god??? u gt wat i mean...lol
well....y m i talking abt all tiz...lol all haf been alreadi...a PaSt...we muz look forward...and present...lol...tiz reminds me of a doc i visit...
he very de funi lor...i go check out my arm...at 1st say wat xray...blar blar blar...before go check...i mean xray...he is like saying no use discusing wat will hapen coz is like he also dunoe...i was like wat de &*%^ is he talking abt...then after x ray he cant define any prob...but theres stil prob...lol...then he say thats past wory...and...i dun even noe wat he talking...forgt it...then nw i need 2 go hospital next week 2 c specialist lor...wat de...like no use like dat de doc...so far...hmmm....visited..5times of doc...wat de....next visit will b de six time...sad...
BUT...
i wana ThAnK GoD OnCe aGaIN....for healing me...coz probably it was preety bad but i dunoe y...i seem like..u noe normal..monkey man...so prayer reali wrks..ppl!!! GoD iS 100% DeFiNeTlY our healer...doc no use...if wait for them i tink i cld haf pain until die alreadi...nw is like...dunoe leh..
undescripable feel...jesus healed me from all so called pain..but..unless go bend then obvious pain...but sometimes de pain is seems like is nt there...i stil continue 2 praise and worship...although movement abit restricted...but thank god...i m still ALIVE...and living 2 fullest..and still haf hands 2 lift up stil can jump for joy..dance...
JUZ WANA THANK GOD...i dunoe y...giving thanks 2 god...is seriously very impt...
no mateer hw small tings might be therez alwaz smt 2 thank god...for his daily care...food drinks...and everything..blessings...hmm..ppl alwaz pray hard...but onli thank onli when smt big happen..but i hope dat is nt u...coz..u c...in order...2 make god..u noe apart of u..He is like smt obvious..he might b dng things u dunoe dat bless u...like a friend...u noe ya bestiest..u c...even ya firn pick up pen for u from de floor...u also...will say thank u rite? dun tel me u nvr...lol...is like so small things...u say thank u is like so call nt mean it but basic courtesy..god do more trhen juz dat...he carried ya burdens..and yoke and make it ez for u 2 carry....so y nt take tiz chance include it in ya quiet time thank god...well...i nvr faill 2 thank him...although is like nth...also i will take out ma brain therez alwaz smt 2 thank...
oh no write 2 MuCh...LOl WoNdEr wHo wIlL ReAd iT MaN....LOL wEll i wIl jUz sToP HeRe BA....
loving u... @ 10:21 PM
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